Trans* bodies are the philosopher’s stone - Thesis + HBS 6 Jan

Riordan Regan21min

Riordan Regan

00:01

You're a much more powerful manifester than you think you are. It's all about being the shaman without even realizing it. You're always conjuring things. It's just that you're not aware of them. This is the shadow, the subconscious, the unstoppable death force, the lake lurking under the surface. You think it's something outside you that the world is working against you, while there may be in our forces and systems that are rigged to get some people ahead and keep others restricted. It's not that simple. You're your own worst enemy, but it's because you internalize the voices of these oppressors and make them your own, and think they're your own.

Riordan Regan

01:15

There's nowhere to hide when they're inside your mind, but what you think is yourself talking to you is actually the voices of everyone else. It's the people you've internalized. It's your dad and your ex husband. It's your old boss and a government run by sis hat Whiteman, designed to keep those same people in the positions of privilege who have always held them from the beginning,

Riordan Regan

01:56

so you repeat these false narratives, but it's Not your fault. It's what you were born with, the beauty and empowerment is in realizing this. It's the remix. It's realizing that it's the remix, because you always get what you want. You always get what you want. You always get what you think you deserve. The beauty of it is that you are such a powerful manifester that you can't not get what you want. The beautiful is that you're the beauty is that you're such a powerful manifester that you can't, you can't not make what you want material. You are the fucking Alchemist. You're conjuring forward a solid from what was fluid.

Riordan Regan

03:18

You're the shaman calling forth the powerful forces from the corners of the universe and the multiverse and dimensions of reality layered on top of this one, you just don't realize what you're invoking, because we don't Have these systems of initiation and training in capitalist culture, we've lost the framing. We've lost the context. And nothing makes sense unless you look at it in situ, situated in an actual reality, situated in a context that makes sense to us. So without guidance, we flail around, and all we have to rely on are the voices in our head and the programs from a culture designed to keep us stuck in servitude. Of course, we repeat the same patterns. Of course we wear the same grooves deeper and deeper. Of course, we do the same things over and over. Of course, what else would happen? So the key is, so human experience is dissociation, separation from the wholeness and capitalist culture preys upon this because it dissociates us even further. See, everything's a whole one, a nested ecology, a fractal representation of the whole. Whole in human experience is a dissociation from the oneness of the universe. That's a whole holographic experience. That's not right, that's a that's a whole lot of experience. I don't know that's a whole lot being a human. But then capitalist culture takes us a step further, and it dissociates us from our own body. So our body, this is it. The body is the key, the vessel, the materiality. The body is the philosopher's stone that separates us from the oneness. But then capitalist culture takes us a step further and dissociates us from our bodies against our own will. And the same with trauma. They're both the same thing, I guess trauma dissociates us from our bodies. Well, trauma can be just simply living in a capitalist culture. The trauma can also be abuse more overtly, and these cause us to dissociate from our bodies without realizing this what we're doing, and that creates a schism where there's two different parts of your brain. You're trying to operate in two different realities at once. And maybe this is related to the day world, night world thing. It's all about consciousness, of it and intention. Can you enter into the world of the day and the night and move between them with agency and awareness? Can you dissociate on purpose. Can you move between the role of the form and the formless, or is it just happening to you and you don't realize it, and so it's scary, and you don't know what framework to invoke. You don't have an altar, a map, a road map, to orient you. So you need these things. So conscious association is making this transition, taking the agency back, seeing what's happening below the surface, making the unconscious conscious, taking it from fate into agency, self direction, working with the energies that are present within yourself and within the environment, and following the Wheel of the Year and The energies of the days. I'm seeing an image of the Maya calendar nestled inside the Celtic Wheel of the Year. Is this the fucking dream spell? That's funny. I wonder if there's more to the dreams problem. You'd think. Anyways, maybe the key is not to try to combine these but to look at them separately, either way, they're both very helpful to me, and maybe it's just because of my Irish ancestry that the wheel of the years resonating. Maybe someone else would find something else more aligned.

Riordan Regan

08:22

Yeah, but by looking at what's coming to the surface and the context of what's present on that day, you can climb into it, you can slow it down, you can open it up and step inside wide I look around the guy do

Riordan Regan

08:55

I'm seeing image of A bunch of tall lanterns clustered on the ground in the center of a cave in a circle with a chalk circle drawn around them. I wonder what that is. That's cool. I think I'm getting ancient imagery. This has happened before. I from an ancestor, from an old tradition, but so these voices play below the surface, and based on this reading I did, I got the most amazing insight. Stones are the equivalent of Pentacles. And by working with the energies of the day of the Maya calendar and the Tarot and interpreting it by the Wheel of the Year, as well as. Coronavirus, keys, angle, all of it filtered through my vessel, what I've collected, and Terence McKenna really being a big part of all this, and Rupert Sheldrake,

