Right, right, right. Well, I'm in the year 24. And it's always been a part of my life. It's always been who I am. And I, I guess I'm just one of those people. I'm always in the movie, rooting for the underdog. I've always wanted the little personal are the weak person in the sense of how we sometimes see people to win. So I love that good story in that narrative. And I hate bullies. I just despise bullies. And when you hear the harm that oppression causes and isms, that what they do to people, the trauma that they bring, at some point, you realize that your counseling may not be effective, that it's gonna take something or you feel helpless in the room, because we realize that it's not the person that has the problem. The person has become a victim. And they need help. And so our Code of Ethics would say that if we can't help the person that epically, we refer we do something else. Well, if we recognize that there is an alternation or oppression or something along those lines, and the next step is advocacy, and social justice work. So our field has evolved from multicultural counseling to social justice. However, we're still practicing the first, second third forces of counseling. Why aren't we advancing into multicultural? Why are we not advancing into the social justice because I feel has evolved there. The roadmap is there, but we still have people who are not willing to practice it. I think that's unethical. And that's a real problem for our profession. And so then what does that mean? For people of color or, or any group that has been discriminated against, what does that mean for us? Can we get help? Or can we not get help? And will we be just left to the world? Or will someone stand up and say, This is wrong? And let me help you. And I'll give you an example. Everyone has been advocated for in some way. But I've had personal advocacy. That was there for me. And this is when I really realized the value of that. I had police officers show up to my home. First time we showed up, they said, Are you Christopher counted? I say, yes. They said, We have a warrant for your arrest. And I said, No, sir, you do not. And I can say that, because I knew I had not done anything. And I said, Do you have ideas? Uh, sure. So I gave him my ID. And he said, Sorry, sir, for Bobby. The officer that a couple days later, I get home, another officer shows up. That Are you critically Calvinists, and they have a warrant for your arrest? No, you do not have a warrant for my arrest. Can I see your ID I said, Sure. Show him my ID. My children said that why police officers come into our house like this, that they're looking for someone that shirts, okay. Well, the next day, as soon as I arrived home, another officer shows up. And by this time, I'm getting pretty perturbed. And so I'm thinking like, my neighbors must think I'm some criminal. And it's making my family nervous. And, and I'm getting a little perturbed at this point. So also like, well, could I see you I'd be like, This is our last time show him I think I've told you all he doesn't live here, you know, he doesn't live here. Do not come back to my home. Unless you call can change it in your system. Can you make a note that this guy does not live here, we have the same name, we have different initial middle names do not come back. Well, long behold, they continue to come back. So what do I do? I've asked him to stop. I've asked for them to change. And it seemed like it will be a very simple fix. Like he put in your system. Wrong guy, wrong house. Period. Well, it did not stop it was. And by this time, you know, we know black men get shot, often by police officers. And it's my home, I haven't done anything, I have the right to protect my home, protect my children, my children are afraid. And they're also gonna think if they feel threatened, I can get shot. So I'm getting stressed. I'm feeling hopeless. What can I do against the police officers? I mean, they can easily say I became aggressive, or, you know, these are the experiences or thoughts that were going through my head. And so I just happened to be talking with a mentor of mine who happens to be a white woman. And we're just sharing with her what was happening. And she was in relationship with that police department. She had an award winning program with them, where they were helping to our drug dealers and the alternative to selling drugs. And so again, it was award winning program. And she went to that Chief of Police. I didn't know she did this. But one day, my phone started ringing relentlessly. And we answer calls and we don't know who it is, we just kind of look at it and let it ring or call off. And but they will not stop. They just kept calling out like man is somebody trying to get me so I answered the chief of police profusely apologizing for the experience that I was having. He said that it would not happen again that the officer would not return to my home. And again, just apologize. And so I later found out as my white mentor told him, this is not a guy you want to mess with you actually want him on your team be obligated for him. She she couldn't do what I couldn't do for myself. So you would think well, why would this white woman have to do this for this black man? Why wasn't his word good enough? Why wasn't his validating he wasn't the person good enough? Well, there's not the world that we live in. And you can microaggression say, Well, you know police officers are really really busy, and they just probably didn't have time to change the system. Welcome. Hey, I'm gonna scope up my house and wait for me to come home, you had time to type in some notes, you could have done it, but you didn't consider me important enough to make a simple chain. And so I use that story often because now, if I didn't have the pointer to the good coping skill, I could have very easily ended up in a counseling session. Because I was anxious, I was afraid my family was stressed out. We knew our home was being watched. And, and that wasn't a good experience. So if I would have shown up in a counseling session, are you going to use CBT? Army to say I'm having irrational thoughts? And I'm generalizing here, what theory are you going to use to help me. And I would say, that's probably not a theory is natural sense that would have felt I would have needed advocacy, I would have needed social justice intervention, as that happened with my colleague or my mentor, informally going, and advocating on my behalf, to this gentleman. And so. So this is what I will tell the students are this is an example, that when it's happened to you, and you felt helpless, and it will happen to you and all the way in some way, whether you are a woman and you're mistreated, or whatever your minoritized status might be, it's going to happen. And you'll know what it feels like, you'll know that helplessness feeling you'll know what you don't want for others. And then when you hear the stories, it's like, okay, I have to respond because someone responded to me, someone helped me. So that's what happened, I, I was initiated through the fire. And then, so it's part of my, my need to be Robinhood. And it's part of my need for a more chess world.