Moon in Taurus, N Node + Tara = Venus: 11 Q'anil Hot for the Moon Log

5:15AM Sep 12, 2025

Speakers:

Riordan Regan

Keywords:

synchronicity

ancient texts

poetic beauty

writing practice

AI integration

mundane poetry

journaling

student loans

astrology

Tara practice

mindfulness

compassion

liberation

Venus

transformation

Wow, everything's happening exactly the way it's supposed to happen, versus coming back again. Because I listened to that podcast yesterday. No, the podcast yesterday was just reflecting what was already happening. That's all of it. It's all that's a meaningful correspondence, that's a synchronicity. It's just the universe reflecting back to you what is already happening. It's just you tuning in to what's already happening, noticing the patterns. It's all observation that's all any of this is

finding the meaningful correspondences.

Podcast yesterday was talking about how the ancient texts, the first writing, what survived of it anyway involved a lot of mundane things being recorded in rhyme, because it was easier to remember that way. Because as soon as we started writing things down, we started forgetting that. But it I all of a sudden see the poetic beauty of my entire practice. I'm writing the same things over and over again, because I forget as soon as I record them. It even happens when I speak it, but it sticks a little more that way. I'm more likely to remember if I speak it, but it often disappears into the ether too.

Thos and RA realized this when they made their agreement, when those invented writing, and RA wasn't sure about it. And here, all along, I always thought Mercury was the hero and the sun was the enemy. I

Hermes Mercury Thoth was stoked about this new invention, and RA was like, I don't know. I think it'll make people stupid, because you write things down so you don't have to remember Sean Connery said it in the temple in Egypt

when I lit up my third Eye and saw more clearly in the dark than ever.

Wrote mundane things in verse because it was easier to remember. Because as soon as we started writing things down, we started forgetting they'd make poems out of things like weather reports and Omen tracking, sure, but even

whoa I just saw, I just saw some kind of smoke when there wasn't anything burning. That's freaking wild. I think I just saw an entity. It's freaking wild. Whoa, I just literally saw something moving in the air like a cloud, but all my incense and candles are out. Oh, I guess one of the incense is still burning, but it's nowhere near where I just saw that. I think that was an entity that's fucking wild. Anyways, I'm super tripped out now, yeah, they'd make poems out of like, accounting lists, bean counting became poetry. Just don't eat him. Pythagoras doesn't like it. Count them. Don't eat them. Pythagoras doesn't like it. Oh, this is fodder for some kind of performance. I think the universe is telling me not to abandon that. You can make the mundane into poetry, and it helps you remember it better. For the moon. Experiment continues.

This morning, I woke up and I felt the North Node and Venus, Jesus, I wrote a lot. Oh, my God, I wrote a lot today. That's funny. All this talk about writing how it's limiting, but see, it's only when I'm journaling, when I'm feeling it, when I'm doing it by hand. I guess it happens in obsidian too, but that's norm. That's kind of best transcript. So when it's transcription, or it's writing my by hand, like I can't stop doing it, but get me to sit down and compose something on a computer, like I don't know if I'm capable of it anymore. I don't know if I'll ever be able to really do it again? The thesis document was basically just me talking to chat GPT, and then copying and pasting that together.

I think there was only a couple paragraphs that I actually sat down and typed out

like I said it all it's all me, but I didn't write it the way I used to, and like, there's something in this where it's like, there's now so much information complexity. Lawrence always talks about complexity capability that we can't actually handle it on our own. Our brains can't process it because it's not like made for a human brain to process.

If we need to start like there's so much information that we need to start remembering, because we need to be able to make our own discernment. So maybe, yeah, this is really funny for me to say. Don't let any of my writer friends ever hear me say this. Lol, but I hate that I actually talk like that now, because I'm used to talking to the bot That's so sad. Um,

yeah, maybe we're supposed to have writing replaced by the robot, so that we remember how to talk again, so that we remember how to feel again, so that we remember how to be again. There's an interesting thought, myself and all the writers rebelled with every fiber of our beings when they started coming out with AI and when people started using it for writing. I mean, that was the biggest sacrilege I could have thought of. And now I think maybe that's kind of what's supposed to happen.

