Oh I was furious at the world. I was angry at the world. And I was angry. I did a contract I did Mamma Mia for a year. And I and before that I, the year before going was I broken up with my partner who had left me pretty much a shell of a human being that was quite. And in respect, he'd brought up a lot that I hadn't dealt with. And being a 21 year old, 23 year old kid in London, I thought, I just, all I need to do is go meet some new people or go on a date, or, or, you know, get a new job and, and I thought I fixed it. I was on top of the world, I opened a show in the West End, I was, I was in, in my brain, I was in touchable. And then I flew out to Miami to join the customer, Amir and I was confronted by some by people who had qualities, either, I wish I'd had all people that I had affected me hat. So I was suddenly surrounded by that cast was full 23 people full of my greatest fears of people. It was full of, I had never, I've never been popular in school, I was never one. And all of a sudden, I was almost in a little clinic. And in being in that little clinic, without realizing it, we alienated alienated everyone else. So all of a sudden, I was the bully. I thought it was certainly okay to have a nickname for people or, and if it wasn't malicious in my brain, but that doesn't stop it being. They went in on the joke. If you're not, I mean, the joke was still about them. And, and then I'm that soon disbanded. Because I decided I was better than that. But not in a good way. I said, I thought I could be friends with everyone. And, again, alienated myself to a point where I was really a cat for a year and I only speak the truth. And I am not one I don't deal well with people, people's Bs, I don't do well with it, I people, I will call you out on it. But I was calling out people on on things that weren't my issue. So I just look like an idiot. I wasn't being I was just being angry, you know, I was angry at the world. And it took me two years later, to realize that I just thought I was in the in the time, I just thought I had a cast of people who were idiots who just didn't get me who I felt bullied again, all of a sudden. And I'm not saying no, there was, I was bullied on that contract by by another person who was very similar to my ex who brought back a lot of that as well. It was a continual fight for a year of battling new and old me and trying to keep them apart. We keep them as two separate people. And it wasn't till a year, two years later that I realized that the same person, so you can't split yourself in half and be two different people. You can be one big mess of a human being with both old and new and that's okay. You'd be a big mess until you can build itself back up. You can't split yourself in half. And I spent a year trying to do that trying to be a certain person for certain people, and a certain person for some other people. And in doing that you lose. I know Do I was under that contract. I had no idea. Not a clip. I was just wondering, really, and not become a particularly nice person for read. But I can look back now and deal with that. made amends I made amends with the people that I knew I should have asked it to people make amends with me. You know, people messaged me and said, Hey, I was out of why shouldn't we didn't get off very well. And and we shouldn't it should have been like that we should have both been adults to sort it out. But absolutely. And there are times now you know it creeps in Jerome Jerome talked all the time chatting, you know, when I opened every time I get a new student and then they don't come back the next week. And that could be as simple as they've got an appointment or they've got over it just wasn't for them. I suddenly decide that I'm a bad teacher and therefore they don't like me and I Why does everyone else like me? Maybe they just stay in because there's nothing else better still now and if you ask people most people would say to you know Cameron's really confident is a really everyone has to Jerome and some days he's really loud and some days is really quiet, but I do ignore him. That's when danger happens.