Riordan Regan

10:20

everything I drew, in this reading, was about making the spiritual material. And this is actually the heart of alchemy. This is what alchemy is. When I drew the nine of swords, this represented the change that meant the end of a cycle. It came from the energies of the hermit and the sun. Combined what I crave and what I fear. I wanted to be an invalid, trapped in bed with my books. I wanted to be locked up and helpless so other people would have to attend to me. I I wanted to be the poor little baby again, to crawl into the womb and have someone take care of me. I wanted the men to not hurt me. I wanted the big, scary world to not hurt me. And I grew up realizing that the only way I was safe as if I was crippled, and even then, not really. But that was a story. And so I saw that this is existential pink, you always get what you want, that that was what was below the surface, subconsciously, and I didn't even realize it. Like agoraphobia, there's a reason I keep listening to that first track from Deer Hunter like I want to be confined in a room and alone so I can see what's in my mind and like we do have to do that sometimes, but I do fear the sun and the emergence even as part of me craves it and wants to break free. In part, this is my human design. I'm a manifester, and that means that I get bursts of energy, and then I need to retreat again. I birth things out into creation, and then I need hibernation. But, yeah, we're a powerful sorcerer, and we actually are getting what we want all the time. We just don't realize that that's what we want. And so conscious Association. It's about exploding the moment out the process, stopping time, time, bending capability, climbing inside those moments in your mind, around when you think you're deciding, around and you think you know what you're thinking and seeing what's actually going on below the surface is probably a false pattern, a false belief that comes from an old pattern rather until you undo the gas lighting, you're manifesting them and what they've been telling you, you're getting what they want for you, you're getting what they told you you were worth but you don't even realize you're doing it. So you slow it down and tell you see that that's what's really running in the background. You I drew another car that was all about the baby being born nine car walk today, new material conditions are coming, but we must take care to protect them in the future. It was the knight of pentacles. Again, they keep drawing at the androgyne. And so this also is a central premise of everything I must create, especially the plays, the shows. It's about realizing that Christ is trans, that the Divine is androgyne, holy, hermaphrodite, the hermetic queer principle, the spirit made material. So trans is the Philosopher's Stone. A trans body is the Philosopher's Stone, the sacred stones. I used to say I wanted to be a stone thinking. It meant I wanted to be alone thinking. It meant I wanted to not feel and shut things down. And maybe that's one part of it, but really, the stones are the most sacred. They're the sacred sites in Ireland. They're the monoliths that we erected to the gods from the very beginning, the stones are alive. They are not dead. That's an old reductionist paradigm. The stones are just as imbued with life as anything else, if not more so. I mean, look at the crystals. What are they about a polished stone? The stones are conductors. The stones are manifesters too. The stones are powerful and alive. And everything is unsold, including the rocks. And this is the rocks on the edge of the universe. And this is why those directors have. Anything everywhere all the time, knew exactly what they were doing, and there was way more embedded in that than anyone realized. I think the philosophers stone is making the spiritual materials, learning to navigate between the realms, voluntarily to skip between those dimensions, to realize what you're manifesting, and not resist, and not resist those fantasies and desires below the surface that you've been embarrassed of. Allow them in, allow everything, allowing the hot dog fingers,

Unknown Speaker

15:40

allowing the weirdest shit in the universe, welcome it. Just know that a lot of that comes from somewhere else. I

Riordan Regan

16:06

a trans body is a philosopher stone. It makes the spiritual material. It turns one thing into another thing. It's alchemy. The Divine Principle is the androgyne is the thing that is no thing, and everything is a whole on the spirit that encompasses the transcends and includes everything below it. A trans body transcends and includes all genders and represents none of them. Is what I've been saying from the beginning. Can I get a witness? Yes, trans emergence is all and nothing at once. This is the emergent archetype, because it transcends and includes yin and yang. It transcends and includes masculine and feminine. It transcends and includes all duality. Represents infinite possibility of fungi with 23,000 genders. That's what's possible in the trans immersion archetype. And so I guess you could say, well, that fungi has been here the whole time. Is it really a new archetype? And I think yes, it is, because of the human element. Never before has it been materialized in a human vessel. This is the new level. This is welcome to the next level, enabled by technology embodied and intellectually aware of it. Oh, maybe this is part of it, part of trans emergence, as not only the ability to embody transcending duality, but to also understand it. That's it. I think the ability to perceive it as well as to be it, that's the emergence. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I think that's it, and that's why the mushrooms need us. Because on the one hand, they are the divine intelligence and they are everything, but on the other hand, they don't have voice boxes and computers, and so they have to manifest us to make things come forward for them. So they I do think they've been running the show the whole time, dude. So maybe we're just mushroom puppets, but it's still evolution. Whoever's running the show, whether it's the mycelial network or planetary archetypes. Do dude with a white beard, who the fuck knows? Who am I to say? It's not. The point is that it's evolving towards something, and yet time isn't linear, so I wonder where the cycle ends and what it means when it begins again,

Riordan Regan

19:47

I think maybe another dimension, and maybe we then ascend into the DMT realm completely, and then, instead of just dip. In, I think maybe we ascend into that realm completely, what we transcend and include. So we take the serotonin model with us, but then we also have the ability to live in the night world, the dream world, the world where we're not bound by time. I think transcending time is part of it, time and space, and that's why the internet, because neither of those things necessarily matter within that framework.

Riordan Regan

20:42

The eschaton is the ability to live in the DMT realm.

Riordan Regan

20:52

But if we transcend and include, does that mean we take our bodies into the DMT realm? I feel like it would mean that that's interesting. I wonder how that would even work.

Riordan Regan

21:19

Yeah, maybe, I mean, we can't conceive of it because it hasn't happened yet. But maybe that's the eschaton. Maybe that's the next dimension. Is somehow the ability to take a material body into the DMT world, dude, I think that's it. I

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