So my friends, me come to the fourth talk on insight pen dad. And it's the five kind of movements evolutions growth in the practice that flow from having insight. And the Word Flow suggests that is not something we do or construct or make happen. But something that as we see clearly more we see clearly what we're doing, what's happening in our minds, our beliefs, or our attachments, our desires, our versions, our resistance, as we see it more clearly, really clearly. And we see deeply into its nature, its impermanent, changing, constructed nature, that we begin to let go, we begin to be disinterested or we start changing our relationship to it, or we're not so wedded to it or invested in it. And there's a disinvestment process that goes on and a fading away of the desires, the attachments that keep us caught that keep us from being free. And the consequence of this is greater and greater calmness, peacefulness, ease. And so the reward is that there is a reward isn't just simply being left somehow in some undesirable state of destitution. As as this fading away of attachment, fading away of clinging happens, it leaves us for yearn freer. And the freedom the liberation that comes is why it's significant, why it's part of this evolution, this growth this flow is it's not something we do, it's not a letting go. It's not something we find the key that we turn it releases something, the lock, and we the combination, and we finally free, but rather, it's the the the result of this fading away, calming, relaxing, not resisting, not asserting, not tense, wanting real radical trust, to really just be here fully, fully, fully present in a calm, relaxed way. allowing things to fade away. And that at some point, something inside of us releases. It's there's a something that we're not doing, let's go stops CSIS. And sometimes it's can be a moment shift to like a, like a quantum flip in the mind, where something in the mind just stops. And, and now it's just everything is so clear and open and free. It could be in the heart finally settles in his openness at home in itself. And the heart finally has lots of breathing room. And the heart just feels like he can sing and it's so free and so light and so easy. But the operating thing here is not something we do, and we can't exactly take responsibility for it in terms of making it happen. We take responsibility for setting up the conditions for that freedom. And a huge part of this dharma practice is us creating the right conditions for allowing something the dharma to move through us allowing release opening development to move through us. And and that begins right at the beginning of the gladness pen tat that precedes the Insight fantastic that we have it's begins with enough trust and inspiration to start being present for experience in a nonreactive way and finding this presence. It feels good there's joy and happiness that comes calmness that comes until we see more clearly and we can start kind of get calm enough still enough to see deep enough. And then this process is fading away process that a lot of the we look sometimes we're looking for I used to look for sit in meditation, kind of like a like a cat that mouse door waiting to see if I can see the letting go happen. The releasing happening finding out where the magic was the magic point was where I could finally kind of penetrate something and everything would let go And I found out over and over again that there was this process of fading away and ceasing and things disappearing. But I didn't always see when that moment happened. And if sometimes the meditation practice set the conditions for it to happen, and then after meditation is when the releasing happened, and I didn't see it happen, but at some point, I recognize Oh, it's gone. The resistance that desires, the clinging, the conceit, the things I was caught up with, wow, they're gone isn't that that's phenomenal. And, and so this, setting up the conditions, for the fading away for the calming down for the centering for the settling, not for its own sake, but so that that which is the suffering inside of us that comes from that comes from some tight clinging or holding or resisting, has a chance to melt away to thaw. And so this process of fading away that I talked about yesterday, sometimes I think of it like thawing, or being really cold and just kind of slowly warming up, melting, dissolving. It's a process of slow change that we allow for. And so if we're in meditation, we have to sit in meditation long enough, still enough regularly enough that we allow for this deeper process to happen. It's a meditative process, where some deeper, deeper kind of fading settling, releasing can happen for most people much better and daily than in daily life in any other kind of circumstance. And it grows, the more we sit, the more we meditate, and just learn to sit still letting go of resistance, letting go of clinging, letting go of tension, and trusting how things are fading away, fading away, settling, quieting, quieting, letting go of our thoughts coming back, letting go of her thoughts coming back, letting go of her thoughts going back, and a gentle quieting by setting up the conditions that allow something to feel at ease, to feel peaceful to feel comfortable. And, and so it becomes invaluable. To learn to have a mindfulness awareness, that's nonreactive and awareness, which is not for or against anything that's not disappearing or upset or resisting anything. That's not critical of when the mind wanders off, and keep going back to his non resistance awareness. That is kind of gives the space for things to release to settle to calm to open. And at some point, you will recognize that what encumbered you with the inner movements of tightness and fear and resistance and holding on and expecting wanting projecting that you do, you'll find, wow, it's not there. And that is the kind of liberation in the teachings of the Buddha. He describes a whole list of the things of 70 and 80. And things that he listed a number of times, things, very particular things that people discovered, now it's gone. Wow. And it says certain things like greed and hatred, but envy ambitiousness conceit. disrespect, disrespecting people that goes on to all these different things. But there are what I'm emphasizing here is he's very he names particular mental states that fall away that stop. So it's not a generalized kind of like, some general vague idea of what liberation is. He specifies different states of mind different emotions and things. So it's very particular psychologically particular. Oh, look at that my envy is gone. Look at that, my resentment is gone. Look at that, my remorse, my desires, my greed, my lust, my my self criticism is gone. So it's these particular psychological states that he says, oh, liberated, liberated, liberated. And then that liberation can grow into more and more and more complete. And to make it better recognize it. Look, there, it's gone. And I was struck when I learned about this part of the Buddhist teachings when he names particular psychological states, that
that was kind of eye opening for me, because I kind of had just realized only then, that I had some vague idea that there was some great experience of enlightenment out there, that I didn't know what it was. But it certainly must be good and certainly desirable, and certainly going to freed me from all my suffering. And, and I don't need then, when I spread, they said, like 17 different mental states psychological states that the Buddha, each one talked about seeing how it's gone. I said, oh, let's appreciate the specificity of what is what liberation I have. What are the things that I let's not be held kind of captivated with the idea of some grand, Big Bang Theory of enlightenment that somehow is vague what actually happens there? Begin appreciating the deliberations of particular things that have bothered us memories, stories, we hold on to relationships, we will hold on to, and to see allow every of that I'm free of that. And so this process of fading away, then discovering Oh, it's not there anymore. Wow. Appreciate the not their notice of suffering of painful psychological states that were there. But when they're, you're free of them, that is a nourishing, that's very important to see. Now it's gone. So having inside seeing clearly enough to start becoming disenchanted to then have the fading away of the psychological drives that kept us enchanted. And then having that fade away enough that we feel free of it. It's a wonderful thing. And that this is a natural process to do this. It's not something we have to make happen. It's kind of like natural means it's kind of built into who we are. It's almost a consequence of ending, doing the unnatural things. And what I mean by the unnatural things, the things that are the artifice is of our own mind that we create and make and and construct. And the interstates that are not the artifice is like that freedom. So thank you. And one more day on this insights pen tad. And so you might go through the day today with some homework. And that is to notice that times through the day. Notice the absence of difficult psychological states suffering, clinging desires resistance that you have had at some point in the past earlier the day yesterday, last week. But notice the absence of them and take in how good that is. That something was difficult before is not here now. You might have other difficulties now. But appreciate the ones that are no longer here and see what happens to you when you kind of feel that absence. So thank you very much.