someone is outside, cleaning something, power washing something, so hopefully you can't hear that noise too much. And welcome to this episode, 70. Someone two swans, a swimming isn't that seven? Is this one the swimming or is that? Yeah, two swans, a swimming. Bingo. Galling. Can't wait till we get to 88 to fat lady Sir, do you do that in North America with bingo? Do you have the legs 11 doors next door? I don't even know that as well, but whatever. Yeah. So how's life? Well, Shark a question. Why are you not responding rude? I'll ask you a question. How are y'all Well, I'm fine. Thank you. Thanks for asking. This week, I've been quite busy getting poked and prodded with things. I got a vaccination, not covid, so sad, so sad about it, but the HPV vaccination I got, I got the first one, like, years ago, and I Something must have happened in my brain where I just was like, don't understand, because I only got one when you have three. And I was like, I think, I think I've done it. But then I realized that I actually need three, so I'm starting again with the thing takes six months to get all three. So anyway, I got my HPV vaccine, the first of three, and then I got my yearly physical at the doctor. Well, I, I called, and I was like, I need to get a, I need to get a PAP booked in. A pap in in the UK is called a smear, smear test, which is the worst word smear like, come on now, pap is better, because pap is, I don't even know what pap stands for, but it sounds better than smear. Um, yeah. So the guy was like, Oh, do you want to get your yearly physical done? And I was like, I've never had a yearly physical before, so let's do it. I don't really know what is involved. Turns out it's just exactly what happens when I go to the doctor anyway, because I have hypothyroidism and low iron and things like that. I get my blood work taken all the time, so it's just like, getting your blood pressure. And because I'm on the pill, I get my blood pressure taken anyway, getting your blood work and your blood pressure. And then he was like, Well, part of the physical, I need to know your height and your weight. And I was like, No, thank you. I can tell you what my height is. And he's like, Yeah, we need to know your weight as well. And I was like, No thank you. And he's like, Oh, it's a part of the physical. And I was like, No, thank you. And he's like, Okay, I said, I'm five seven. He's like, read it on his piece of paper and then walked away. And I was like, that's the first time in that's the first time, have I got doctors? Yeah, that's the first time I've had to say no thank you to being away. So that's what the yearly physical is, is, I guess, being weighed. And so I had it in my head, oh, they might ask to weigh me. And I thought, am I going to educate them in the moment? And I thought, I'll see how it goes. Because if he was like but we need it, I would say I have a history of disordered eating and an eating disorder, and weighing me would be bad for my mental health. And then if, if they pressed anymore, I would say health. Weight is not an indicator of health. If I need to, if we need my weight to calculate medication doses, dosages, then that is absolutely fine. But as a general screening, it's not. Necessary. So I had that all prepared. And then I went and got and then I went and got my blood pressure, and my heart was beating because of that. And listen, I do this. This is my job, right? Talking about this stuff and having a very pleasant No, thank you. I had to say, No, thank you twice, a very pleasant No, thank you. And then he just said, okay, and then walked away. That caused my heart to start beating. And so then when I got my blood pressure done, one of the numbers was too high, and I was just about to get my pap, and she's under and she's like, Oh, that that other number is a bit high. And I said, it, could it be due to stress? And she's like, well, yes, you are sat on the bed with no clothes and just a paper gown, about to have a pat so yeah. And I was thinking, yeah, and I also had to deny being weighed, and I didn't know how the doctor was going to act. I didn't know if the doctor was going to, you know, kick down the door to the exam room for like, Bitch, give us your weight. Why are you telling us your weight? Get out, you know. So my heart was just being faster than normal. And so anyway, so I have to go back in a couple of weeks to get my blood pressure taken again, because hopefully I won't be as stressed. I could just feel my heart beating. And I was like, Victoria, your heart's beating fast right now because you're feeling stressed. So I want you to take some deep breaths and relax, because it's going to make the blood pressure reading go off. And then my brain was like, Oh, you want me to relax? I'll show you fucking relax, doing the opposite. So yeah, but I've had that before where I've had to go back and because I've been stressed going into the doctors, and so I want to extend massive empathy for those of you who are doing this stuff at the doctors, going and deny and say no thank you to being weighed because it's it's difficult, and it's kind of sometimes it might be better for your mental health just to be like, I'll be way. But don't tell me the weight, because that act of saying no is stressful. So anyway, so I've got my, I've got my my pap. If you've not got a PAP and you own a uterus, then I suggest you go in. It's, it's not a big deal. I was watching videos last night, even though I had my pap, like a week ago. I was watching videos about the procedure and shit like that, because I was like, I just want to know more. And because you when, when you go in, well, when I've gone in, I've had maybe five, perhaps six, perhaps in my life, you don't, you just, you just do the thing, and you don't see all the magical equipment that they use, not that there's loads of equipment, but it's pretty easy, like in and out, like this woman did it on, filmed her getting hers, and it took 44 seconds for them to Perform the whole procedure. So it's not that that big a deal, really, but it can be very, very stressful for people, and a lot of people don't go in because of that fear. And I really want to encourage you to go if you have a uterus, if you haven't already, because it's really good at preventing bad shit from happening 10 years ago, I got I had a pap, and it was I had an abnormal, abnormal results, and I had precancerous cells, and they just had to watch it, and it went away, which was cool, but sometimes, And that was, I was age 26 when that happened. And in the UK, you get your first pap at 25 I don't know about the rest of the world, but, but still, just because you're young, or if you've had the HPV vaccine, it doesn't mean that you're not at risk of, you know, an abnormal result. And the HPV vaccine, I learned now, it protects you from nine strains of HPV, and there's actually 90 strains, but the nine strains they protect you from are the most dangerous, the most the highest risk to cause cancer and other things that you don't want, but they're still even if you have the HPV vaccine, some people apparently think, oh, because I've had the vaccine, I can't get cervical cancer. And that ain't true. So anyway, it's fine, like, Do you know what it's like? It's like, it's like getting the covid test. Someone's sticking something like, deep inside that you're like, I don't like this. It's kind of uncomfortable, but it's done in a second and, oh, I didn't Whoa. That felt weird. You know, kind of like that. It'd be like, if someone put their finger in your ear and you'd be like, Oh, I just don't like that. It doesn't feel. Good, but I you know, and obviously everyone's has a different reaction anyway. So I also was at the doctors, because I am in the process, been in the process for the last year of seeking criminal compensation for my sexual assault and abuse at the hands of my ex partner now in the UK, if you're a victim of of a violent crime, I think has to be a violent crime. Maybe just a crime. No, no, I think a violent crime. If you're a victim of violent crime, you the the UK government, the government give you compensation. I never knew this, and so I was like, Oh, if that's so, I'm going to apply to get compensation. But because it's been more than a few years since I made my last report to the police, because I went back to the UK to report that he had raped me, and that was maybe 567, years ago. And so from that date, I had, I think it was a couple of years to make the report. And so now I'm having to demonstrate that,