Ep2 - Only in the darkness, can you see the stars.

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Hello, everybody, and welcome to humble and hungry. I'm your friend Natalie pouget. And welcome back, we survived last week we got through Episode One, I was definitely anxious. I didn't know how you guys were going to receive it. But I got such incredible messages and the amount of support that you guys have shown me again, has just been mind blowing. So I appreciate you, I love you, I see you. And I hear you. And I think the only feedback I got was that you guys wanted longer episodes. So I am here to say that because this is my show, I am going to deliver on that and I promise you we will do longer shows today being one of them. And speaking of we have a very interesting show for you today, my mom is back. I say interesting, because we are definitely going to shed some tears. And we're going to laugh. And I hope learn a little bit. We do talk about some sensitive subjects. And I'm just sort of giving you guys a heads up. But you know, we are trying to talk about real life issues and things that have happened in our life in the most sensitive way that we can and it our own way. So I hope that you guys are able to take something away from this episode. And I really, really do hope you enjoy it. So stick around. And at the end of the episode, we will be doing the first giveaway. So I will see you guys soon. Enjoy the show. Every time your friend Hello Mom. Will Hello. How are you? Thank you for coming back. We did have to I originally thought we were going to be able to record everything in one day but it just it didn't work out that way. So welcome back. I knew it. I knew once Piper sees my mom, she goes buzzer like that's it mom who it's all about our we already got a she loves her out we will lead up to it. We were taking her for a walk yesterday. Yes. And there was this older woman with her cane

yakking and she was how we she? She was she saw from the back but she had like blonde hair. Well, people think that I have a key that I've read the old.

I don't know, but in Piper's eyes. Anyways, so today I poured a little you guys might think we drink all the time. That's right, which we do, but but today I poured us a little kombucha. Yes. And it's a coffee kombucha. Oh, and it's made here in, in, in South San Diego. And it's called a Beechcraft. Oh wow. Yes. So try witchcraft. But it's

it's bootstrap. Yes. Okay, so I must make some changes in your rain. Yes. I mean, yeah, that was. Let's see how it works today. I really changes in my brain. Okay, let's see, the color is like not very nice. No, it's really not.

Do you like it?

Let's just talk about it later. It's an acquired taste. You don't like it? No, no,

it's different. It's a lot of things. Sometimes we don't like yes. And then you get to like later. It's

true. So thank you so much for coming back. I wanted to touch on something that is a little bit sensitive to me. And I have been thinking about this particular episode since sort of the inception of humble and hungry because, you know, sometimes when you are at your lowest is sometimes when you have these moments, these like out of body experience sort of moments, right? And you feel like there's some sort of lesson to be taught. And I sort of want to start the podcast off with a quote from Martin Luther King. And it says, only in the darkness. Can you see the stars beautiful, and it's gonna make me want to cry? Because it was just a very, very difficult year for me. And, you know, so let's sort of take it back. September 2019 was a day that just changed my life. For the good, right for the good, because I had my daughter, I had my beautiful, healthy baby girl, Piper rose. I mean, yes. And she was not planned. And I say that because, you know, everyone's pregnancy journey is so different. Some people try for years to have baby, and they can't, some try for years. And then they get pregnant. And then when they have the baby, it's like, I have been wanting you my entire life. Right? And then there's some like me, that originally was, I don't know, if I really want kids. And then I got pregnant, right? I was blessed to get pregnant. And I you know, have her and it's this crazy mix of emotions, right? It's like, Oh, my gosh, I didn't know that. I could love you this much. Right, right. I didn't know I wanted you this much. And I'm so glad that I have you. And so I will say that, since that day, moving forward, my life just took an insane turn. Yes. And again, this is a very sensitive subject. And I can't go into full detail about everything that happened. And I hope that you guys can respect and understand that, but but just know that, you know, I'm going to try to tell my story and the most authentic way that I can, because I think that, you know, this podcast is all about authenticity, all about being, you know, incredibly real and honest. So, so I have my daughter, and again, my life sort of takes a turn. And I'm in a place where you know, between what's going on in my personal life, and between all the hormones, right of having a baby, because that in and of itself is like just a world when I found myself at probably one of the darkest times in my life. And as much as I wanted to be in the moment, and I should have been, you know, the happiest, right? Because I was going through something many changes. Yeah, so many changes, and, and it should have been just like a really, really happy time in my life. But unfortunately, and I know for so many women, sometimes it's not. Yeah, sometimes that postpartum depression is so unbearable, that you find yourself looking at this little human and you can't even really, like, enjoy it. You know, it was like, I'm looking at this human not. And I will preface that I didn't, I don't think I went through postpartum depression. As far as, like, I don't think I was, I don't think I would have been diagnosed with that. I think it was other factors in my life that made it that may be heightened what I was going through,

