So then we come to the last talk, the topic of conditioned consciousness. And our connection to being aware to being conscious, is quite variable. And sometimes we have no connection at all, we can be so caught up in something so preoccupied so besides ourselves that we're besides ourselves, or we lose ourselves in what we're doing, we or we can end up saying I didn't, I don't know what I was thinking or what I was doing. I didn't even know what I was saying, when I said it, we can be so wrapped up in something that the very idea that we can be aware and conscious is far from the mind far from what we're preoccupied with. And it's possible to be in states where it's just like, so obvious that we're conscious, it's like this, like the main game in town is being aware and conscious may be in a relaxing, wonderful day off, laying under a tree in the park and looking up at the clouds and the sky. And, and there's not much to see, but it's, there's a clear sense of wow, I'm aware, I'm present, I'm conscious, I'm alive, this is quite something and, and the sense of consciousness there is really strong. And then from that place of being in a day off, when the park looking at the sky, we might do something might happen in the park, that we feel, we feel we lose some of that openness, that lightness, that kind of all, because we get caught in something, maybe the ice cream truck goes by, and that's enough to kind of oh, that's like, brings up all kinds of memories from childhood and, and you get absorbed in that and the fact that clouds and sky disappears, the fact that you're kind of have capacity for consciousness disappears over the idea that memories are the idea of wanting ice cream, or someone gets up on a soapbox, not too far away in the park and starts pontificating loudly about political views that are abhorrent to you. And you feel the contraction of the heart contraction of the mind and, and irritation and, and with that, if you try to notice what's happened to that consciousness, you notice the conscious self might feel contracted or tight or, or there might even be resistance in the mind to even notice that the content you're aware in consciousness, because the strong pull into the world of irritation or anger or fear or whatever it might be connected to that. So that our connection to consciousness or connection to being aware, is quite variable. And but I think that having said saying it that way is little bit off, for very veterans off, it implies that consciousness is something the stationary static thing that we can have variable how we touch it, or know it would rather what consciousness is, is it it is shaped by the state of the mind. So the in the park looking at the sky, consciousness that what we feel is consciousness or awareness has been expanded has been created as been imagined constructed to be broad. When we get preoccupied and tight, then that sense of awareness what awareness is, has become tight and constructed. There's not an awareness that somehow exists offline or outside, that's broad and spacious. The conscious has to become that way. And this is a theory. But it's just as valid as a theory that there is this thing called consciousness which is always broad, and we lose touch with it. In my suggestion is that we're still in touch with it, but maybe, but we are in touch with something now that a conscious and unconscious of this become contracted and tight and narrow. So in this way, is continuing this idea that our sense our idea of what consciousness is what awareness is, is variable. And it's influenced by all kinds of things. It's included, influenced by the degree of the agitation, but the degree of, of peace or calm that we have, it's, it's