Nafa. And a, a FA, has come out with a study that they've done on fat bias in the in the news. And this is just so timely, because this this came out a few days ago, and I have been talking about my therapist, talking to my therapist about this. And my portrayal in the program. I mean, it's been since 2019, that I've haven't been having to deal with the fallout in my brain of that experience. But specifically, what was really awful is they do something called a master interview. So they'll have lots of kind of, you know, casual interviews, where we'll do one that one big interview at the beginning. And this is kind of like getting to know you, this is more kind of here, what are your beliefs. And they will then have more kind of casual things, you're, you're just puttering around the house or whatever. And they'll be like, Hey, what's going on, and it'll just be more casual. And then towards the end of the program, they do something end of the filming lady, something called an unmasked interview, where you go down, and you sit in a kind of properly lit studio, or room or whatever it is. And you look, in this instance, you look directly into the camera, they had a mirror setup thing where there was, there was a couple of mirrors, where you were at, you're actually looking into into the eyes of the interviewer, or producer. And it was actually you're looking into the lens of the camera. And so you could see their eyes in the lens of a camera. It's kind of weird, I don't know how to explain it, but and so you weren't allowed to during this mock master interview, you weren't allowed to do the normal things that you do. In your conversations in regards to looking away, I do a lot of little to think I do a lot of looking away. And a lot of, you know, like movements you might do or, you know, getting yourself comfortable in the chair or anything like that you sat in a chair and you look at having to stare directly into the camera. And this interview goes on for hours. And they start soft with things like let's say soft, that is about your childhood and all the traumas that happened in your childhood. Basically, they're trying to get a reaction they're trying to get good content of you crying, have you shouting at them? Have you storming off or whatever. So they start soft with you know, like, tell us about your childhood and how terrible it was and and then they get into trying to provoke a reaction from you. And and you'll see this in like shows where they're confronting someone like say, if there's a you're watching a show, and you know, you've got someone who's done something bad. And then the interviewer is, is then confronting the person saying, Hey, why did you do this bad thing, and eventually the person will take off their mic and leave the room. You what you don't see is the the lead up to that. What it looks like is someone's like, Hey, say hi. Tell us about you. And they're like, Oh, my name is John Smith. And they say oh, so Did you do anything bad to people and then John Smith is like, I'm not dealing with these questions and A Pic takes off their mic and leaves. But the reality is there is so much that happens between the first and the last. And that it makes John Smith or whoever look like they're very hot, we've caught them. Haha. And now I know this I'm like, oh my god, what they're doing is really, really abusive. And you know, someone's really actually done something bad, you know, someone's murdered someone or whatever then you know a conference rate, you know, confrontation whatever. But when it's it's just, you know, soft issues then I think what they're doing is really inappropriate because in my interview and I obviously I can't speak to all of them but I wonder like how do they get people to react like that. And I guess some people have a short temper, but I don't think that that's true for everyone. And it's not true for me. Like, I'm not the type to be shouting at people. I'm not the type to be storming off. And they never caught me. They never caught me doing that, because that's not really my personality. And so they just kept asking me really intrusive, really intrusive questions, if you can think of a question that you really wouldn't want someone to ask you that you'd be like, I Narottam the answer that, you know, so things like how much money do you make? How much money is in your bank account? And, you know, what is your your worst memory what's, you know, you know, things like, you're just like, wow, really, luckily, because I've done so much therapy, there's lots of traumatic things that happened in my life that I'm able to talk to talk about without crying. And so that was probably frustrating for them that I was telling stories about, you know, all the trauma that's happened in my life, and I wasn't crying because you know, that's great TV. And then I got down to them, asking me, I can't remember the question exactly. But But basically, they wanted to get me to say that I don't want to be disabled, that being disabled is bad. And I wouldn't say that, because the question they asked, I can't remember the exact words of the question, but it was an ableist question like, what's the prep the premise being? Is disability inherently unworthy and undesirable or something like that? Then it say like that, but but that was the the crux of the question. And I was just like, I'm not answering that question. And they asked me, that hit him. This guy. He asked me so many times. And I kept saying, I don't feel comfortable asking that question. That is an ableist. Question. Probably asked me 20 times plus. And I just kept saying, Can we move on? And he'd say, okay, and he'd go, you ask something else, and then he come back to it, you put it in, no one's gonna find out. If you say that you don't want to be disabled? We will, you're not going to get in trouble with anyone. So manipulative? And I was like, no, because I'm not. I think that that is an inappropriate question. And that's what they ended up hearing is me saying, I'm not answering the question, because you're asking me if I would prefer to be non disabled or not disabled? And that's an ableist question. That's all they got out of me out of this whole kind of traumatic thing. Anyway, so, you know, only a few snippets from that master interview aired. And really, the whole premise of that interview is to, to use you to get reactions to get content to get to make a story. And what they got from me was probably not what they want, and they want to, you know, they wanted me to be badly behaved and that's just not me. But the story that they crafted is that I was this kind of decade basic, but it's ugly, and I'm and I'm not. But you know, I knew going into it, I knew that the public would be like, Oh, fuck this person because they're fat and they don't hate themselves, obviously. You know, it's awful. But so I was expecting that what I wasn't expecting was that kind of face to face into personal bullying and or, you know, just a really awful experience. And, and obviously, still, when people have these all these reactions, still difficult to, it's difficult to to know that millions of people have watched you and the vast majority of them don't like you because of your views of that fat people should be treated with respect and dignity.