But there are some people who you know who this is true for, you know, I'm not going to say there's no fat people who subconsciously subconsciously want you to get fat because they experienced trauma or abuse. Or there's not anything that people who experience trauma and abuse and consciously wanting to get fat, or, or stay fat or become fatter, or whatever it is. But there's a big word on that note, on that big note on that word. Some there are some people but it's not. I don't think it's often the reality for most fat people. Being fat is super complex. And what we know that is that being poor being black, indigenous person of color, not having access to health care, genetics, living in food deserts, being overworked, experiencing stress, and a massive thing experiencing stigma, massive thing they're exploring stigma are reasons why some people have a higher likelihood of being fat or are fat. Basically, it's a social justice issue. And that also includes experiencing trauma like trauma, and the way that we deal with it as a society is a social justice issue. And as well, I would acknowledge there are benefits to being fat. Like, whoa, of course, there's benefits to being fat. Being fat is amazing. We talk about the horrors of being fat and and, you know, the way that I'm reading that passage is kind of I know, there might be a a note of do you actually like it? Because if you like it, that's kind of weird. There might be a note of that. I don't know. I don't know. Obviously, you know, things can be misconstrued but, you know, Are there benefits to being fat? Fuck yeah, there are benefits because I think being fat is awesome. So for example, for me, it feels like I'm in some cool club, like a secret society. It's not so secret. But I'm like, I'm in this group of people. Other awesome fatties and especially being in Vancouver where there's like three fat people, whenever I see a fat person, that's hyperbole. Whenever I see a fat person on the street, it's kind of like I feel like, Oh, hey, you know, I'm not like, Oh, hey, because they're probably like, what the fuck go away. Now I'm like, Oh, there's another one of us. Because it's, you know, this, this height, it's very kind of, there's also straight sides, people here. Also, I see my body as a dickhead screening device. So if someone doesn't like me because of my size, and that's great that I don't accidentally have to have them in my life. Like if I was a straight size person, I don't have this. I could end up being friends with or dating someone even worse, that is fat phobic. And I have not discovered that because they're dating me because I'm straight size. And he's only if you know, I happen to become fat or, you know, their views on fatness comes out or something. I don't know that I'm like, Oh, shit, I fall in love with a fat five. Whereas it's less likely that it's going to happen because fat five might not want to date me. Yeah, probably not. Who knows? They might do because they secretly love at BMO. And something I want to go back to is in that book, I said, Oh, hey, I'm going to make a note on this, you know this bit. So in the book, it says otherwise, he says, If you recognize yourself in one of these stories, it's tiny, we explored the benefits of being fat, and the ways in which you rely on your fat to protect you. Otherwise, you may continue to sabotage yourself when it comes to developing healthier habits. So that that line kind of stood out to me because it's kind of it feels like it's correlating. It's saying that you have a choice to be fat, and that if you subconsciously want to be fat, you're maybe what it's saying is if you're if you subconsciously want to be fat, you're not going to engage in behaviors that are health promoting. Because you maybe because you believe that if you engage in behaviors that are health promoting, like reducing your stress, or dismantling systemic fatphobia, which is I don't think this is this is not what Linda was saying, here, I think Linda was saying is like, moving your body more because moving your body moving your body is definitely beneficial for your health. So maybe this is what what is saying here is that