Very good question on emotions, I might seem happy and positive now but there is always down time. I had my time when I wanted to give up too. I had my time that I cried so much that the feeling was, like, I told my partner. Now, I told him that I actually understand what it feels like sleeping on the bed and waiting to die. I actually told him that it was so bad that I was in bed for three days, I couldn't eat, I couldn't move back to him. What am I doing here, it just affects your brain so much that kind of like I just want to give up. It's - then he told me that it's okay to feel down it's okay to tell to talk out, to cry out but there has to be a time limit. You can't do this forever. So you cry out, shout out, anything you want your downtime, but there has to be a full stop. So, so I learned from that. I can't be down all the time, I give myself a break time to cry, like just a few minutes then I have to tell myself enough. Okay, go and find something to do, pray, read something watch a comedy, things like that, and count my blessings. So I learned before my sleep. I thank God for another day of a smooth battle. I wake up, I thank God for another day to see the sun again, you know to breathe. So, it actually changed my perspective too on how much I appreciate life even more. And, yes, that's how I navigate my emotions. I give myself a cut off time. So how long does it take, it's actually a continuous thing to get back my emotions back to normal, and also my confidence. Like what I was telling PC earlier. How did I get my confidence to take off my headscarf, actually it was because my head scalp started to itch. The hair was starting to grow back and it was starting to itch that I couldn't stand it and then - because the - one of the effects of chemo is you get like pre menopausal symptoms like hot flushes. So a bit of temperature change in the room I will start to sweat. So I told myself if, you know, cancer people like people who actually advocate cancer, they could shave off their hair and feel proud. Okay they shave off their hair and they still feel proud walking out. So as a cancer patient, that we are battling through and being a warrior, why should we feel shy walking out, being bald or, or without a headscarf? We should feel proud because every day that we battle through it, we actually went a step further and we are all a warrior. Hair will start to grow back, even though it's slow, but it will start to grow back. It's okay. It's just part of us.