So the retreats is just, it's really deep for me, because it was kind of filling a personal need. And then it turned into a passion. And it took me a while to figure out why I felt such an urge to do them. To be honest, I had to really do some self reflection and figure that out. But what I keep telling myself is that my husband and I were actually still pretty young, we have a 16 year old and we're 36 Pretty much from high school to like art, we got to grow up, there is no time to really like explore ourselves or go out or anything like that. And so we just were like, alright, we're parents, we're still trying to make it through school, like college and figure out what we want to do with our jobs. But we got to make these decisions quick, because we have pending on us. I think, by jumping into it and just having to be so responsible, so fast. We you start to apply all these different labels to yourself, and that becomes who you are. So I had one things that just defined me to my core. And that's all I ever knew. And I feel like once my kids, my youngest is five, she'll be six this year. Once they got to a point where it's like they weren't so dependent on me, I sort of sat back and was like, Who am I without all these labels attached to me, because I don't even know anymore. I'm in a totally different decade of life. From when I started being a mom and figuring out all this life stuff. And I'm like, I don't even know what my interests are anymore. The things that I liked when I was 20 certainly aren't the things that I'm interested in anymore. So I had to figure out like who my new self was. So it was really deep. I had to sit down find out like what my interests were, what my goals were. When I started to talk to other moms who were in similar situations. Maybe we were like a similar age, we had kids that were a similar age and you know, on similar growth path. And I found out, I'm not alone, we're all kind of feeling this way. It was almost like we all felt like there was this major shift that needed to take place within ourselves. But we didn't necessarily know what that was. I went on a women's retreat. Last. I think it was March, maybe April, something like that. I went on one because I want it. Otherwise I was like I would never spend money on myself. You know? Yeah,