Yeah. So on the flip side of that, you know, having that despair, dysphoria of you know, people perceiving me as a woman in this time, and this month or two that I've been, I've been out as non binary. I've heard people refer to me as they and it's so affirming. Like I did this this course and the course the person leading the course was like, Victoria they did this and blah blah and I was like, Oh, God, it's like they see me and respect me and and it feels like for years I've been using the wrong name. And then you know, as in she her, invade them like I've been using the wrong name and finally someone's got caught, you know, called me the right name. And someone says my Right, my correct name and it's like, Oh, it feels great. That's really cool. So, yeah, so there's some agenda updates for you what's going on with my non binary exploration fun times. But I looked at I looked at this time and I managed to spot it's crashing not on my laptop, quick time. What the fuck is his problem, man, like, this is a new frickin MacBook Air that I bought in January is August now. And I'm having to go to my old laptop that is five, six years old to record videos like, what the heck this is I need to I don't know what the what is what is wrong with it. Just take it to the to the Apple store. But like, let's say, a mad, I'm right when my phone hasn't my phone hasn't forgotten. And that is also new. What in January is a little stuff when I got back to Vancouver. Anyway, the this episode is about being fat and also disabled or with a chronic condition living with a chronic condition. And so let's talk about that juicy stuff. So in case you're not familiar, chronic condition. What that is, Wikipedia says a chronic condition is a human health condition or disease that is persistent or otherwise long lasting in its effects or a disease that comes with time. The term chronic is often applied when the course of the disease lasts for more than three months. And so some examples of conditions. Arthritis, arthritis, asthma, celiac disease, Crohn's disease, cystic fibrosis, depression, diabetes, eds, epilepsy, heart disease, HIV AIDS, IBS, lupus, muscular muscles, multiple sclerosis, schizophrenia, ulcerative colitis. So I've got I've got depression, IBS. Asthma. Yeah, that's it from that, that, that list. Anyway, and there's lots of that's, that's not it, there's lots of different things. And so, yeah. So a lot of the time, I want to talk about this, because I see this coming up again, and again, and again, with clients, clients who are living with a chronic condition or a disability, and them struggling with the idea of why can't I just love my body, you know, I followed the advice, and I've appreciated, you know, the things that my body is doing for me versus the way it looks and, and I just don't like it. And the advice of just love your body, when your body doesn't do the things that you want it to do is not helpful advice. It's not helpful advice. And, and the, the, the idea of, you might, you might be disabled or have a chronic condition, but just appreciate what it can do. At least it's keeping you alive. That's not helpful, either. It's given me really kind of gaslighted vibes. Being like, just appreciate it what it can do. And just just love it. Just love it. Come on now. It reminds me of people giving shitty apologies. You know, like when we when we hear internet scandals, or I fell in love an internet scandal? Don't