I mean, Natalie, you went full blast from doing something totally different than being a mom. Yeah, let's well come on.

Right. And so all of my 20s I'm fully focused on other things, and my personal life and my, you know, my career, all these things, and then have my baby. And, you know, now all my priorities sort of have to shift. Absolutely. So, the reason why I loved that quote is because from the the place that I'm sitting now, right, looking back at the girl that had you know, that baby, and that was sitting there and so last, oh, there's a UPS truck again. Oh, all these times. Looking back at that little girl, I feel like she's like a little girl now. But now looking back at myself, holding my baby. I feel like I've grown so much. But if I could go back and tell her something it would be that quote, because it would basically because I feel like back then I couldn't see the stars right? My my roof was like, coming down on me. And everything was falling on top of me. I felt suffocated. I felt I felt lost. I completely was. It was like someone had just like been trolling me, trolling me trolling me and then made me like walk on the plank, and hope that I didn't fall off, right. And so this quote is almost like two calling myself, hey, just look up, look at the stars. I know it's dark. I know, I know, this is hard. Because to find the light, it got to find the light. And I promise you, you'll get out of this and I promise you, it's going to be okay. And I know, it seems like you've lost everything, but you just gained the most important thing in your entire life. Right? And so, you know, and then you know, COVID is is happening, and the pandemic is happening, and quarantine and so, you know, you really, I feel like COVID really made us all sit with ourselves and reflect and make us realize, you know, what's important in life. We, my mom, myself, my family, we lost a lot of people in our life. Two main ones, two main people yet my mom lost her dad to two COVID and my sister and her sister. Friends, of course. Yeah, and friends. And you know, I lost a lot of friends, you know, some due to COVID some not. And so we're just sort of going through and there was a point where we were losing people, almost like on a monthly basis, it was, like, it was something that we couldn't process it, I feel like almost in real time, because we were we were so numb by by laws at this point. That it was like,

we couldn't even like the first one brain we had to take the pain from the next one. Right?

Yeah. And it was almost like, Oh my gosh, it just it made you love and hug and and want to just like tell everyone that that you that weren't that was in your little circle, how much they meant to you. And it was like, it made us stronger. If anything.

Yeah. And I think that our Hispanic, you know, roots also helped the fact that we are so alive in so happy most of the time, we tried to make things, you know, bad things, you know, okay. And being optimistic, and teaching the children a lesson, hey, this is gonna pass, just hang in there, you know, try to love each other and in give before moving forward, cuz they stopped going to school? You know, for me to see my my, my kids, and then my grandkids go through all this. It's an impact. Yeah, absolutely.

I mean, it was a global pandemic, this is going to go down in history books,

right. Yeah. So they made a special on the loss of my father, because I couldn't you remember, I sweep your house? Yeah, we saw my father being buried through a TV screen.

