know, in Europe, we really value our vacations, and so this thing of rebooting is considered, I think, a little bit differently than in the US. It's like, it's very important to get unplugged at least three or four times a year for extended periods of time. That's something I really value about Europe. But I've had a cold, and, yeah, holidays and all that, but lots of good things too. So I can start with that. I mean, I sent an application, and I'm working on another one. I'll see if I make make it. And I'm trying to really work with these quota tasks and not feel like it's steering me that I have these deadlines, which, of course, I completely self imposed, because there's nothing really saying that I should apply or not apply. But I think it has to do with realizing that I need to feel my identity as an artist like to dare to be an artist, or the daughter dare to say that I'm an artist. That's really the hurdle the other stuff, basically, I can figure it out. And some of the challenges are ongoing, kind of emotional stuff. But I think in part of my getting back to doing art in December, I ended up neglecting some other things because I get I was, like, so thrilled to have the energy that I kind of there's other things that I'm now avoiding doing so I'm dealing with a little of that kind of procrastination, and also more on a social level, there, particularly one friend who's really felt like I've neglected her, and so we've had this conflict, I guess, where she said to me, Look, you know, you just don't You Don't like return my calls. You don't seem interested. Yeah, so I have to be aware of that balance always that then I don't sleep well. Or, you know, it's like, I have it's I have trouble adjusting. I'm having trouble regulating and scheduling and and because I'm sort of a night owl, it means that then I actually, I sort of like just working in the evening, and it's not that great. The other thing that's I have to be careful about is kind of the barriers I set up for doing things like posting on Instagram. I've talked about it before. It really is a big deal, and part of it that makes it a big deal is that I'm a perfectionist. I don't want to put things up there that look unprofessional, so then I don't post. And there are some technical barriers, like I, you know, should I scan? Should I buy a scanner? Should I have someone else show me exactly how to do it? So I'm starting to research whether to go in the scanning direction or to go in the I'll photograph it. And when I sent this other application off, they wanted a video, or they recommended a video. So I set up this whole thing with, like, kitchen shelves and God knows what all to like, make it face downward, and then I had to figure out how to flip it. I was in and out so many programs trying to figure it out. I mean, worst, and I know I just need some help. I realized, God, I just need somebody who's, like, more competent, who's done this, and it's not a big deal. I mean, I actually have pretty good skills, or I used to, and if somebody just shows me and helps me decide and helps me the first time, then I'm off and running. Can you hire somebody? Yeah, that's what I'm thinking right now. So I'm gonna, I've asked a few friends, two of them are photographers, if they know or if they could help me, if I could buy their expertise, or if they know someone else, or else, I'm gonna post it on this Facebook page, which is,