course, there was something uncomfortable yesterday and Courtney being like, Amanita is topical, but like, fascinated, like, wow, you and ash work with it orally. She seemed skeptical, like, almost seemed to think I was making it up but I said Ash was one who encouraged me to ingest it first. we didn't do topical until I could walk again. Because she was called because she knew it was such a part of my journey that I had to take her into my body, because I had to have the complete experience that involved all the levels of my consciousness like that's how I had to heal. But it is a challenge, right constantly for me to be like you don't have to always be consuming. You don't have to always be ingesting in your body the thing to experience its essence. And that is my journey, and that is I know what this dieta is already trying to tell me. And yet I do really feel, I don't know, there's a battle in my mind. Even as I try to say this, I do feel that part of the message I meant to share is that, like, of course, it's not all about consumption. But also, I don't think the point is to eliminate consumption, the idea that it's like, you reach this more enlightened state, and then you don't need to take medicine anymore. I don't buy that. Like, I actually don't think that's true. I think one of the highest forms of worship and devotion you can have with something is to take it into your body. Of course. Why not like else would we have sex? You know? Why else would like the things that are the most taboo well, and this is just in that podcast about Mesopotamian astrology. You don't make bans against things that people aren't doing and that something hasn't compelled people to do so strongly that they will risk everything, that they will risk death, but risk death for their medicines, whether it's toilet bootleg liquor or a moment of passion, people will go to their execution for making medicine and having sex, because taking things into your body is important. Wow. This actually feels like a truth bomb. That's where Terrence is coming in, Yeah, buddy. Because he did not advocate he advocated the opposite. He advocated that the highest form of communion was to sit with the medicine in Abu Kalindi, I feel like is showing up saying, Yeah, I told you, and Acacia is not in from somewhere across time and space. Yeah, secret drugs are good, isn't Dude, she's saying, Yeah, I know ash led me to it too. I'm sorry. Takes me a while. Sometimes nobody's asking me to apologize. Okay, sorry, yeah, that's funny. I did that involuntarily. You are right.