Yeah. So it was right at the height of everything it was back in was it may, now March, April, April, April. It was April. And yeah. And and when you pass away from COVID. If you guys don't know anyone that I feel like everyone at some point now, it's like 70 degrees of separation. At some point I'd like everyone now has known someone either close to them, or a friend of a friend has gotten COVID. But if you're not aware, when you pass away from COVID, they do not let anyone in the hospital rooms. And so, you know, your family member has to be there by themselves. Donnelly, and these die on their own, and they pass away without anyone around. And so, you know, if they were fortunate enough, they had a, you know, a nurse or someone that would hold their hand and maybe their eyes, you know, close their eyes for them or have you know, the family member on the phone. It was just something like out of a horror movie. It was absolutely awful. And I don't wish it upon anyone. We went through a lot. I'm sure a lot of people did a lot of PBS in Yeah. And and I think we're still seeing some effects of that. Right? Yes. But again, going back to that quote, it's almost like we have to we have to sort of see the stars absolutely in the darkness like that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and for whatever reason that we had to go through all this I hope that we all can sort of find either the purpose or you know, just looking at the glass half full instead of half empty, you know, just just get through the day. How about that. Get through today. Get through the next hour, get out of bed. You know, maybe it's take a shower, make your bed, make your bed and put on a little bit of lipstick or a lip gloss, put that perfume on and wear a color or wear something that makes you feel good and happy. Song. Yeah, yeah, walk outside, go for a walk, that helps. It really does help. And all of these little things that you can start to implement into your life and create habits. It will actually help. And hopefully it'll get you to get a better the next day. Right? And, you know, look at life a little bit lighter.

So I asked you guys on Instagram to ask my mom any questions, but an astounding amount of people want to know how you have this sort of positive energy. I mean, even getting here today, you did things that were going to sort of boost your

energy and I said, Well, I'm gonna you know, I'm not gonna put makeup so I didn't have the time and I have to run over here. I have some a lot of phone calls today. But um, I thought it was really pretty. So I get I get to the car in I mean, I am really like in turquoise color today. You do look?

A little bit red lipstick. But guess what? I look at myself in the mirror. I'm ready. I'm ready to dry. And I have a mock up. Clear mocha. mocha is a bugger. Yes. So I'm going. Oh, goodness, gracious. I am so glad I didn't see anybody before. But I'm glad I caught it. I mean, my daughter. But anyway, those things happen. You're so funny though. Those things happen. But anyway, I look good. I am now My nose is nice and pretty ugly. So would you say that you've always had this attitude?

Yes. Can I tell you a little bit about it? Please do. Okay. So being that my mom had to go back into, we said, let's go to the person in the future. But now let me just go back a little bit about why I like to be happy. And it's because my father was very abusive, and physically abusive to my mom. And my I have, I have three daughters, three daughters, I have three sisters. And we were very little in we had to actually a guard the door to where my mom and my dad used to sleep. Just in case we would hear any kind of, you know, pain, screams or meeting. And we would walk in and we just you know what, take my father of my mom. And in we saw how old were you at this point? I mean, we thought since we were very little, but at this point that I can remember, maybe 556 maybe then of course from there on. So I there were nights when we couldn't sleep. So I would take my sisters to a closet. And and I would make up songs. And I would just make up songs. And then I would ask my sister so you don't you do the sounds don't don't don't tune in. Everybody would do it sound with a mouth, your mouth. And I would just make up silly songs. And I made him laugh. So throughout my life, I began to write

and I feel like at that age, you don't know what it is, but you feel good doing. Right? Like you don't know why. But it's like, okay, I like this feeling.

I like making you guys laugh. So that was the funniest thing. And I would grab once in a while we had a little dog because we didn't have much, you know, many toys. But anyway, I grabbed

a dog or male or female and I would just try to make stories with it. And puppets in my in everyone could laugh. And as we as I keep going growing older in life, I think that just seeing someone laugh. It's a gift. It's a total gift from God. Like that is a medication that you will never find anywhere a man and that's why people that comedians when they come in, they are really good and they make you laugh. Goodness gracious, stand up, clap, because we being funny. You know, it's something that people have to work at it. Some of them are born with it. Yeah, so I just say that my songs are funny, and some of them some of them touch the hearts, but I love them make you laugh.

