it's also a lot of us, like, as you pointed out on learning, like I had that moment. Like, when I moved into an alt AQ, for lack of a better term, I guess everybody hates all dark now. But whatever. When I moved into staff position and moved away from being an academic, that was kind of my, I didn't even know I had ADHD at that point. But that was my sort of liberatory moment where I was like, Oh, I can stop trying to be that. Yeah. And just be whatever I want. I actually have I have something coming out that about that process. Yeah. Ya know, and it was, it was, it was, again, it was one of those. I this was one of the things, the few things that I wrote last year, right a lot last year, or, Yes, it was last year, and even the beginning of this year, because of all the shit. And, and in the piece, I literally said kind of like what you said, I'll only write if I'm invited to or if like, I know, the editors, and it speaks to me. And and actually, I was I even sent in the piece right now I'm in a period where I'm not writing very much. And that's okay. And you know, and at one point, I'll be inspired to do things again. And that's fine, too. And the editor, and because I was writing about this, the editor is like thank you for making us what are the things you're writing for? I was like, yeah, no, no. And so the same sort of thing where I, I talked about the exact process, but it was more about letting go of an identity. Yeah. And, and just being like, I can write however I want. So yeah, I turned into an ADHD writer, and that sort of sense. But yeah, you know, it was kind of like I can, like we've talked about before I can bang out 750,000 word blog posts until the cows come home. Like, that's not like it is. Because it's, it's, it fits my style, it fits the attention span, it fits the like, you know, it's either 1000 words, or it's 5000 words, but it's four or 7000 words, but there's no in between, right, like, I don't know how to do with 3000. And, or whatever. And, and it was just it really was and I talked about that and encourage in the piece that's going to be coming out soon is exactly that where it's like you said, like, write how you want to write write about what you want to write about. And again, it's more advice for because it's about transitioning out of academia. And always the question is, oh, can I still write? And it's like, yeah, but do you really want to? Yeah, I think that is also a question where it's just like, Are you like what you just said about like, you're not a book writer? Yeah. Right. And it's like, maybe, maybe it's not writing maybe it's podcasting. Maybe it's, it's, you know, creating a substance like, but but like we always, particularly again, in the humanities, we think that so much of our identity is built up in the fact that we can write Yeah, that doesn't mean we like it.