Don't need to wait for anything. Life serves itself up to us on a silver platter. Sometimes it rubs itself in our face. She says, this is a very radical teaching, not for everyone. People often turn away from such a teaching. They don't want to hear it. What do they want to hear until we're ready, which usually means until we've suffered and have been willing to learn from the suffering. We're like baby birds in a nest. They open their mouths upward, and they want to be fed, and we see it, we say, Please stuff your wonderful teaching into my into me. I'll hold my mouth open, but you put it in. What we are saying is, when will mommy and daddy come? When will a great teacher, a supreme authority, come and stuff me with that, with which will end my pain and my suffering? The news is mommy and daddy have already come. They're right here. Our life is always here. But since my life may look to me like discomfort, even dreariness, loneliness, depression, if I actually were to face that, who would want that? Almost no one. But when I can begin to experience this very moment, the true teacher, when I can honestly be each moment in my life, what I think feel, this experiencing, this experiencing, will settle itself into just this, the joyful Samadhi of life, the word of God that is Zen practice. We don't even have to use the word Zen. Don't even have to use the word practice, experiencing this very moment, which is always available, even when we feel confused, feel we don't know what to do. There it is, that's it, that very confusion keep turning away from this moment, looking for something else, something better, something we've seen in the past, something we imagine.