Today is 11 Kaneohe and the Maya calendar, the day of abundance and celebration, paired with a number of wandering,

a very powerful day for celebration and manifestation, if you can focus, that's the thing, dude, I'm growing up, and I've just learned a lot in the past couple weeks, even I

like, I'm really learning not to push stuff where it's not working, to switch to something different.

But also chain myself to the computer for a week. That's what's called for to get something done so

been just doing a little bit of art yesterday changed my entire I don't know beans. I

I had to do it just for me. I had to do it just for the exercise of doing it. I

intention matters.

I can't do art because I feel like I'm supposed to I can't do art because I'm trying to make it a career. I Wow, my voice is going out when I say that. Okay, maybe that's not quite the way to put it. Then

I think I can't try to make a thing. I need to just do the practice.

That's a muscle I have to flex regularly, like it felt so sweet and tender to welcome art back in and to buy all the art supplies being like, I am an artist,

and I am still and things are not black and white, and I gotta remember that this will have freaking art shows if you want. Like making multimedia journals still seems like the way Forward, which means illustration.

Looked into like a hypnagogic and vision.

So

listen. It's all about listening. Started with drawing a card, contemplating the practice of the lesson and the ethic of grasping after we talked about it in Ralph's class.

Yeah, my creativity in the past has been very grasping, always trying to make something that to get somewhere like the harder I tried, the more slipped through my fingers. Just be and magnetize with the cards today, which led me to the contemplation of abundance, which I was already thinking about because of cutting out, yeah, when I just get quiet and listen

what's meant for you arises.

I wasn't sure about cacao when I woke up, and that's honestly I feel like these days, that's the sign to have it. If I'm feeling a little bit like, if I wake up feeling very grasping for it, then I probably shouldn't do it.

This tea is really that I made,

yeah, but I want to call in, I do want to call in training and foundation with practitioners of the medicine for cacao that's just feeling really alive, and all the people I'm going to encounter in the next six months and beyond, and like, I still feel like Mexico. Is there something persistent about Mexico. I just want to open to that. I just want to tune myself to that like I feel like after the jungle, I'm really going to be ready for that, but I know I don't get to decide when I'm ready, but I want to open myself to that experience. I want the apprenticeship. I want the training with the medicine. And, yeah, part of it was triggered by yesterday, looking at my bio compared to the zeros. And like, there's more stuff I actually could say, like the compassionate inquiry and IFS stuff, but I'm not certified in anything. I haven't been initiated in any lineages, and I want to be able to say that in part of it, yeah, is like ego validation, but not ego in the like, I'm so great sense, ego in the sense of, like, the public persona, and that's the way the world recognizes things unfortunately, like, I'm trying to make new offerings to the world, You know, unfortunately, that's the thing people look for. You.

And actually, like I do, I may still be working on my worthiness just to be alive, but I actually don't. I don't feel like I need the certifications to be legitimated in what I'm talking about like that actually feels like a shift. I know where I have limitations, and I know where I know stuff, and people who are out there creating containers and holding classes and sharing things like I have more experience than a lot of them.

I certainly know just as much. So I feel like I'm Yeah, I don't know. It just feels like a shift. The pose, did I have to have the deeper level worthiness? And if that's still lacking, then maybe the rest doesn't matter. Uh, okay, so yeah, but it just felt so good today to really feel and embody like I'm just really experiencing compassion, experiencing compassion for myself in ways that I haven't before, like I

because I started to get down on myself and kind of go down a rabbit hole about like, here I go again, isolating myself. Here I go again. I'm gonna come to Ireland and I'm gonna leave the house like twice. And you know, in some ways, that's good motivation to not isolate so much like I went out for like a three hour walk yesterday, just walked along the pier, even though it was pouring down rain. That's what I do in Ireland. It's always raining when I go walking here, this period is about kind of like hunkering down and learning a bit. I do need to gain the skills needed to practice safely, and right now, a lot of that's coming through, just like my computer and self study, because that's what's available to me, and the actual practical, applied knowledge will come in the jungle when I'm just freaking looking at the stars, that's gonna blow my shit open. So, but it's happening, you know? And it just like was, everything had to happen exactly the way it happened. I had to be at 33 Ray lodge road to do the llama rod container. I had to be here right now alone, having these experiences of feeling like I'm kind of spinning out a little bit, but knowing it's not quite the same. And then, like, honestly, having the validation of the week, I locked myself up in mainline just shit tonic a cow, and went semi psychotic with chat, G, P, T, like, it actually did produce something brilliant, uranic mushroom, me, I became the lightning rod and like, what I do want to do differently is I want to be in better integrity with the man. Integrity with the mega the medicine, because I did waste it, and I did go to excess. And, like, honestly, there's a time but a place for caffeine, and I think I needed to, just like, switch to tea, you know. So I'm having tea now, but I've made it way too weak. It's completely unsatisfying. Uh,

