This is despite my day and night time lucidity exercises and having little stress in my life. Are there reasons for this ebb and flow dream recall. Yeah, there are, first of all, what are you going through Heather's supernormal. And again it's it's this. This amnesia memory thing is really interesting. It's really interesting. So, let me just go to a little primordial riff on this and then we'll be more practical, and a very real level. You know like when Roger region says the essence of spiritual practice is remembrance, this is a colossal statement, Because it's not just merely coming back to the present moment, which is what the word mindfulness, it actually in the Tibetan language translates as grandpa recollection. The practice of mindfulness is the practice of memory coming back to the moment, coming back to the moment. So not only does remembrance apply to that return to the present moment, but that's a kind of a micro step on the path to the primordial remembrance of our true nature, that again, we're already awake, we're already the Buddhists so this idea of, of amnesia and enemies is, is a big one. That's really in so many ways from an absolute perspective the spiritual path jogs our memory. And so the fact that you have periods of amnesia, I mean we all suffer from primordial Nisha you, Heather you forgotten that you're a Buddha. Really you forgotten you forgotten your Buddha. Whoa. So the teachers are all here to like don't slap us they're, they're here to jog our memories. Hey, wake up. Wake up. Wake up wake up your Heather you're a Buddha Don't you see that. So you know you have that amnesia, as do, as do is do many other people we just forget, you know, I think I'm just as confused. Cindy and being and Andrew kind of can, or Andy can confirm that yes indeed, he is a confused sentient being. So next time I get on the line, Andy, you should say, oh, no, you're not Andrew you're the Buddha, that's your job is to remind me okay but. So how they're practically speaking, what you're going through is super common. It's like, interestingly enough when I was talking to Katie Krishna Das about devotion, remind me of what one of my teachers Paulo PJ said about this where he said, same thing applies here. Same applies to these practices, He said devotion is, is, is like an EKG. He says it's never flat if it was flatline, you know, EKG you'd be dead. Devotion is up one day down then like the stock market up one day down one day up one day down one day. And so this is just absolutely par for the course, but you will find, like, here's another analogy like the incoming tide, you know elicits a tsunami the tide advances received advances recedes advances recedes, but eventually it just advances, right. So, when you're going through a super common, Why you're going through it now, hard to say but also I can tell you is a very very common where you enter these kind of droughts, deserts where like nothing's happening, man. Well, something's actually happening but it's happening below the radar. And this is where it's important to understand dimensions of mind. It's happening at the level of your substrate consciousness, you're, you're eighth consciousness. You're putting heat into the system, you just added a full boil yet. So, if you understand this and you understand what's called phase transformation. Literally the analogy of heating is good, you know, you put a pot of water on a stove, depending how big the pot is how cold the water is and how much heat you're turned on, you're putting energy into the system. But there's all these variables, sooner or later, if you just stay with it, you get this phase transformation it'll, it'll turn, it'll start to boil, you will start to gain more constancy and lucidity, but for now, what I would do is like Milarepa said so beautifully around all this stuff. Hasten slowly, what a great line right hasten slowly. In other words, keep going, that's the kind of