One thing I will never forget is that just growing up, you always said like, Don't take it so seriously. Just Just let it go. Laugh through life and that's what's gonna keep you growing old and healthy. You've just always instilled in us to laugh. Yes. And to not take things sort of

to the heart. Exactly. Yeah, exactly. Learn this you need to learn, write, speak to yourself, talk to your brain and say brain. Today, I'm demanding you to give me a huge laughter. So find something that you're going to make me happy about. I don't know what it is, but today is my kombucha.

And I've got it in my mug. I wouldn't even have any, he would just clear. I wonder how many of your listeners actually understand Spanish?

I don't know, I should do a poll, I think you should. Okay. And even if they don't, we'll teach them maybe a word that you learn. Okay, Mama. teach your kids or grandkids. So going back to let's sort of full circle this moment. So going back to last episode, I asked you the three things that people didn't know about you. One was that you didn't finish high school? Correct. Tell us a little bit about that story.

And I was thinking, of course, of course, education. The reason why I'm still single, because I love smart men. Do you know why your Are you saying there's no smart men out there? There's no smart men know what I'm saying? I like I like smart men in that's why i because they're, they're my my. I mean, my college, they're my inspiration to continue to learn is when there's a never ending, you know, time to continue learning. But no, but I do remember in Mexico, which I was there only for about a couple of years because we leave the United States first. We know when we're very little. And then my father sent us to Mexico for a couple of years when you were so you were born in Mexico City. You have very, very little very young we came here at what age did you come here? But 11 and a half?

With all your siblings? Yes. Okay. Because there was four of you. Yes. And then you stayed here for a

few years till the age of 15 and a half where my father sent us to Mexico, in that's when you know, we have just finished like junior high school. And then we had to go to Mexico. And my father was like, Yes, floating in dating the neighbor. Here she was the station was from Cuba, the Cuban lady. In that way. My father started learning Cuban. You would come home and say what he knows. And that's when my mom says, Why Why are you talking so much Cuba now? Because they have like in the laps. And then we realized it was different. Yeah, right. You have an accident in the family. They're not they I guess with their real we realized that he was dating or send us to Mexico. We get there. And we had to start from scratch. He wasn't sending any money home. Not really. No, no, no, no, no, no chemo, he relied on a very wealthy aunt that we had in Mexico, that have just, you know, lost her rich husband. But at one point, you know, it's like, I'm gonna help you, sister, but you have to send your daughters to work. So then you were 15. I was 15 in a few months, whatever. And then we saw what she did. She paid a small career, but whatever you call it through NACA quarter. So we went in that to this institute in I became a bilingual secretary. Because out there, you're able to do that at a young age? Yes. Right. A lot of people my cousin's became, you know, either some accountants or whatever, within a very short period of time in school. Did you have to lie to get into that? Or no, I lied when I was looking for a job. I remember. My aunt told my mom, well, you know, back then they call me Conchita, and then they said, I think we should cut her hair. Even though here the teachers call me Connie. This conception was too long. And the teacher said, Oh, no, no. Your name is gonna be Connie from now on. So from there on, I became Connie. Yeah. And then and then the teachers Well, when I go to Mexico when I was in Mexico, then my aunts remember me as Conchita so they said let's cut her hair in my hair was dark jet black all the way down on your bite on my butt. Yeah, in this this is gonna make you look older and older. Right? So they cut my hair. The color my hair red. how short did they cut your hair? Like underneath my ears? And then they actually gave you a bob Yeah. And Bob a bob? Oh, I don't know. They're called the bob me Bob is like a man. Okay, so anyway, so yes, they got my hair. They put false eyelashes in then they said, here's this money. now. Go look for a job. So by that by that time, it wasn't during those years. That's when the mini miniskirt began like a new new thing. So you can imagine you know, a 15 and a half with I cried so much when they will I can hear the sisters going. Caring for here. I was crying, crying, crying in that. I mean, for life, I will always remember how they traumatized by it. No, no, no. It was just been just painful. But maybe traumatic. Maybe trauma? I think I think Yeah.