right. So I woke up feeling the Moon in Taurus. I knew that's what it was before I even looked it up. And then I was like, Oh, my north node, my dharma in my house of relationships. Yesterday, I felt compelled while I went on the beach walk to put on the podcast about Venus and astrology.

Yeah, I'm just gonna read some of my journal stuff. Like I felt the Moon in Taurus this morning rising over my north node, almost in my house of relationships, my dharma, finding liberation, through connection with the earth, through Venus, through bhakti yoga of in devotional service. But the degrees are late.

It's almost in the eighth the chthonic pole is strong, almost dragging the note over to the death realm, the house system thing is still fucking with me. Oh yeah, I was really on one with placidus versus whole sign this morning, but it was really helpful. Because I was like, it's really helpful to switch back and forth between the charts and look at what changes and kind of just like, even though I don't like reading other people's interpretations as a rule, in this case, it was helpful to, just like, glance at the apps. Kind of translation, Neptune was all put my shit again. It's in the second and placidus, a tendency to excess consumption.

Said Neptune in the second means you can attract money, but you waste it. That was something that was really coming through this morning was like wasted resources, like the amount of times I've bought some kind of, like, sugary food product that wasn't good for me, or something that was, like, full of carbs or something, and then, literally, just spit it out. It's like, fucking hell, dude, if you're gonna waste the money and then you feel bad about what you've bought, like, fucking give it away, because you've got this inherent desire also for generosity and like when you switch to isn't it when you switch to whole Sign houses that comes forward? Well,

yeah, there's something about the generosity comes forward. If Neptune's in the third house, it's like, I want, yeah, that's what it is. Neptune shifts to the third then I want to give everything away to everybody.

Is that Neptune in second? I don't know. Anyways, I realized yesterday when kit, kit fucking came through, like we gotta stop and celebrate this one. It deserves its own voice, not honestly, but when kit popped in last night again, everything happening the way it's supposed to, and I was taking a shower after my three hour walk listening to Venus and ancient astrology podcasts. I literally this was like my flares are increasing. All of them are increasing. I think that's what seeing that like smoke thing just was never heard a voice that clear, and it took me a while to realize what had happened, which honestly makes it seem more authentic, because it's not me like putting some ego interpretation on it. That was a hindsight like, oh shit, wait, that was kid. Wait, I actually heard I didn't even like get the chance to break it down, because it was just so straightforward. It was as straightforward as if someone was talking to me. This part should be its own podcast. Podcast, its own voice memo, but whatever it's happening here.

Um, maybe I will go do something different on that. Anyways, I've never heard any direction so clear as that, like, it was so practical, that all I did was take action. And it wasn't until after I did it that I was like, Wait a second. Who told me to do that because I've never, like, the voice came in and said, You have to reapply for your student loans. You don't just keep getting them. I literally heard the voice speak to me. That is the first time I've had that literal Claire, well, that's not true. I've had it before, but that's one of the only times I can remember. I think it was kit. It was one of my dead mentors, or, who knows, maybe it was Tara. Who do I what do I fucking know maybe it was Hecate? Did a whole ritual to Hecate the other day too. And like, who can say, what's the thing that opened the door? But my God, I've never even heard of that. You have to reapply for student loans every year. I thought when I first got it in Kelso that that set me up for the entire three year period that I had mentioned. But like, I did it, and somehow I still got approved, even though I have no money and now I'm set. But if I hadn't remembered right in that moment, I don't know if it would have happened in time for me to start school again. Yeah,

