Okay, that's what I was asking. Good. I have it on gallery view so I can see everybody who is there. Now, along those lines, when we're doing our meditations, the sequence that I usually go through, we start getting settled and centered with our eyes closed, but then we move into mindfulness and open awareness with our eyes open. Because the idea is, this is a practice that we want to generalize into our everyday life, and we don't walk around with our eyes closed. So it'll be helpful once you've taken your seat and that you get set up in a way that you're not looking directly into the screen, if it's far enough away, and you're looking downward and there's nothing in between you and the screen. That's good, because part of it is gazing pretty steeply downward, but then you're going to be looking straight out. So it is helpful if you're not looking directly into your into your screen, and you can either move your device or you can move your chair. However, whatever works for you, what I thought I'd work we'd work on today for the holiday season. I know sometimes the words Happy Holidays fill people with dread, rather rather than happy rather than good cheer. So I thought I'd talk a little bit about working with emotions that we and how we work with emotions. So we'll, we'll do a little bit of that in the practice. But there are a number of different ways in the tradition. I was trained in the Buddhist tradition of working with emotions. The the kind of grossest way is to isolate yourself and remove yourself from the source of what the what's provoking those emotions. Now that's kind of a band aid. And people go and say, I'm gonna, I'm gonna go on retreat. I'm not going to relate with this. I'm not going to relate with that, and that that's really not effective in our our modern life. So the next level is to work with one's own attachment and aversion to things that are provoking our emotions. And just saying, I don't need to be attached to, to these things. But again, this is a very austere kind of renunciation, which works for some people. The the next level includes, and I'm and these, I'm just picking a few there are, there are, like a dozen different ways of working with this at all sorts of different levels of depth and and and experience in working with the mind. So one of them has to do with changing the way that you're thinking about what you're experiencing. Now, we've talked about this before, and I know Andrew has talked about it as well. The physiological expression of an emotion, the physio physiological reaction when when triggered, has a lifespan of 60 to 120 seconds, actually 30 to 120 seconds, it reverberates, and you feel that energy and reverberation. But if you don't keep triggering it, if there was a single trigger, and then it's completely gone from mind, you. That that energy will dissipate, that feeling will dissipate, and you'll return to your normal unemotion. You know, unemotional, when I would say unemotional, we all have our emotions happening all the time, but an extreme emotional experience, and so the idea there is to catch the thought that's triggering. And here's where the different kind of approaches happen. And one is saying, Oh, I'm feeling anger. And these are called antidotes. I'm going to use an antidote to this anger, and that is the for the people that I'm or situation I'm feeling angry about, I'm going to say, what if I change that and express kindness and say, you know, Maybe they were unaware of what they were doing. But whatever logical rationale you want to make, I'm going to extend kindness to them instead of anger, and we can apply that to ourselves. When we're angry at ourselves, we can say, is this, is this really doing me any good? Beating myself up. I need to be kinder to myself. So that's one of the antidotes. Another one is to say, Okay, I'm I. There's no way I'm seeing the whole situation. Why don't I withhold judgment and withhold my anger till I learn more? So these are the kinds of using your logical mind to create an antidote. If you're feeling jealousy, you you can say, Okay, why do I feel like I deserve something more than somebody else that's being self centered and and you can also say, I'm rejoicing in their success. I'm happy for them. These are, these are examples. There are many, many more aspects and a lot of subtleties that we can get into when we have a discussion, such session, after the after the meditations. I and and if the jealousy involves someone, feel it fear of losing the attention of someone, the love of someone something else, then it's to say the an antidote to that is to say, Okay, I need to understand the whole situation. And if it means setting that person free, it means setting that person free, but trying to hold them will only increase their it'll only increase their, their wanting to go and increase my jealousy. So what we have to recognize is that emotions feed upon themselves, and when we indulge in them, we actually fuel them. So the idea of these antidotes is to remove the fuel if we were feeling depressed, which or lonely during the holidays that's pretty common. One of the antidotes is, think of others. Think of all the other people who are feeling the same way. And the interesting thing is, then you don't feel as lonely. Feel gratitude for what you do have. And and the deepest gratitude is that you're a good natured person, that your nature is good and, and how lucky you are to have and, and in our situation, we have the the good fortune of being able to meditate and hear these teachings about mindfulness and awareness and and wakefulness enlightenment. So there's a lot to be grateful for. Let's see um feeling poverty stricken and deprived. This is the same it kind of goes along with the depression, one of feeling, thinking, of wishing that, knowing others feel that way, and wishing, as soon as you start wishing that others have more, it feels good. It's, it's like the traditional saying, it's, it is better to give than to receive. And the reason it's better to give and receive because it feels good to give. So we have that as an antidote to feeling like we're not getting enough, and to say, Okay, well, I want, I'm gonna, I'm gonna do the opposite. So this is another level of actually doing the opposite when you're feeling angry towards someone. Say, I'm going to do something kind for them. When you're feeling stingy, do something generous. Stingy or poverty stricken when you're feeling jealous, be more magnanimous. All of these things that go against the grain, and they're not easy to do. That's why the tricky thing here is not to get, what do they call it, over your skis, not to get to try to take on something that you're not really ready to handle and comfortable with. So that's the that's the level and and the practice that a lot of people have been introduced to that we've done a version of is sending and taking, and that is actually saying, Okay, I the source of a lot of these feelings has to do with my