And because we had, we've talked about all these stories so many times, and I feel like one time we said that this moment for you was like, your, it was like, going from being a little girl to becoming a woman. Now looking back, it's like, that was the moment I had to grow up,

right. That's why you and I say, maybe I don't think to the heart, because maybe I've gone through so much pain in my life, that that's the way that I'm trying to teach my next generations that move on. Take a deep breath. You know, be positive, keep thinking that you are the best thing alive and keep moving forward. Right. So by the time you know, when they cut my hair, and I was the first one to find a job, and and where did you find the job? It was a German company. And I lied about my age. I said I was where you met a German German man, who would have been my dad. Get a gala, gala Gala. And he was a veterinarian a doctor in like, yes. Wasn't he like seven feet tall? He was so tall. I mean, my neck would hurt after that second date. I was. I couldn't believe he was your boss. Nope. He worked in the same building. Okay. And he was a beautiful, beautiful company in Mexico. And from there, I used to go at night. I used to go at night to school. And we can imagine, there was no car. We had to take buses and taxis. I was almost, I mean, raped, sexually abused. I mean, I was defending myself. Trust me. They didn't get that far. But it was really tough. wearing those little skirts in the middle. Yeah. They're very late. And then just, you know, cars would stop left and right. Because I was I was Bonita. I was I had a really nice attitude and smile. So I think that when you find a job, first thing they see, I that's why I think that I've been very lucky. The first thing they see is that, you know, I love your paddle Natalie of your show. Because when you're a smiley, humble person, you people will probably ask you, yes, your location is important. But ultimately, they will open the door when they when they see a nice, big, honest smile. And then after that, you just keep going. So that's when they gave me a job in the US to pay you cash in a little envelope. They put the cash inside.

And I went, I remember going home and bringing my first envelope with gas to my wife. And they said Why are you so proud of this image? He says, Oh, well, okay, go here. So he would give me my cash so that I could take my taxes for the next week, and then buy my clothes in from their own. I went to night school to also learn German. So expect the Deutsche image and then from there on

the Germans. I mean, they love me. They send me to to Germany. I

we've failed to falsify my my signatures for a history back then. You could just get away with anything. Yeah,

yeah. Yeah. And then so finally, I met this German and then continue all in then I took an Au Pair job in Canada and taking care of babies. Yeah, in that was just so that I could continue learning English. So that's why I became a bilingual secretary. So I speak English. I speak English. And can you believe years later, I earn a gold record.

translating a song for Warner Music for even scratch, which now is one of the Pussycat Dolls is, you know me call.

Yes. And yes, and it's really hard. Last name. But anyway, she became a shore singer or something, right? Yeah, yeah. But anyway, so you can imagine I had I had her and she was so happy because he couldn't speak Spanish and my song was struggling in Spanish. And in the end, I translated Latin many, many more for a lot of songwriters. Even though I was already a songwriter. So Oh, my God, another one. I the way you're gonna you're gonna like this one. Hold on. Really? Oh, my goodness. Let's see. It's a big box. Yes. Of Yes. vino. The Tao brothers. Natalie, you're gonna have my favorite wine. You weren't gonna have many guests. I assume

you guys are all invited. We got a shipment of wine because Riley just went golfing with the Dell brothers. And they have a their own wine obviously, in Pissarro plays or Robles, and it's my favorite wine, and he told them that I was a fan. And they sent us a bunch of stuff. So I'm excited to open that book. How wonder I know I'll share that with you guys once we open it, but Okay, so I was I was talking about the the gold record. And then what I what I think is so admirable about you, and your story. And we haven't even gotten to what you're doing now with the dreamers and the DREAM Act. But I think, you know, for you guys listening, you know, you guys are just getting sort of a tiny, tiny glimpse into my mom's life and her story, but the fact that she just came from literally nothing you guys slept on? What like the floor, like it was like, like, like the sandy Manor floor madness in Mexico, too. You know, translating songs for these big time, pop artists and getting gold records and then eventually doing your own record. And going on tour and like, you have You are such an example for so many people that it is possible.

