Gratitude Prayer in Ian’s Room in New Orleans for My Most Precious Moments with Ian and Laura: Ian Prayed the Lord’s Prayer for His Mother So She Could Go in Peace / Ian Refers to Self Mastery, Virtue of Self Control / Praying for Deeper Friendship of Ian and Laura / Asking for God’s Forgiveness for Censuring Ian / Amazing Grace: Ian Invites Me Again to a Rainbow Gathering / Remembering My Dream of Reunion with Elaine and Her Sons: Elaine Exhilarated to Hear and See God Healed Me: “I’m So Glad I’m with Sean and Ian” / God Reserves Answers to My Key Questions for the Day of Elaine’s Passing

1:40AM Jul 31, 2022

Speakers:

Jonathan Tucker

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Oh, Lord, I just was telling you I can't believe how amazing you are just phenomenal is what I just said. And I said let me just record this because you know, I just kneel before you in your glory and in Your Majesty. You have done something that is just radical. And Laura and I are getting closer and Father God it's all you Oh god, I'm just amazed. I know Ian struggling. I know he's gonna drink again tonight. Please Father God. Help them to get through it unscathed. Somehow, brain cells die when you drink alcohol. And, Lord, I just pray Your Holy Spirit help him to somehow get to the point where he comes to himself like the prodigal son and realizes that he doesn't have to waste his life in riotous living, but that he can experience the joy of sobriety, sanity, soundness of mind, like that naked man coming to Jesus demon possessed who the disciples fled from on the beach as the boat arrived and Jesus gets off and approaches this man fearlessly. And the disciples recover themselves from their flight and agony and apprehension. They discover that Jesus is communicating with this man and when they returned to the man, they find him clothed, “clothed, and in his right mind,” my mother loves that story and Father God, it's still true. We are clothed and in our right mind as that beautiful hymn that my mother also loves so dearly. Creator of mankind forgive our feverish ways. Clothe us in our rightful mind. In deeper piety, I forget the words Lord. Oh, still small voice of calm. Lord God, you calmed the raging sea. You calmed the demoniac by letting his demons go. And Father, I commit Ian to you, I, I trust him into your hands, that you will get him to the point where he is able to come to himself like the prodigal son and realize come to his sensibilities, spiritual sensibilities, and realize that the simple battle is really the conquest of self. not of the world not of not of the riches of the world. Not of some assailant or some person who offends the Ian enough to instigate violence, but to have self mastery the very thing he mentioned today, self control is the thing that is needed if you're going into New Orleans, he said, but he's speaking of moderation in that which is still self indulgence. And Father, I am so grateful that you've been so patient with me and my own self indulgence, my own vices, my own weaknesses. Oh God. I pray for Laura and II. That we will continue to bond closer and closer today. We talked today she asked for a hug before leaving and she pulled me in by her hand as she hugged me and earlier. Oh God. She heard in cry when he poured his contact lenses cleanser, when he got it caught in his eye because he had not dried it out yet. And he cried with such agony fall into his knees, that it caused her immediately to cry. She loves him deeply. Lord taught. You allowed for them to have a friendship that goes beyond whatever is broken in the past and their failed marriage. And I'm asking for that deeper bond of affection that goes beyond anything of the past and that you turn this into a blessing that was a curse in my relationship to Ian and in her relationship to em. Oh Father God, I pray for sobriety in the spirit of grace. Thank you for helping me not to be judgmental and condemnatory about Ian's vices I now understand that nobody can be reclaimed from godlessness from vices, by condemnation and censure. And I ask you to forgive me for the times I've done it with my son with my two sons and my wife in my own implied quiet way even though we never argued that I know of. Lord God

