So just Just what came up in the rotation of things to talk about of how those little trickiness that our egocentric mind plays you know, sometimes in Buddhist tradition in the translation, because, believe it or not the Buddha, nor Jesus nor Mohammed nor Confucius, none of them spoke English. So whenever people quote, you know, they say, Well, this is what is what Jesus said. I don't really think so. Because I don't think he's spoken English. And nor nor did the Buddha. So we have these translations, and it's interesting, what we do with the translations. So I'm starting to not try to solidify ego as a thing that the word ego has, actually, um, I'm not sure but I don't think there was a lot of usage of that before Freud, that particular word. And even even he didn't write in English, it was in German. So instead, it's more egocentric, ego, clinging, clinging to this notion of self that gets of who we are, that gets projected out. And, and another aspect of that, for us to look at for our self investigation. Of what we project out onto the world has to do with our secret identity Did you know we have a secret identity? We all have a secret identity. Now, that secret identity has to do with how we like things. To stay the same. And are the masquerading identity is how we'd like things to change. So we say You know what, I want to be less like this. And more like that. I want to one of the examples I go is I want to find the perfect person to be in a relationship with I want to do I want to have a really good relationship with someone. And so we have an developers an identity, the seeker the one who wants to find that person, Miss or Mister Right. Actually dated somebody named Miss Wright. And I said, I don't think so. Later on. It seemed that her middle name was always but but but again, that's exactly how she felt about me. What a coincidence. What a coincidence. So we look to find that person and get into the mode of seeker and and I I've met people like those that there was this one guy, he would always he'd get into a relationship and I'd say you broke up already said, Yeah, you know, it just, it was something she wasn't quite the person that I was looking for. And it turns out, that if we start identifying ourselves as the seeker when we find what we're seeking, two things happen. One, we lose our job. See, because our job is to be the seeker is to find that that thing that we're looking for. That perfect person that perfect something, the perfect job, the perfect house, the perfect car, the perfect life, what, whatever it is, if our job is to find that and then we get what we're looking for, to one, we've lost our job, which is very threatening, you know, we because we identify ourselves with our occupation so much, you know, when you go to a party, you don't say, when you meet someone, mostly people say so what do you do? If somebody says so what are you really like, you might go oh, excuse me. That's weird. Now, what do you do? Yeah, oh, well, I do that you know, this is my job. Okay. So if you get to my age, I say what did you do? But we so our job is important to us. And and our identity of I'm the one who's trying to find Mr or miss right? When you find them, you know how to look for and try to try to develop a relationship, but you don't know how to be in a relationship. You don't know how to be satisfied with how things are. And so you find something wrong with things are you find something wrong with the person Oh, that couldn't have been the one and then what a relief because we try to be congruent with our identity. And, and we don't move outside of that hidden limit that we don't even realize sometimes. So that's why I wanted to talk about looking into that and looking into what do we really want and are we setting ourselves up? No samsara the word samsara in the Buddhist tradition is confused existence. And the word actually is translated as a whirlpool and what it means is we're chasing our own tail. Because that's all we want to do is keep going around in that circle, rather than actually getting someplace because the circle is familiar and we'd rather have something that's familiar and not ultimately satisfying, then the possibility of what could be ultimately satisfying. So something to think about. Contemplate now we're going to do some meditation. And in the Buddhist tradition, there's there are three levels of developing insight. One is listening, which would include reading, but hearing and connecting with what's being taught. The second is contemplating chewing on it, reflecting on things so we actually, we do think about it, but then the third is meditating and that's basically opening our minds to let it sink in without thinking about it. Sometimes it's even translated as integrating. So there'll be time to contemplate it. Right now. I'm going to lead us through some meditation. And then when we do the compassion practice, which is a practice of exchanging self for other meaning, reversing our usual habit of taking in we usually want to take in what we want and get rid of what we don't want. In this case, we're going to take in and experience what we usually don't want and purify that and send out what we do want to share with others. So when we're doing that, that's when this kind of contemplation can happen and say, what do I really want? And what is it that I'm afraid of? And take that in because other people are afraid of the same things and send out courage and confidence to handle whatever comes across. And finally, when there's a gap and you're waiting for something, rather than all those thoughts, you can engage in see what happens meditation. Well, I'm just going to wait and see what happens. So, on that note, let's begin.