think it makes the web bigger, like perfect example of that is like, I think it is so fucking incredible that instead of like, locking everyone under an NDA, and like a strict no social media policy, um, Beyonce tour, she allowed all of them to post behind the scenes, the stylists, the hair, people, the choreographers, the dancers, every single that and then of course, you have the commentary and all these different facets, you have all of these different designers like this literally was like this cultural moment that was created to teach people and include people so even if you are not capable of going into a space with 50,000 people like me, like if I I don't know why I'm crying, but like the thought like I was, I was, this would be the perfect VR experience truly. Because for me, like I truly would not like with my social anxiety and stuff. I wouldn't and also my sensitivity to sound and energies and other stuff with people like I would literally like faint. I would be like those girls during the Beatles. Were they like saying that that would happen to me and I would be unconscious, although listening to like, I will tell you that on the way home from Atlanta. The flight was like an hour and one minute long and I was like, Oh my God, that's the length of the Renaissance album. So I put it on because I was so physically exhausted because I'd only had like, I don't even know like six hours of sleep like from the weekends. So I was like a little bit delirious, right and The reason why is because I stayed up till 2am Talking to my dancer friend Betty who's the reason I even know anyone in Atlanta to begin with, like, She's literally the door that opened this whole world to me. And I met her because I went to, I think it was the Brooklyn Museum. And they used to have this like festival where they would basically have like different like dance dance groups and stuff, like come in. And I went there after work one day, and apparently, I was like laying on the ground and like my business attire, but like photographing, because that's like, my favorite angle to shoot from is me being on the ground, and shooting up. So it makes everybody look like they're a fucking superhero on a poster. And so, so basically, like, she saw me crawling on the ground, and she was like, Can I get the pictures that she took, and that in our, like, friendship and collaboration, like blossomed from there. And then as soon as she introduced me to someone in Atlanta, when he came up to battle, he asked if he could bring his friend up, who then became like, is this amazing, talented, like, philosophic? Like, he is like, I feel like he is my Yoda in the sense that very weird about that. I said that because we don't talk all that often. But I did see like our prior transcripts, where we had these conversations when I was like, in the depths of my depression, like, in the middle of getting like electroshock therapy, sometimes, like my texts, didn't make any sense. Sometimes they were just strings of letters, because by the time I was towards the end of my treatment, like, I literally could not even form a coherent sentence when my mom would pick me up. And my mom was convinced that like, if I continued, like, I would become a vegetable, which I think that term is so offensive, but like, basically, she was afraid that I be, I would not be able to, like, engage with the world from from a conscious perspective, and the only reason why I stopped getting them. So the only thing that saved me was the fact that I have three seizures over the course of 50 days. And the last, of course, the first one, my mom heard me scream, she came into my room. And I was seizing on the bed with like, my eyes rolled up in the back of my head. And then we went to a neurologist, and he's like, Well, she has another one, like, go to the hospital. And then I had one where I fit through the left side of my tongue, and font back, you cannot put stitches on the tongue. So now I am literally always biting my tongue because the way it grew up, it's it's always where am I keep a tuck. I'm like, injuring it. It's almost like a fuckin callus. At this point, it's so disgusting. It it's just, it's wild to me how mental health can like permeate and all of these different facets. And I think, you know, because like you said, I don't really consider myself to be an artist. I think I'm creative. You know, and I think that I about things in particular ways that different than a lot of people. And I think I'm now coming to realize that like, the, the really shitty things that I've been through because of my brain chemistry, and then also brain trauma, because I've had like five concussions. So I've had five on three seizures 77 known sessions of ECTC, slash electric shock therapy, because I found that many consent forms. And