Yeah, yeah. And it isn't just that he did that it's that he remained that obsessed for that length of time. And as we see, you know, when that when that has no place to go or evolve, it just becomes toxic. And and you know, I know that there is a great deal of snake redemption that gets done it canonically and in fanfiction, but one of the things one of the big counterpoints to it that I keep seeing is just how nasty he is to the students like you don't no matter what's going on in your personal life, you don't take your frustrations out on kids, no matter, you know, no, no matter what's going on. So I just, I like to feel that this is an AU that we're talking about where Snape decides to get a handle on some of the darker emotions that he's feeling. And he recognizes maybe he's been disciplined for, you know, being venting and appropriately, he recognizes that something needs to change. And then Sippel introduces him to the art of drug because one day he's in the hugs ad feeling miserable for himself, you know, after the third fire whiskey or, you know, whatever it happens to be and he sees Sybil onstage and he thinks, you know what, this could be an outlet for me. And so he starts exploring that, that side of himself, and I feel I feel like that would be an encouraging step to take. And I think in his head, he, like Snape is feeling that if he can't be with Lilly, he can channel some of Lilly through his performance. That to me feels like a very Snape thing to do