Wow, okay. There's a part of me that says I see endings and beginnings all over my life. But as I'm recording this, it's springtime, it's coming to the end of another school year. And since part of my life has always been involved in the education world, I'm always aware of that season, the ending of the school year and the beginning of summer. And, and there's a pause. There's a pause that summer has always been in my life for reflection, et cetera. And then it's like, as Elul approaches, then we, it's like the on ramp back to the freeway a little bit. So each time it's like marking one's height on a door post, that I'm returning to the same thing. But I'm noticing how I'm different than these pausing times.