true. So thank you so much for coming back. I wanted to touch on something that is a little bit sensitive to me. And I have been thinking about this particular episode since sort of the inception of humble and hungry because, you know, sometimes when you are at your lowest is sometimes when you have these moments, these like out of body experience sort of moments, right? And you feel like there's some sort of lesson to be taught. And I sort of want to start the podcast off with a quote from Martin Luther King. And it says, only in the darkness. Can you see the stars beautiful, and it's gonna make me want to cry? Because it was just a very, very difficult year for me. And, you know, so let's sort of take it back. September 2019 was a day that just changed my life. For the good, right for the good, because I had my daughter, I had my beautiful, healthy baby girl, Piper rose. I mean, yes. And she was not planned. And I say that because, you know, everyone's pregnancy journey is so different. Some people try for years to have baby, and they can't, some try for years. And then they get pregnant. And then when they have the baby, it's like, I have been wanting you my entire life. Right? And then there's some like me, that originally was, I don't know, if I really want kids. And then I got pregnant, right? I was blessed to get pregnant. And I you know, have her and it's this crazy mix of emotions, right? It's like, Oh, my gosh, I didn't know that. I could love you this much. Right, right. I didn't know I wanted you this much. And I'm so glad that I have you. And so I will say that, since that day, moving forward, my life just took an insane turn. Yes. And again, this is a very sensitive subject. And I can't go into full detail about everything that happened. And I hope that you guys can respect and understand that, but but just know that, you know, I'm going to try to tell my story and the most authentic way that I can, because I think that, you know, this podcast is all about authenticity, all about being, you know, incredibly real and honest. So, so I have my daughter, and again, my life sort of takes a turn. And I'm in a place where you know, between what's going on in my personal life, and between all the hormones, right of having a baby, because that in and of itself is like just a world when I found myself at probably one of the darkest times in my life. And as much as I wanted to be in the moment, and I should have been, you know, the happiest, right? Because I was going through something many changes. Yeah, so many changes, and, and it should have been just like a really, really happy time in my life. But unfortunately, and I know for so many women, sometimes it's not. Yeah, sometimes that postpartum depression is so unbearable, that you find yourself looking at this little human and you can't even really, like, enjoy it. You know, it was like, I'm looking at this human not. And I will preface that I didn't, I don't think I went through postpartum depression. As far as, like, I don't think I was, I don't think I would have been diagnosed with that. I think it was other factors in my life that made it that may be heightened what I was going through,