Let me just go back right now that when you were talking about my childhood, in when every time I smelled dirt, you know, when you put water on dirt? Yeah, it has a special smell. Yes. Okay. There was a couple of homes that we load up little places that we leave when we're little in my mom was the neediest person very elitist. person. And in what she would give us a shower, I mean, I don't really know where she got the water from. But anyway, in in them, we would like in our little cuts in suddenly, she's instead of there's no vacuum no nothing. So we it was throwing dirt on the on the floor. So she would grab water. And she would sprinkle water on the on the dislike, flatten it out that would like mellow out. And I remember smelling her beautiful, you know, big trees that she was cooking for us. And in a dolly in gorditas whatever she was making, and then she would put the water on the dirt. Amy would just like, water smelled so so then you hear the radio because we have nothing but a radio. And then we would listen to a soap opera soap opera in the middle, you know, with my mom, like all like and sometimes there was no light. So we had to use candles. And that's that was like whoa, okay, whatever. So that's why I love so much tortillas. Sometimes there was no there was no real cereals because there was no you guys didn't have a lot of money. No. So my mom my mom and my dad would probably say you know just cut burn some 30 years in Kerman little pieces, and then put them in milk. And then you put some salt in that was our cereal. And then you call it cereal. Yeah. cereal. It was like, yeah, and then we didn't have money for toothbrush toothpaste. So he my dad would burn the tortilla with lime in some white bouting baking baking soda, baking soda,

you mash it. And by the way, you still do that work. It's like the it's like it's like what they make you do now with like the charcoal stuff. It's exactly the same thing. In

works. If I remember my mom making to have very white teeth. Yeah, it's my mom. I remember making us tacos. But since she didn't have any kind of meat or chicken or anything, she would say okay, all of you. We were four little girls. Okay, when we

roll up the tortilla, and we have to say it's meat. Tastes like meat. Until today. You know it was it's meat. It tastes like meat and we keep eating it. And then on the bar that just breaks my heart. Oh, don't cry.

There was a lady on the first floor that would make the best food ever on the outside. She would cook outside she would sell food and the smell coming from from the window that we know. That's why your mom would say okay, yes, you would smell the food coming from that we know that you eat that. And you'd be like well it's my It was hard for me sir so much. I know. But so now that's why Natalie, I'm getting attached to something eventually, when on one of your next shows, I want to, you know, bring my I brought my life, a little bit of my life into a song called call me a dreamer. And I believe that our dreams come true when you have faith in you have perseverance, in persevere, perseverance, it's okay. in, in, in, in dreams come true. So that song

is people are gonna just slip when they hear the song What's happening? What am I mom is is trying to create a movement for these people. It doesn't have to be from Mexico, it's from anywhere. Anyone that has a dream that wants to come to United States and and, you know, because everyone has a chance here we

have children like me, that came a very young age because we came back again, from Mexico, I came back again here, even little before 18. And so long story where we actually came back as Mexico was not for us. We couldn't call us butchers because we we didn't speak English, we didn't speak Spanish. So we ended up back in the United States in so that's when I started looking into university schools and in they will say no, because you were not allowed because you didn't have the legal documents. And I even tried to get into the army in this nice men came to visit us and said, Are you guys residents? And we said no. Are my sisters and I and he he was almost in tears. Like I spent all this time with you guys. You guys are awesome, beautiful, beautiful girls in I can take you guys. So he left. And then from there on. The next thing happens. Well, you get married and you have children and you become a citizen. And that's why because you got married when you were 2021 21 and then you had

my oldest brother? Yes. Was year later. You got pregnant. your honeymoon? Yeah, yeah. So a year later in the plane to Miami.

Yeah. Anyway, so by this time, you know, you become really what now they're called dreamers. Yep. And so I was a dreamer of the 1970s and the song is based on my life story. And for people that are listening maybe they can tune in on

well let's How about how about we take a little sip a little breather and let's let's play a little clip of the song. You got it? I would love that Clinton as it's called. Call me a dreamer written by the one and only Connie blue push a you give me strength would mighty so call me this magic mom is has gone through my sleepless nights. Tears of joy.

