Methodology + Auto-Observation: Old Skool Hi Dose Cacao

6:23AM Jun 27, 2025

Speakers:

Keywords:

auto-theory

meta documentation

PhD experiment

institutional structure

direct experience

indigenous systems

psychedelic experience

jungle learning

plant communication

mystical documentation

non-coherent work

teleology

snapshots of experience

elder humans

altars and workshops

Okay, every time I think I'm done, then more comes in. So if part of the experiment in consciousness is how can I disappear completely? But like using i and the means of connection of materiality, the body and the mind. How can I use the body and the mind to disappear completely, to transcend them? And this PhD is all about auto theory and meta documentation. I

like, how can I get a PhD by not participating in the program? Is kind of what I feel like I'm doing. Because that's what it seems to be about. It's like, how can I use the process of being rejected from the systems and opting out and, like, not participating in funding and grants and not participating in all the traditional ways of doing it. Like, how can I get a PhD by not doing it? How could I get a PhD by, like, participating as little as possible in the actual institutional structure of it? Can I still get the piece of paper by doing what I would do anyways, going to the jungle and learning from the plants directly, like this is sort of the game I think that I'm trying to play is the like, can I still get them to give me the piece of paper if I don't do any of the fucking shit they say that I'm supposed to? Can I still get them to give me the piece of paper with those three letters if I actually just fuck off and go to the jungle and remember how to speak to the plants directly, and use the dead as my citations, and use psychedelic experience as my citations, and use direct experience as my citations. Like, obviously, I'll read some stuff along the way. It's me, but like, I think that's the point of this whole project.

Can I get them to grant me those three letters by basically doing none of the things that they'd expect of me, by forging my own study, by reminding us that the original form of study was to go to the fucking jungle by yourself in a hut and talk To the plants and talk to the dead

and talk to the gods, and you've got some elder humans to guide you, but

yeah, by returning to these indigenous systems of direct experience, like that is my thesis. That was my thesis from the beginning. And I document this journey in this kind of red book, like mystical way of images, drawings, scrollings, transmissions. Collages, found objects, altars, workshops that help people remember conversations, just conversations don't necessarily have a point or a thesis snap. Snapshots of experience, moments in time, vessels, containers. That's all we are, and that's all I can present to you. I can't present to you something finished. I can't present to you a body of work that is quote, unquote, coherent. I can't present to you something with a beginning middle and end, necessarily,

but I can show you a moment that, like, has a teleology and, you know, I guess it has a beginning, middle and end, sort of. But I

it only from a certain perspective.

That's it. But you know, how do we even convey that without rambling like. Going to take for five minutes? Do.