When it came time to be a full time stay at home dad, I struggled with how society viewed me and how I viewed myself. There are many things American society deems valuable for men were supposed to be providers making the bulk of the family income supposed to take charge dominating others in the workplaces, the sports field the gym. Modern American mythology reveals men who pulled themselves up by their bootstraps, creating something from nothing, not men who spend nights pumping their baby's legs back and forth to relieve gas. Being a stay at home parent isn't easy. You're a teacher, entertainer, Zookeeper, circus trainer, cleaning service chef and more. There are no sick days and the job is constant, even at night. Some days, it's all screaming mind numbing torture, some days you need a break. And there's a stigma against dad doing a job that isn't valued in our society. In the end, I'm a dad. I'm not the plucky side character in my child's life. I'm their hero. Fatherhood is a beautiful thing. And one of the first things I realized about being a father is that they don't talk enough about mentally what obstacles you'll face. I consider myself a fairly strong person emotionally and mentally and yet still, even to this day find myself grasping at my own self worth. Join me. The humbled stay at home father of a two year old son and a seven month old daughter on dads cry too, as I share both my personal journey of being a father as well as the stories of fathers all across the world. So that together we can change the definition of masculinity and what it means to be a father for the better.