thank you that even though Elaine said Jonathan is dead, that you showed me the vision of Ian standing beside me as we heard the words the good news that Elaine and I will have a child on the other side the very day she died. I have the email track of that very revelation. I believe it's the day she died and I could check on that Lord. But it was the revelation that I was to tell in the presence of Vienna that we were to tell I was to tell Elaine the good news that we would have a child on the other side and we're standing as as if before the burning bush. It was a dome light it was one of those hanging lights. That looks like a brush that lights up the standard apartments of the poor in this country, symbolizing the simple poverty of our lives but down below that light fell a tent like structure representing the fleeting temporal nature of life, the temporary nature of life and as the tent came down representing our pilgrimage so to came a message that we immediately understood I certainly did and I believe it was Ian standing beside me. The one survivor of my immediate family Sean tragically passing in an unexplained death that Father You have never allowed to be known whether it was suicide or whether an angry ex girlfriend in connection with the new boyfriend or whatever the case might be led to his death. Father, it was a shot to his left temple he was right handed and Ian speculates that it was there for somebody else. But father, thankfully you've never made it clear that that's an issue to be addressed and therefore I leave it in your hands, if it's ever supposed to be addressed. But Father God. The message was to tell Elaine the good news that we're going to have a child as freakish as that appears as outlandish as that appears and as egregious ly outrageous as that appears, in light of the fact that it was the very day she died, and she believed up until her dying breath perhaps that Jonathan is dead. Well, surprise, surprise, surprise. Is the old character in that German marking film I believe, used to have it I forget the character who said that with father. Is there anything too hard for the Lord, as I said to Ian earlier, is the greatest promise in the Word of God and I just believe that tonight is there anything too hard for you? Which is the same thing as you saying what is impossible with man as possible with the Lord, You are bringing about this reconciliation. You are turning the hearts of the parents to the children in the hearts of the children to the parents. He begged he actually almost begged me to come again. Even again before leaving for this meeting of rainbow people I would have gone but he's not going to be there till nine or 10 or 11. He will probably be there all night all night with them. And to return to a hotel and a gambling scenario. Father's not my cup of tea. But if you want me to do it, you'll work it out again for me to go out there under circumstances that would not be so intemperate and outrageous, but certainly I would have been willing to meet these people that was standing drugs, etc. Because you told me to go into all the world and that's the beauty of my non judgmental experience. I now understand that where the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty regardless where we go bars brothels, Rainbow gatherings with people using drugs. Father we’re to go into the whole world and preach the good news. We're not to be partakers of sin, but were to be going out to touch the world father for you. And the good news that I ended up telling Elaine as I looked up the stairs, walked up the stairs tapping gently on the wall at the earlier stairs, symbolizing her flight from this earth to the next.

Her freedom from the limitations of this world.

She appears as I gently tap on the wall and refuse to go up to the actual door all the way up the stairs for recognition to recognize and honor her desire for privacy and flight from me in this world.

So very decorously and sensitively I (with open hand for least offence) tapped gently on the wall she appeared immediately radiant as the sun father you know this and she was looking down but she shined even more when I told her the good news.

What came out of my lips, however, was different. Instead of saying I have good news, we're about that we're going to have a child which is true. In fact, thank you Father for announcing that somehow she had a miscarriage or even an abortion. I don't know the details, Lord. But whatever it is, you've disclosed that we will have a child that will be made in our image, how wonderful Lord God, a child that will never experience the wickedness and corruption of this world. What a blessing. An answer to prayer that I had for years after having a vasectomy, wondering what it would have been like to have a child in my own image. And you answered that prayer. At the same time that you answered the prayer also about whether Elena and I could be reconciled this side of heaven, or on the other side in the millennium. And you answered both of those prayers in one fell swoop answering the most important questions of my life. Besides the reconnection with Sean and Ian, which was implied in the very same dream, answering that dream as well, actually. But the reconciliation is not just with Elaine. In fact, it's all predicated on how I relate to Sean and Ian, and my words where I'm so thankful I'm so glad to be with Sean and Ian. And when I said those words, she was shining, as it were 10 times brighter than the midday sun. A perennial 20 year old luminous with the joy of God, her prayers were answered. I was with Sean and Ian and join their company and father many times I could have gotten north and my own peculiar status prevented me from returning too early. When I might have and in your infinite mercy. You allowed us the ineffable joy of hugging several times over different things today the most poignant and most powerful with tears in his eyes, lips quivering, recognizing the preciousness of his mother and the fact that he couldn't actually talk to her before she died. But he did pray the Lord's Prayer. I asked if your mother hurt you and he said he said basically, yes. I said, Did she say anything? And he said, No, but did she make a sound indicate that he that she heard the prayer and he said yes. Oh Father God. I had the privilege of telling you the most important words. I said that's all your mother needed to know. She needed to hear you pray the Lord's Prayer. That was what she needed before she left. And Ian was so deeply touched his lips tremulous. His eyes filled with deep sadness, profound sense of loss that he couldn't express his fondness and love for his mother. His deepest love, indeed, in this entire world. Combined with that amazing sense that perhaps he will see her and that perhaps in fact, God allowed for things to be arranged perfectly.

