I flew to dog San boldly and surely, just naturally differently from any other time before. I've until then, if I went to dog sun, and tried not to say anything, Roshi would immediately ring his bell. But this time I just glided in, and die and Roshi breathed in deeply swallowing me up. He stared into my eyes fiercely. For the first time a half smile appeared on his face. That time, I didn't have to hear a bell ringing. Instead, my teacher said let's check you. My responses was spontaneous uncontrived. That was when he verified my understanding. At last moderate understanding, he said at last. I was so fortunate to be able to practice under a teacher so to trick script so strict, and so exacting a teacher who had himself proudly done the practice of Shakyamuni Buddha, and profoundly experienced the teaching of the Buddha. That night, I did not go to evening Dark Sun. I was in the temple office as I had a duty there. I was so filled with pure happiness that I couldn't sleep. But I might have been dozing off and on in a state of wakeful sleep. I didn't know if I was dreaming or not when my own mother who may have never seen came to me. From behind, she wrapped her arms around me and took my hands and hers. Together, we rose into the sky. flying through the sky, I could feel the cold air on my cheeks. My mother was like an angel. As we flew, she communicated this to me, though not in words, but through her life. I'm very glad. I'm so glad if I had not been ripened and mature in my practice at the end of that session, so that the Roshi would verify my understanding and confirm that I had broken through to his satisfaction, I would not have been alive that night. I had made the final determination. I believe that to my mother. The most important thing was not that I had had Satori, but that I had not lost my life. I believe she was expressing her deep wish that I would be protected. I'm very glad. I'm so glad a mother's mind is universal. After that sushi in my world was transformed. All stingy grasping fell away. All distinctions melted away. I continued to practice as di and Roshi instructed me. But now even if I wanted to look away, I could no longer do so. I just continued my practice. I knew true peace. I knew that all as well. There is no inside now. outside, all as one, one all encompassing one, this truth that I was able to accept and receive holds true, remain steady anytime, anywhere, wherever I work on on this wide, wide planet, this truth is universal. Whenever you wherever you find yourself there is only this one truth. This is this is the hallmark of deep awakening that it's not dependent on conditions, but is with one wherever one goes where everyone walks. This truth is universal. Wherever you find yourself there is only this one truth. We can, we can of course have tip of the tongue tastes of those glimpses of it. And they can be life changing as well. But then they become more like a memory or they're rather than a state that want to lose out of. And this is why Diane Roshi was so strict in in having Tongan keep delving, keep questioning even though he had had these, these other experiences