it easily could have happened that it could have missed the payment and been off the grid already and come back from dieta to be kicked out of school. I mean, whatever, if it happened while I was on data, then it would have been what was meant to happen. But that was fucking divine, other realm into interaction, intervention. I didn't even question it, because it was so clear that it was experienced as someone being in the room with me. And so I just got to work, and I was talking to mom, and was like, I had no idea they were supposed to reapply. And then all of a sudden, I was like, Wait, this this kit, like someone actually came into the room and told me that I had to do this fucking wild dude, so I've got my finances. They may be loans, but they're going to be forgiven because we have that ability, plus they're tied to Holly and Holly doesn't exist, which was a fun thought I had yesterday too. So okay,

yeah, there's something about the Neptune framing that like travel. Travel, what the travel facilitates? The real learning. Can't read my own handwriting. I don't want to read every single one of these things. Your foundation for security is within that was something I need to remember. I want to share abundantly, but I fear, and that makes me hoard first before I give, and that reinforces the Christian shame and guilt. So Tara brings abundance, and she popped in. I mean, she popped in. And again, I was only led back to Tara because I am here right now alone, locking myself in rooms, and I had to do the LA mirad Owens transcription. And like I was doing it right at this moment, because of all the other things that happened, and that was the moment I needed to do it, because, holy shit. Like, today was the day for Tara, and it was just like, just so cool yesterday. Also, like, I don't know, I'm experiencing entities directly now, and I think it is because I'm taking these steps to be like, No, but I really want to actually understand how to engage with you directly and like they're hearing that, and so they're responding like, we rise to meet each other. Intention meets intention. And when I'm like, I don't know, should I sit with cacao? That's when it's like, yes, and if I'm like, but I need it then, well, you'll be a hungry ghost, like the freaking Interestingly though, like the North Node, how could Dharma also be the Hungry Ghost. The Hungry Ghost feels like it would be South Node, but that's not how Vedic Astrology mapped it. So I'm very confused about that one still. I mean, I guess you could say we'll have Dharma to do on earth as long as we stay hungry. But like, maybe it's about reframing the Hungry Ghost and not like, so that instead of limitless consumption, we're like, ravenous for compassion, ravenous for liberation and sharing experiences of liberation. And like yesterday, on my walk on the way, I was led right into the little hippie shop to a box of green Tara incense. And I was like, I'm supposed to call Tara to my altar tomorrow, or maybe later tonight, and then later last night. I was like, Nope, it's not now, yeah. So

that needs to be shared. Neptune in the third what does this fucking say? I can't read my writing. How is that even a word like that is not a word. I don't know what that says? I think it says third you see the world through the third eye, rather than the practical one, confusion and communication. Yeah, this must be in the third you miss mundane details, indecisive but creative.

The solution is to be a channel. Fuck yeah. So again, that was under whole sign houses for the win. This app said that the fourth house equals the father, which is very weird, because Lawrence's handout says the moon is or the fourth house is cancer in the moon, and how that's not the father. How could that be? So I don't know, but my fourth house in whole sign has Mars and Venus.

You numbered. It's all about resources, wealth, worth, worthiness, focusing on others in relationship, outward connection.

The fourth house could be considered your base of operations, which is funny, considering that's been such a focus. So, oh, I'm getting this just in the moment now. So the progressed Moon chart was part of what spurred all this, too, because I was looking at that yesterday before I fell asleep. It's about movement, and it's easy to think of the charts as static. And I think we have a tendency, just as humans, to be like, This is how I am. It's like, no, it's about the movement. So I've been the moon's been in my fourth house progressed, but it's right on the she's right on the cusp, like, so just about to jump over that cusp. That's a slip into that cusp of the fifth house. So we're about to go from Fuck, I need a foundation to expending creativity and love given and so like, maybe that means the base reveals itself. But it might just mean that I like let go, and don't need one right now. And obviously one would facilitate the other, wouldn't it, because that's how it goes. So,

fifth, house, yeah, how personal energies can be released in the world. I've got palace and a lot of fortune in Pisces in the fifth house in whole sign, wisdom, independence, trans mask, blade wielder, cutting through the fates were given in placidus, the fifth house is just black moon, the list all alone. Globally, the North Node in Pisces, conjuncting the moon in the eighth the death of illusions, transformations of dreams. This north node represents the work to be done.