As I said, Ian, clearly referring to the fact that he had hoped to actually see his mother alive before she died and he rues the fact that he didn't leave early from New Orleans to see his mother. It's the greatest, most powerful pain in his heart. That latently lurks at times creating the beginning pangs of that conversion process of conviction that the Spirit of God promises to give us to convict us of sin of righteousness, of salvation ultimately, but to convict us of sin first.

And I looked back at him and I said, God is perfect in his ways. Your mother needed to hear you. She needed to have that prayer time with you, so that she could depart in peace. I said, Oh, he and as I put my neck upon his neck, the most precious hug I've ever had with my son. Thank you. Father. For him to be teared up today.

Choked utterance of combined deep regret and remorse and the surprising ecstasy of realizing that maybe in fact, God was perfect in his timing, that element of faith that he earlier that he later referred to when he talked about the mustard seeds

of freedom referring to the great revival, spiritual revival that accompanied the military victories as George Washington as he remembered the picture in our living room at Fort Bragg that my mother gave me, believing in the spiritual purpose of me as a soldier, admiring the founding president kneeling in Valley Forge, at a time as I told him when the men the soldiers had no shoes on freezing snow many of them had no shoes bloody feet.

And in the day of impossibility when no hope of victory presented itself George Washington got on his knees and implored the help of Heaven. Father God, you heard his prayers. That famous painting of George Washington at Valley Forge praying. Father God, thank you for the Holy Spirit's work. You will turn the hearts of the fathers to the children in the hearts of the children to their fathers, lest you smite the earth with a curse as you've promised. Father, there's no place I'd rather be than right here with my son and his ex wife, continue to work upon their bond of love, purify their love for each other.

Thank you Father tonight for a very unusual Sabbath. Today for breaking me to that Verizon office. Outside of New Orleans today, as I was even querulous and even cursing father because the Verizon office wasn't open when we got to Charlotte met is it I can't even pronounce that. I think it's Charles met Louisiana. And there I met the most precious system whose father a very the very year from today. A year ago, I was speaking to her about the fact that he was departing this life. And I began to tell her that he was killed by the remdesivir. He took it she said yes, he did. Take the remdesivir I said that's a slope. That's a that's a soft kill. Drug. She said oh, and I know that they killed him. I said really? You know that? She said I already know. Father God you brought me over there to whatever it is. Cheryl met I've got her Verizon Neva number anyway over there. And I will follow up Lord, my only regret said is that I didn't record all the talks with my father. She was clearly telling me Don't Don't forget to do that with you. And I looked back at her and I said I'm not forgetting to do it. I'm doing it all the time with my son and he doesn't know it. And she was absolutely flabbergasted with joy. I said, if I get your email, I want to tell you the whole story. I want you to hear it and see it. See the work of God. And on the way out, I said have you heard of that movie Touched by an Angel? That movie series I said to the guy who was nice enough to let me continue to talk with her. She was putting helping me respond with my new cash cash app card to put money on it on back on my Canada national bank card out of state helping me to do that. And she said, Oh my I'm I forget what she said. But I'm astonished. I am amazed that you just said that my father and I loved that Touched by an Angel series. Father God. how amazing you are. I love you God tonight. For you. I've heard my prayers and my cries. You have brought me out of a horrible pit and you've established my feet on a rock. You've established my goings and you have put a new song in my heart even praise into our God. I lift up Colette in New Hampshire who I've met on eHarmony I left up to you these other Dear sisters I've met on these dating sites. I'm trusting you'll have the right lady for me. I pray for that woman. I pray for all of the singles looking for people online. Who are your people, that you will guide them with special grace and patience to wait for you. Those who wait upon the Lord those who wait upon the Lord shall rise up with wings as eagles. They shall run and not be weary they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah chapter 40. Or is it 41 or 42? I forget now Lord. Haven't read your Bible for a long time because all I want to do is practice the verses that I do now. Help me Lord God to wait upon the Lord, that I might renew my strength. He leadeth me beside still waters He restoreth my soul. He begged me to lie down in green pastures The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want Lord God bring me back to my first love experience when I used to love that Lord shepherd that Lord the Lord is my shepherd Psalm. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for that work with me. They brought and they staff come from the with my mother with my oldest brother Richard and his son Elias, that they might be reconciled and that they might understand the peace that passes understanding that my mother has tasted have tasted and seen that the Lord is good and may they see that goodness of God that leads them to repentance. Being with my brother Robin and Alexandra and with Jeremy in the nursing home. Oh Lord God opened up the way for healing. And the family in the name of Jesus Christ thank

me with Michael Gale. Ian's Father, that he may repent and open up open up his heart to Jesus Christ.

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