2021-07-02-Clear Recognition (5 of 5) Comprehension of Non-Delusion
3:12PM Jul 2, 2021
So we come to the last talk in this five part series on clear comprehension or clear recognition, some vagina. So, there are a variety of ways that we can become or things we can become clearly, clearly recognizing, clearly kind of know and see. And the fourth one of the four is clear comprehension of non delusion. And it's kind of a mouthful, and what is, what is it? How do we clearly comprehend non delusion. And I think one of the ways of understanding this that I really appreciate that delighted, and sometimes i'm amused by is to is to have a clear comprehension of thinking, to really recognize when a thought arises as a thought, I find it interpersonally very helpful, because I might have a thought about someone I'm with. And the other day I met someone for the first time, in an unusual situation and, and given the context situation, given the something about the how that person appeared to me. I had a, a predisposition or a bias to a certain kind of stereotype that though this is that kind of person, and, but because I have a practice of watching my thoughts arise, I could see that thought arise. And immediately, I knew, oh, Gil, this is just your thought, this is your interpretation of the situation, you better kind of stay open here to find out, what's really going on here with this person is who this person is. And in fact, very quickly, it came to see this person was not my stereotype, but not what I thought. The fact that I have, you know, this bias or stereotype, these thought these thoughts came up in assumptions that came up in person that, you know, I think all of us have, that that's a normal part of mine, that, that is operating in the world in a way that needs to have kind of simplistic, sometimes understanding of complex world to find our way. So it's a kind of a thing the mind does. And that thought that arose about this person. It wasn't like my thought it wasn't like I was behind the thought, or, or I was attached to the thought. And I didn't criticize myself for having it. I just saw immediately, oh, this is a stereotype This is an idea, and then could adjust accordingly. And, and if I'd stayed in the stereotype and got caught in it involved in it, then I have some responsibility, then it's in my court to really, you know, that could cause harm that way. So in seeing the stereotype, come up this idea come up. And to see it, as Oh, this is just a thought. Let's be careful here, let's find out Let's investigate more. That was clear comprehension of non delusion, the non delusion of questioning my thought, there not that stepping back and saying, Wait, what's going on here. It was also some non delusion and not taking it too personally, oh, this is just arising of phenomenon, just phenomenon arising. And, and I see it's your sis phenomena. And because of that clarity of seeing, there's a kind of freedom from it. And I don't have to interpret it or berate myself or identify myself with having that thought. It's just a thought. And so there also I can be aware of this is non delusion, to just leave it very simple and kind of belongs to kind of an impersonal not-self world. To see it. It's just a thought coming up. I recognize it, it's not fixed. They just arose and it's just here for a moment. I don't have to get involved and pick it up. It's in and of itself is a impermanent changing, temporary phenomenon. To see the thought as a temporary phenomenon, also is clear comprehension of non delusion. I'm not deluded by it. I see it as a certain kind of way. not-self I see a certain kind of way as, as, as temporary
If I took it as being permanent, this is it, this is the truth that I'm going to hang on to it and stay with it. That is the illusion. And so this ability to clearly recognize our thoughts that arise, can be quite, I find it kind of delightful. And sometimes I'm using more than distressing. When there's such clarity of recognition that I know I'm safe, I'm safe from getting pulled into it, be involved in it, or act, act from these thoughts that come up. And that the light can be there, even when that thoughts are true, then that might with my wisdom, decide whether to act on them or not, or speak them or something. But even is kind of stepping back and just, Oh, look at that. It's, there's a thought and there's a perception and assumption and idea. And that kind of distance, and like wow, it's kind of like amazing phenomena of nature, looking at a tree in a park, or lately we had sunflowers growing in our garden, and these are beautiful sunflowers is bright yellow, and I just like them them. And, and so to have that kind of the light, with what gets rise in one's own mind. Even when things are, there's uncomfortable to have certain thoughts, there's a kind of stepping back and clearly seeing. And so this clear recognition also, that the knowing the awareness, is not caught is not entangled, is not reactive. to its to the thinking I'm having to the situation I haven't, oh, this is really good. To have this freedom, this space, this interval where there's some clarity can arise and wisdom can arise. This is also clear comprehension of non delusion. And I love this expression, non delusion, because it's the absence of delusion, to say clear comprehension of wisdom, means I suppose to be wise, as opposed to have good thoughts or wise thoughts or something like that. And, but rather, to see or hear, there's no delusion, there's no clinging or aversion. There's no I'm not living in the judgments. I'm not living in the thoughts and seeing the world through the thoughts. There's an place of non delusion, which is not exactly a thing, or a form of wisdom or that I can propositional say this is true, exactly. The non delusion is kind of the, in the nature of the stepping back and being clear. And this clear recognition, this clear freedom, this clear spaciousness, that allows thoughts and feelings and emotions and impulses and desires and aversions, they can all arise, but there's non delusion about them. It's just a thought. It's just an aversive thought or feeling. It's just a desire that arises. And whether or not I act on any of this, there's space to make that choice. There's an interval a time there's ability to do that. But the non delusion sets the foundation sets the context for living a life of greater clarity, greater generosity, greater freedom. To come from a place of non delusion, allows us to see others better to be better friends, or better, listen better to other people, to be a tune to other people, because we're not seeing them through the filter of our delusion, or projections, or our assumptions, or bias or stereotypes. It's so useful. And, and then as we meditate, and we become more still and quiet. It's useful to become a tuned or to recognize how subtle these thoughts creep in. Even the thought, you know, you're sitting quietly, peacefully, mine is silent, and you have a thought, I'm not thinking anything. And then you believe that's true, even though you just had that thought. And don't see the thought itself is kind of
contradicting itself. The by doing all these little thoughts come in, and some of them are evaluations, judgments, commentary, but what's happening in the present, some of them are just kind of like in the background, far away quiet, or thinking about, you know, things in the future or fantasies or whatever. But to me He kind of gets quiet really get it start getting more more sensitive to how these thoughts arise, beginning of when they're there. This is not meant to be a lot of work. But as we train ourselves in mindful to keep showing up and being mindful and being present for what's here and recognizing what's here, one of those things is about recognizing thoughts. And if you can see a thought when it first arises, there is tremendous potential there to discover non delusion as well as the non delusion that the thought is temporary, the non delusion that the thought is that of not identifying with thought and making it Me, Myself and mine, the non delusion that is not entangled or caught in the thought or reacted to the thought or swept away by the thought, the non delusion, that's kind of akin to space, to peace, to openness, to, to non contact, certain kind of non involvement, but a non involvement that's automatic and habitual and maybe even neurotic at times, but rather, a non involvement that is a whole different paradigm, a whole radical, different way of living our life. That's not centered in our thoughts or beliefs or assumptions or ideas, but it's centered in clarity and peace and non delusion. So I hope that maybe you'll experiment maybe you'll try over this weekend, to see if you can notice or for those thoughts, that you notice when they first arise, the first appear. See if in that, in that opportunity, when they first arise, whether you can find the non delusion there, and non entanglement and have certain kind of clarity and wisdom and freedom because you see it when it arises as just a thought. So, thank you, and I look forward to continuing on Monday on probably a different topic.