But I felt like I definitely don't fit in here. And I know so another one of my friends worked there and head office and she would tell me about their staff discount day where they'd get like, the stuff items super cheap and Lululemon stuff is expensive, right? So maybe a pair of leggings is $100? I don't know, obviously, I don't buy their stuff. But I remember thinking, well, when they have stuff discount day, I won't be able to buy anything. And maybe some some socks or a hat or something. I don't even know if that makes socks and a hat. Because they're notoriously fat phobic. And they have like, you know, go to size size large, which is probably a size 10 or something I don't know. So what if I'd come from that workshop, I'd gone to Lululemon to see about a job or whatever. And what if, instead of saying, and thinking or understanding that it didn't feel good to be there? What if instead, I internalized that stuff and said, working for a company like this would be really good for me, because it helped me become more fit and healthy, to be surrounded by all of these thin people, it's going to rub off on me. And before you know it, I'm gonna be a world class Olympian or something, right? You know, what if and that is very realistic that not the limping thing, but very realistic? That I would see it like that, because I worked previously for an organic food company. And what do you think went through my head while I took that job? I'll get so healthy with all the organic food that I'm eating. And actually, while I worked there, I sat behind one of the buyers, the buyers is the person who buys picks what what food is going to be in, you know, in store, whatever. And I remember him talking to like the other buyers and being like, Oh, isn't it so interesting how organic has a load of bullshit and how even the organic farmers, they, they think it's bullshit, but they do it because they make more money from it. So I was like, Oh, before I didn't really know about organic, I presumed Oh, it's probably better. But you know, the people who were working now know about this stuff was like, Nah, it's bullshit. Don't worry about it. And so, you know, I came away from that stand on a, you know, a lot of disordered food shit that I learned, but not thinking, Oh, organic food is better, or organic milk is better. I literally, literally, one time. So I started buying this really expensive organic milk. And my boyfriend at the time, he was a scientist. And he was like, why are you buying all this expensive organic milk? Like, I buy them in these really fancy, like glass containers? And I was like, well, it just tastes better. And, and he's like, does it and I was like, Yeah, as soon as I taste that organic milk, I'm like, I know, it's organic. And so he did a blind taste test for me. And so I was like, swear straight up and down. I know that taste of that organic milk is it's so beautiful. And so then I did the taste test, I tasted the organic milk, and I was like, that is the organic milk. i It's beautiful. It's lovely. And he was like, No, this is a milk from the cheap superstore. And I was like, oh, oh, shit. But anyway, if you buy organic milk, whatever you like it, go for it, whatever. No big deal. But, you know, luckily, some things there happened that stopped me going down this path of something else, Plan B, option B, path B.