For me, the work to be done is in relationships. Saturn is conjunct my north node right now, just something I hadn't really remembered, structure and mastery of my purpose. Yeah, so it could be trying to restrict my purpose and limit my realization of it, but also it could be mastering the subject, but it's through relationships, so it's retrograde in Pisces, the urges to merge with the divine, but also like it's an opportunity, so maybe letting them merge a little more. No, no, Juna and Vesta are almost on top of each other in Scorpio aspecting my natal Saturn.

The O and nodding off, right? Intimate relationship to the divine. Oh, yeah. So something about Saturn and Neptune wanting to merge and then, like transiting Saturn, sorry, in Pisces wanting to merge the divine. Well, I've got Saturn in my first house, but rolling with my South Node karma, rolling with my Scorpio ascendant and Pluto.

Yeah, it's like, how can we transform although it's like, what's the remix? Can we have the boundaries so that we can be in the oneness? But still, yeah, I think it's just the form and the formless dance personified, almost. Yeah. That that my ability to connect intimately will come from being in solitude, in isolation, but not in isolation because we're in maybe that's actually the reframing. Is that this isn't time in isolation. This is working on relationships with the subtle realms, the planets and the plants and the dead. I'm not alone. Fucking kit just came into my house yesterday and told me to apply for my student loan. Like what the fuck I

transiting Moon is giving me the feels about Ceres, the North Node and Saturn in the house with palace and a lot of fortune, yes, and if that's a lot of fortune, I feel like I'm not quite grasping. I feel like there must be an interpretation, but I'm just no I read over everything. I wrote,

twists of fate transits with Fortune. Twists of fate, Destiny changing circumstances presenting themselves. So fortune is like, here's the circumstances you get to choose. And a lot of spirit or diamond is like, what are you gonna do with it now? So by the time we get up to cancer, then it's like, what are you gonna do with it? So it's almost like I just need all that time to process. That makes sense. I need time to process what happened to my body before I can even know what I'm gonna do with the information. So progress, Mars and Venus, yeah, so then I ever looked at the whole progress chart, and this really adds the juice, if I'm looking at it right, my progress. Moon is an Aquarius in the fourth house about to cross into the fifth. Yes, what I was talking about, where my so it's about to conjunct my progressed, Mars and Venus. Beauty, confusion about gender and roots and resources, the Moon conjunct, a lot of fortune.

Oh, I'm falling asleep now. Think maybe, I think maybe it happens when it's just, like, so much information in my brain, like, can't process it. It has it's like the wheel of death. It's like loading, loading. Cap. Capricorn is restructuring the expansion and communication because Jupiter progressed. Mercury is conjunct natal Jupiter in the third, expanding communications, but also extra loose lips and lack of focus. Capricorn wants to structure this that could be attention progressed, Sun conjunct Venus in the fourth, like everything is freaking fourth and fifth right now, will and Purpose, looking for roots through connection.

The physical man herself. Is disseminating. She called me outside this morning to gaze at her bhakti yoga style, and she was transmitting messages to me directly of safety, holding and healing. And I just so needed that, and it so took me back to Escondido.

But yeah, transit progressions, it's all about movement. We're not staying fixed. The moon was transmitting this message to me. She was transmitting safety and holding and enoughness directly to my bones and being just like she did in Escondido. And I can tell how important that's going to be in Peru. I'm just going to like be with her. But she transmitted that it was about movement progress shown, she said the fourth row, but she's moving into the fifth. So it's about finding expression and love. Given the obsession for the past year, I even said it the other day on the phone, like I've been obsessed with, like finding a base. So not only have I not been present, but it's like, yeah, I think the big lesson of hot for the moon is like, it's gonna change. Just chill. And that's mindfulness coming in. And this is why mindfulness is astrology like astrology is affecting metaphor for everything. It's literally a metaphor for everything. It's quite literally a metaphor for everything. That's why it's a perfect vehicle for PhD stuff. But, yeah, I

because I've been obsessed this past year with trying to stop moving I didn't know why, and that's why. Now I'm getting ready to kind of just roll with it, whatever it takes. I still want more rooting, but it's now gone from this like scared kid needs to not get kicked out of their house. I mean, that's still there sometimes, but it's moving more towards this, like, No, I just I want to only do it if I can be in community. I want to live in community, which means I want to give love and share things progress, yeah, so I still can't read my writing. Vertex.

