Leah might not have been wrapped in fine wrapping or put in a decorator box. She might have been a plain old cardboard box, but she was a blessed woman. She was gifted and the Bible said when the Lord saw that she was hated. He opened up her womb it's so hard for me not to meddle with none of that stuff because that's so good. Because I love that sense right there. I love how God can see how people don't like you and bless you because of it. You know that it's so hard for me to leave that alone because if your enemies understood that they wouldn't bother you when when the Lord sees how they hate you. They don't understand that God blesses you because they hate you. I'm not gonna bother. But deeper steel is this woman with low self esteem married to this man who really didn't want her. He spent the night with her woke up in the morning and saw that she was not her sister. The Bible said in the morning, he saw that it was Leah. And she's married to somebody who doesn't love her and doesn't see her. And her progress in the Bible said when she she was so hated that God opened up her womb. He blessed her because of the hatred. And as she begins to give birth, she burst four sons and she burst Simeon and she burst Ruben, and she personally by, and finally she birth Judah, each one of them are given names that on the surface represent her struggle to be accepted. She has the first son and calls his name Simeon, saying, maybe Jacob will see that I've given him a son, and maybe he will love me. The second son, she names Ruben, she says, when he hears, I have given him a man child, maybe he'll care about me. It is funny how you can be in situations where people will deny you the oxygen, of love. And an N and there she is trying desperately to get him to, to, maybe if I do something special here, hear about it and, and he'll, he'll feel better about me. And then the third son she has his name is Levi. Levi means to be joined, to be connected, to be committed. And she says maybe he will be joined to me, I'll call the boy Levite. It took her four children. On the fourth child, she has Judah. And she says now will I praise the Lord. She said I finally come to the place that I put away enough of my ghost fears, insecurities intimidations that I'm through doing things to be accepted by people now. Will I praise the Lord. Okay, now, now, I want to go back through these four, four children because they are the syllabus of what I want to talk to you about today. Not only does Leah's children have significance to her as a woman, and to Jacob and the father. But they also have prophetic significance to and it sets the tone of the ages of how God would deal with Israel during different dispensations and order. But I also see a third pattern that I want to deal with specifically today. And I think it is very, very important that you understand this because it becomes a syllabus, to the conversion of the believer. First of all, you cannot be a believer, until you see your own life and the misery there of and want to change it. You can't be a Christian, because it's the new thing to do. You can't do it through cores. And when somebody pushes you in to do it, you can't do it for your mother. You can't do it for your grandmother, you can't do it for your wife, you can't do it for your boss, you can't do it. Because rich people come to this church you can't do because pretty women are in the church, you can't do it. Because it would be a good business move to be connected with this church and you can be exposed in this church. It's not you can't do it like that. You have to recognize that your own wretched man is miserable and ugly and undone.