So enough about that. But yeah, my life forever changed. And I went to dinner and came back and I was all dazed, confused, I got sick. And I work the night shift. And the physician that was on duty looked at me and he's like, Nikki, what's going on, and I had like, numbness in my arm and everything. And I mean, my head was just explosive. My vision was weird. But again, I still was pissed off and I was going to still work and you know, it was like getting determined not to know you better go to urgent care. So long story short, that began my medical journey of chronic illness and chronic pain and all the things that you hear about, but until it really happens to you, you really don't under don't understand. And even as a nurse, I mean, I saw patients with chronic illness all the time and their parents and caregivers and again, you have empathy for these people or it's a whole different level when it's you or your Yeah, yeah, it's like an immersive experience that everyone I wish everyone could almost have no, not really but like, You're so right. I mean, people Just don't know. They don't know what it's like to deal with something that's that extreme. And you look totally okay. Yes. So I began the search for a diagnosis. It was hell, I was always a respected colleague in the medical field. And every doctor I went to like, what we don't understand why your symptoms are so long. We don't understand why. You know, you're not better yet. We don't understand this headache that never goes away. How can you have a headache 24 seven, I'm like, I have a headache. 24 seven, I have a headache that never goes away. And they basically told me that it was psychological at one point, and it was so humanizing for a person that's never had mental health challenges and extreme situations, to be told, like, this is all in your head. Really nothing wrong with you. And it was like, Whoa, is it really in my head? No, and I mean, chill. When I say I was upbeat and happy, you know, me as a different ease than I was before. I was really quick, really witty really able to, you know, snap back and really fun life. I'm a different Nikki and I'm differently abled, but I feel that patients are the experts, and they are not heard. We are not heard from a patient perspective. When I tell the doctor, this medicine isn't working. Why does I have to be in question? Well, you're not taking it with food, right? I'm like, buddy, I'm a nurse. While you're not waiting for the onset, it takes three weeks to get to the Pico level and, and all the excuses that I went through, to just be heard, right? And have some kind of hope that like, okay, you understand, like, all the MRIs, I had all the CAT scans, all the various testing, nothing was showing, like, screaming Okay, front, right. Up here. This is why she's all messed up. That's what you kind of want, like, you want that. So you can fix it. But when it's subtle like that, I mean, yeah. 100%. And that was probably the hardest thing through this whole journey. I mean, I was truly suicidal. I was on drugs. How could you not be how could you not be if you think it's never going to end? You know, and you're going to be living in this prison of like pain for the rest of your life. I mean, it's, to me, it's like, that's a no brainer. I'm surprised. I mean, I would be surprised if you weren't. Well, it just wasn't getting better. And I mean, this was 24 seven. And I mean, my husband was just like, losing it. He's just like, go to Vegas, we're gonna, like, get you out of here. We're gonna, like,