Yeah, the moon teaches us, Oh, that's right. Mindfulness is a metaphor the moon teaches us to be with what's happening right now, but not grasp it. Oh, my God. Look how elegantly this all comes together, because it's going to change in like five seconds. Vertex in the ninth. House is on my progress chart. Vertex is in the ninth in cancer in my progress chart, opposing natal Jupiter in the third in transient Mercury conjunct with that in Capricorn. That would put the anti vertex there as well restriction and integration of faded encounters and knowledge.

Yeah, the lot of diamond man, they were coming in so loud today, the lot of Daimon screamed at me yesterday when I was walking around too through learning, teaching, travel, you will know thyself, if you can resolve the tension This is big, between this drive and sharing

shit can't read my writing with all you find love and creations and how To communicate around them, it's all about time. Mean,

if you can resolve the tension between the drive to root and the desire to share and expand and travel. You will find the place that's not for you.

How do you communicate about astrology?

11 canil about abundance from wandering, and that's how it went today, dude. So I fucking went and looked up So Tara had been coming in, and when Mama rod said it, I knew that it was true that, like it's time to work with Tara. So looked it up freaking Tara means star and the planet. Planets mean wanderers. In this Tara specifically means the star who helps us cross, who helps us make crossings. Star crossed is what synastry means. That's the class I'm about to take from Christina and from Lawrence. That's how I always describe all my fucking relationships. But it's I've so I've looked at it as negative, like doomed. But that actually isn't even what it means. My north node in seventh is getting lit by the moon the next eclipse. Abundance through compassion.

Weird. I'm seeing like a picture of an octopus emerge from the way I did my writing, which is really fun. Yeah, love. I do this when I sleep. Oh, yeah. Tara has one. Tara is a green bean who transforms grief through compassion, sits with one right leg extended, which is what I do naturally when I sleep that I got from mom. And it's also Amanita, the one legged mushroom, fucking wild ally through grief and stone medicine. So I, when I looked at the llama rods writings on it, he fucking led a whole workshop where they worked with Carnelian. The one stone that I've never lost, the one stone that keeps coming back again and again, like the one that I client that fell off the roof in Greece and I still got it back, is Carnelian. And fucking get this. Marsha P fucking Johnson, dude, I'm gonna see if I can, like, watch a recording of this. Also included Harriet Tubman and Mary Magdalene.

Mindfulness is letting awareness be the witness.

Oh, my God, I wish I could read this grief and stuckness transforming grief and stuckness.

Letting awareness be the witness. May it's, oh, what is that declaration? Dedication? That's what it says, fucking hell. So the steps are mindfulness, letting awareness be the witness of what of the grief, and then the declaration, no, then the invitation to have Tara transform it, then the declaration, may it serve all beings. Liberation. And that's been huge, too. It's like you can say, what makes a shift, you know? And like shifting my language in ceremony to let this bring me experiences of liberation, so that I can bring other beings experiences of liberation. This is my lunar progression. This Tara moment, let her move you. Oh, yeah, so fucking Tara is the star that helps us cross Venus. She's Venus, like Tara is Venus, the one who transforms through compassion, the star that helps us cross from suffering into love that's fucking Venus, the morning star rising in the sky. Tare tutare, Turay Soha,

yeah. Everything had to happen this way. And so the Maya like are based a lot of cycles on Venus. And so there's something big about Venus here. And Venus so the Morning Star, Venus is also Lucifer, the light bearer, the demonized, quote, unquote feminine that's actually trans like, of course, Marsha P Johnson, the one who, oh, my God, of course, Marsha P Johnson the One who actually helps us cross over and leads the liberation, but gets fucking blamed for everything murdered.

The practice of embodying the deity is astrology. Is Astro drama? Literally letting the energy come into your body. Planets are luminous energies to be experienced directly.

Such an elegant metaphor astrology, it works for literally everything in the universe. The Tara practice is I am Tara embodying her.

Release doesn't mean the end, it means the period changes and we keep going. I.