Hello, welcome to this episode of fish fatty podcasts so glad you're here. If you saw this episode come out and said never monthly episode from Vinay I'm excited and you haven't already consider donating on kofi KOF phi, which is kind of like Patreon and you can do as little as $5 a month or a one off donation. Because cofee is what pays for the podcast? And the more donations that we get on cofee the more podcast episodes that we can get out for you. So yeah, I'll put the link in the show notes. But it's COVID kayo. FYI. First party? Why the hell? They don't call it pronounce it. Car fee? When it's buy me a coffee. Honestly. You missed a mark with that. Maybe actually, maybe maybe it's because it's from a different country and in that country. Coffee is pronounced cofee? Maybe that's what it is. Maybe did I solve the problem? Is that what it is? Anyway? It seems it seems strange to me. Hey, some news. It is might be relevant for about 10% of you. Or maybe if you just want to know stuff about me? Or maybe not. Maybe you just want to know stuff about fat stuff. That's why you're here. In case you're interested me. Know Vinnie, shut up and start telling us about the fat stuff. I just got diagnosed with ADHD with autistic traits, and some exciting and it's combined type. What is it hyperactive and inattentive? Yeah, so fun. And you know, who helped me realize that I have ADHD. Asha from the fact doctor. Oh, my goodness, if you are having any health concerns, Asha does sessions virtually. And I cannot even tell you how wonderful it was to speak to a doctor about health stuff. And then be like, oh, yeah, well, that's because of this and not blame it on on your way. It was just honestly, so affirming. And I've been doing this stuff for years. Right? But to have that relationship experience with Asher, he was just so fucking good. So listen, if you've got any type of health thing, and you just want someone to be like, Listen, this is what's going on this is you know, decoding the anti fat bullshit. Then Asher is your guy. So anyway, Ashley was like, Oh, you have ADHD, right? Because I was just talking about, you know, stuff that I was thinking and doing. And I was like, Ha, no, I don't have ADHD, obviously. Because you know, what I thought about ADHD was that I don't have it, basically. Because I had said to Asher, I could never ever work in a quote, real job ever again. There's no way that I could do that. And also, I was talking about time stuff and how because I'm an I'm an excessively on time person. And as well as not ADHD, because I'm always on time. And I was thinking, Yeah, I'm so on time because I'm so stressed about not being on time that if I have an appointment the morning the next morning, all night, my sleep will be ruined, because I'll be thinking about the appointment and make sure that I'm getting there and then then I'll be early for the appointment and then you know, say is an appointment online, then I'm like, Okay, well, you know, I've got half an hour to the appointment. So I'll just look at some stuff online. And then next thing you know, it's like one minute to the appointment. I'm like, oh shit, like where did that time go? Like what I was early what back? Anyway, that's just the one thing that that actually was like, that was like ADHD. So in Canada, which is where I am, you can get on a waitlist and get an assessment for free by the government. Well, not the government but you know, a healthcare provider. but you can also do private and private is $300, which apparently, in the US people are flabbergasted by how cheap it is. Maybe you should be calling our Canadian doctors and getting an assessment done that way. Because apparently in other places in it, and in Australia, it costs like $5,000 or something, which is bonkers. Why? Why? Anyway, so the assessment in case you're interested, skip ahead a few minutes. If you're like, I don't care about ADHD stuff, stuff. The assessment basically met a psychologist, psychiatrist, one of the two, one that doesn't do prescriptions, but as a doctor. And I had a 90 minute conversation with her. Just asking me about my life, basically, my my childhood and the things, the things that I perceive as issues like, how do I perceive that ADHD might affect be affecting me? And the time from Asher saying, Hey, do you have ADHD, to me having this appointment was probably a couple of months, because I was just mulling it over being like, do it and then writing a list on my phone of the potential symptoms. And I just kept adding it and adding it. And the symptoms became about maybe 60 things long. So I was like, okay, the more I learned about ADHD, the more I was like, Oh, well, this is a symptom. This is a symptom. Anyway, so. So the doctor asked about, you know, sort of what are the things that I struggle with, and a big thing for me is struggling to do a full day's work because there's just no, it's just so hard for me to do that, because my brain is distracted. And as well, too. So that's a that's a huge thing, because it really limits my my ability to work and make money. And the other one is that I struggle with future planning. And so making plans, connecting with friends, and so my friends are the types of people who will be like, Vinny, let's hang on, I'd like to work. Yeah, I'd love to do that. It's really hard for me to, to, to reach out to people and say, let's, let's make a plan. And let's do this thing in two weeks, or whatever, because I'm living it just in the moment. I'm not living in the future in the past, I'm just thinking, What should I do now? So always, like weekends, I get to the weekend, I'm like, Oh, my made any plans. Boring. Unless a friend has forced plans upon me. And then like, so, anyway, I really want to get out of that. Because, you know, it's nice to have a friend who reaches out to you like me, that doesn't do that. And my friends know, right? And I'm not, it's not I'm saying I never reached out to friends, because I do. But it's a real, like, mental energy taking thing when it shouldn't be. Anyway, those are the symptoms. They're the big things that really caused me distress. And then I did some online tests. And it was kind of like play this puzzle and follow this dot around the screen. And some of the tests I scored really well on like 100%, and some of the dust Scott and Marie lajuan. Overall, my cognitive ability was something like 300 out of 800, which is the low side of normal, which has nothing to do with intelligence, it's more how is your brain working? And what is it good at what it's what what is it? Maybe not so good at and so the thing that I really struggled with was remembering strings of numbers. So they'll be like, remember this number 17294842 You know, like that. And then I'm like, 172 you know? So apparently 10% of adults have undiagnosed ADHD. And if apparently the psychologist also, who also specializes in gender affirmation, like writing reports, so people can get gender affirmation surgery. She said that 50% of people who are gender queer, also are neurodivergent, autistic, ADHD, whatever. And I was like, Ha, she said something like the similar thing that's happening in the brain with gender is something similar that's happening with neurodivergent neuro divergence. On one on one wow. So if you if you are a fellow, gender queer person, or if you're a human with a brain, or if you were a woman, it also way less diagnosed, and your adult to weigh less diagnose 85% of people who adults who have ADHD are not diagnosed. I happen to have some Adderall in my medicine cupboard because I was given it by a doctor 12 years ago. I have no idea why the psychologist is like, that's another sign that you're autistic. Because I couldn't remember. And so I've been trying taking a low dose of Adderall and you know, it feels like I can hear for the first time. It feels like I 75 milligrams, but it feels like and it's 12 years old so it's not this probably less potent. Maybe you can kill me who knows. But anyway, I ended yet.