that I just started writing. I was like, just in the groove when the alarm went, and I had to go to the thing. And now I'm mad. And I'm not fully president. Like, I just don't do that anymore. Right? There was a time when it would have been like those four categories. Yeah, of course, they had, like, it's not when I'm gone. So sure, I can do that. And we don't. So that gives us a little bit of an insight involved there. And knowing like, I think I need like two weeks where nobody demands anything out of me so that I can write this thing. I also what I learned about myself, over the past couple of years is that I love the research part, actually, that I can't research and write simultaneously. Right? Okay, you know, so I had pitched this particular topic, the touch grass thing on materiality to Matty last August. Because it was interesting to me. And I started researching right away, because I was really interested in it. Yeah. And all he did was taking sketch notes, right. So I had by the time I sat down to start writing us at the beginning of May, which is after my teaching was done, like 58 pages of sketch notes. In my machine, just from over the year, I'd read this article, I wrote stuff down, I had an idea, I wrote it down beside it, right. So I had like, 50 things that I printed them 60 page, I cut them up, like and I deal them out, like tarot cards. I'm doing a reading of my own research, it was just so much easier to start from. That's amazing for me. Yeah, thank you. And that's like the workshop I was teaching to was about how to organize your research like this. The writing doesn't hurt so much. Yeah. And so because I know the writing hurts for you. It does, it does. It doesn't hurt anymore, because I've found a way to do it. Yes. Yeah. So that when I started to write, I wasn't like, Oh, my God, I have to research this entire paper, like, it was like, Yeah, and I would save all of the tasks, but it was just so interested in it over the year that I was just reading as I went along, taking notes like not typing 1 million words of notes for everything, I registering a sketch note about it, and saving that stuff. And then I had a day where I blocked out on like, all my ideas that I have, each one gets a heading and a Pages document. And I just write until I can't think of anything else to say and then I print them. Right and then I deal them out like tarot cards. And so like, I know, that process is better for me, because I'm less panicky, because even when I start writing, I already know I have way more than enough material. Right? And so it was during that period, actually, from the first of May where I got sick, where I got that cold that knocked me out for oh, yeah, days, 10 days that we're supposed to be writing days. Right. And the brutal that I didn't just have a complete existential meltdown about that was because I was pretty sure that even having lost those 10 days, I was still going to be able to write a 6000 word talk because I was so prepared. Yeah, I mean, yeah. And I will say I wrote some of it the morning of the talk, right? I wrote on the airplane the full day, but I'd lost 10 days, right? But I was really confident because like my research analysts were clear, I had a structure I'd like delta on all my stuff. I knew what was going to happen. And so that way of writing is better for me. So I'm not landing someplace thinking I hope they don't discover I don't know what I'm talking about. Because I did you know I was talking about right. So that was like, one thing that I know how to do now. So I don't ever get in that position of like, if I get sick during this period, I have to cancel this talk because I won't be able to write it down. On time, yes, I've found a way to spread the research out over a much longer period of time. That makes it fun. And I've compressed the writing into a much shorter period of time, which makes it challenging enough for me to finish it. Yeah, exactly right. I've even been collecting in my sort of photos. I do screen grabs of things that were relevant. And I've been filing them into an album on my photos so that when I went to make slides, I opened up that photo album on my iPhone, I already had 100 pictures in there of stuff I thought might be fun to use. I didn't have to remember what I thought was going to be good was already in there. Right? So when you're in that state of panic of writing, I didn't also have to be remembering stuff. Because they've externalized it. All right, yeah, externalize it all in my sketch notes in my screen grabs in the drawings I've made, so I didn't have to remember any of it. I just had to lay it out in front of me so I could access it. So that was good. And, and I yeah, I knew to limit my engagements in the weeks before so that if I needed to nerd out and go into the writing hole, I could do it and no one would interrupt me. So that when I got there, and I do ask to go a day early, always right, some people are like, I gotta fly and do my thing and fly it. I can't I can't function like that. Like I even had no, I had I'm sorry, Maddie, I Loki temper tantrum at the airport in Eugene, when I landed after a full day of traveling because my taxi was supposed to be there. And it wasn't. And like Eugene is not a big airport. And there aren't taxis just staying there, right. And two taxis from the company that were supposed to pick me up came and waited for other people. And I was like losing my shit because it was 10pm. And I needed to be in bed right now. Right. And I would not be in any position to give a talk. But I had a full night's sleep. And it was chipper the next morning. And I don't leave the same day that I finished my thing because I can't check out of a hotel and pack and like, make sure my airport shit is organized and then go give a workshop. I can't like let me do all of that stuff first. And then the next day, I will go home. Right. So and that saves me a lot of stress.