Right guys want to listen to the full song. Go to this song for dreamers, that song for dreamers.com where

they can also say, Alexa, play a dreamer by the song for dreamers. My mom loves doing that dual legs. What do you pay me royalties.

So yes, if you want to find any information or all information, just go to the song for dreamers.com. And you can find and listen to the song, and you can find out how you can help or be a part of the movement. I'm so proud of you for doing that.

And my ultimate my ultimate dream. It's that to bring I call them my children, my dreamers will go into the White House. Yeah, I want them to open the doors for us and I want to I mean, I'm just dreaming of them singing all dressed in white and for them to carry the first flag American flag with so much joy. Because not only do you guys were born here, but for anyone that has to go in Get their citizenship. The moment that goodness gracious the moment that they give you the citizenship. And they say, first of all, they asked me, Do you want to keep your name in this economy? Absolutely. No Concepcion jack, my mother hated her conception.

And then I haven't told a lot of people remember your I have three oh, here's here's a 411. Natalie, a lot of people, they think that my blue eyes are actually my

blue eyes. And they are mine because I pay for it, you know?

But but but are they actually no, they're just nice blue collar that I've worn for 30 some years. Yeah.

And in that mean, I'm really, it's part of my life.

So let's keep going back into the call me a dreamer movement song

mean that I want to just donate the royalties that I make for anything that has to do with young children, trying to fulfill their dreams, Natalie,

I love that so much. I just want to say I'm so proud of you. And everything that you're doing, I know that this is not the end for you know, there is so much more Yes, that you're going to accomplish and do. Yeah, and you are a huge mentor for me, you're an inspiration for me, and for my sisters and my brother. And I just want to say that I adore you. And I wouldn't have been able to get through everything my entire life, but especially this past year and a half without you. So

I love you and can my love, thank you, I adore you do some of my some of my people, my friends that were listening to the show. And they said there's something about Natalie, that, you know, you will learn eventually with people that their reactions, how wonderful she is. She's a natural. And, of course, they say, you know, she was raised under your wings, Mama. But, of course, I'm a different, different, you know, person, whatever, but you are very unique.

I felt I feel like I'm just starting to find my wings, yes, and spread them. And I feel like I've been sort of in a shadow for so long. And that was okay, I enjoyed what I I enjoyed everything that I've done up until this point, it's just that I never knew I had a voice and they never knew that I was being heard or seen. either. I felt very sort of unseen and invisible at times. And so if you feel invisible, just know that you have a place on this earth, you have a purpose. And this is why I wanted to do this, let's find our purpose.

Control your temperature, control your temper, I'm talking to people who are listening with your children. I know sometimes it's hard but controlling your temper. You it's gonna in the long run, it's gonna pay off.

And I you know, it's funny that you say that because I got a nanny for two days a week for four hours a day. because of that reason, I felt like I was losing my temper. Because I'm, you know, being a mom is still the job, right? We don't get paid for it. But it's still a job. And it's probably one of the most important jobs. And so I felt like I was just like getting very short tempered, and everything I was getting really irritated. And I just felt like I need a little me time. I have no meet time. And that's why I am now allowing myself to do something like this where I have a nanny to watch Piper for just a couple hours. And then we get to, you know, sit here and have these conversations and I don't know so so because I got a couple questions like why, you know, why are you getting a nanny? And it's, it's for those reasons, I just I want to be able to start focusing on on maybe something for myself,

but we all have gone through our downs. Yeah. So okay, just get up, jump back, jump out how you get up. So, let's let's really Cheers. Okay. Okay, you go.

Tinker, Butch? Yes, Mike. I'm Gucci. Oh, my God. Everyone calls you Charles, because you aren't Charo

Oh, good. You really are. Mel, you want to you want to hear a little story about Charlie. I know that this is going to be just aside from everything that you asked me. But the terrorist terrorist stories that when I get signed by record label, I remember going with my sister Tanya, who's listening and I adore her. And we arrived early, because I used to work for attorneys in Beverly Hills. So I used to go to these beautiful places. And so I walked in. And by this time, I was already, you know,

working to support my kids as you know, as a paralegal, but at the same time I was I was seeing him performing. So walked into this beautiful restaurant in Beverly Hills. In the in the waiters they come and they go

oh my god cha cha

cha was there in my sister thing is they think your cero and they said okay, well let's just keep it that way into the serve in the bring in. The oysters that are in my hair is all blonde and milk.

In so if you guys haven't seen my mom looks like go to my Instagram. She is all over my highlights. But yes, she's like this fight but even big a big smile, bright blonde hair, pink cheese. And just like he has a presence when she walks into a room.

So they come in all the waiters they start, they start asking me if I can give them an autograph. And my sister on the meet is kicking me She's like, you're not you're not. And I said Yeah, I am. I am you did Charles autograph? Yeah. So I just put Charo

in. So they came in. They said the meal is complimentary. Oh. Connie. Have you ever met her in real life? No. No. It would have been nice, though. Because a lot of people, I'm talking. I mean, 30 years ago. Of course, you're younger. She was younger. Yeah. I mean, I know that she's older than me.

But anyway, I think that that was just the highlight of you know, looking like Charo Yeah, like you said right now, ma'am. I think you look like terror. Anyway, in the

action help, too. Yes, exactly. So, so funny. Yeah. So all right. Before you go, yes. Before we have to end this. Yes.

I want to play a little game. Yes. Okay. Ready? It's called plead the fifth. Do you know what that means? Yes. What does that mean? When you tell the truth. When you when you don't want to admit to something you can say I will plead the fifth. Okay. Okay. So I'm going to ask you three questions. Okay. You can only plead the fifth, okay. To one meaning you don't have to answer one. Okay. Okay. Are you ready? Yes. Here's your first question. Okay. How many times? Have you pooped your pants? And you have to be honest, huh?

Okay. At my age, I plead the fifth. Okay, why? You start losing memory. I don't want to lie to you. You pooped your pants in my lifetime, more than I can remember. It's only when I'm going to Mexico. Okay, here's the second question. Who's your favorite daughter? Okay.

Okay. They have a letter. Let me tell you the letter in their name. Okay. I don't have a favorite.

You could say a because that we have an A and all of our names. You don't have a favorite? Do you think that's it? Do you think people have favorites?

No, I think that as a parent, you learn to love your children. each one individually. differently. Right? That's, that's, that's the key point here is that it's you don't love them the same? You love them differently? Right? Like, every time I speak to Jessica, right? She goes a mamita Maha mamita Jasmine Mita in St. Jude the only one that Camilla mamita chose no way mom. I'm sure yeah, that Natalie Really? I said yeah, because oh my god you will always be you will always be my mummy. All in right so each one just has like a special place in your heart and only one goes conception.

I don't know if it's your your conception. I think I can't figure it out to meet my sisters. Yes, they're they're really good. People have no idea. I know that was a good answer though. Well, I respect that I have no I know you live on my daughter's right. Oh right. Oh yeah, yes. I didn't say I didn't say four kids. I know I'm missing my brain now. That's the bridge. Okay. And then the last one this was this was not questions that I came up with by the way. How do you orgasmic mama know how many one night stands have you had? How many what one nightstands have you had?

There I can tell you the truth. Let's see if I can get funny my fingers here. So bad to count the number.

On that note. I love you. Thank you, I hope you come back. And I'm excited to see sort of where this goes, I don't want to go. So

I want to make you some chili con. Oh, that sounds delicious. And I'm gonna teach people how to make chili con well.

Alright, you guys stick around because the giveaway is next. I love you all so much. I hope you guys took a little something. Got a little pearl out of this episode today. And remember, subscribe rate review, and we will see you next week.

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