and and also not trusting says hit men. You know when says that men say? Oh, yeah, you know, because I always say always say so. what's your what's your opinion? On fatness? You know, how do you feel about dating a fat person? I asked that of someone a couple of days ago. And they they blocked me. And I was like, oh, that's your answer. They ain't interested. But anyway, even when I do say like what's your and they always they always come back with Oh, yeah, it's fine. You know, whatever. And and you know that they haven't got any they haven't had any critical thought behind that. Because apart from this is this hitman. Trans men, by men, queer men that I talked to. They've got something else to say which is that they're educated on the topic that they say yeah. Oh my god, fat phobia is fucked up. And I'm so sorry that that's something that you've had to deal with. Or, or Yeah, actually, you know, they've got something to say versus Oh, yeah, no, I think everyone is equal or something, you know, which kind of says that they haven't really thought about it, but they're open to it. But then my brain is like, am I the first fat person you've ever gone on a date with? Are you just experimenting with me? To see if you can stomach having sex with a fat person? You know, they're not clear really fat positive, but they're not clearly fat phobic either, you know? Yeah, and, and I've seen this way, you know, I always check, I always say hey, what do you think of fatness? And, and, and then? And then they say, Oh yeah, no, I like it's great blah blah, blah. And then I'll be like, you know, say this is I'm just thinking about this one guy. Oh yeah, I love it. Great. And so I'm like, oh, okay, good, good, good. And then, like a few weeks later, I say, also, is it normally only fat people that you day? And he's like, Oh, actually, I've never dated a fat person. And I'm like, oh, so well. Is that true that you love that? Doesn't you just saying that? I'm gonna just take your word that in that it is true. But no, it's just, it's yeah, you have to take people's word for what they say. And and I mean, but there's always this hesitation, right? As a fat person. What are their motives? Are they just, they're just looking for easy sex? What is going on? Are they? Are they actually very comfortable and happy and excited to date a fat person? Or are they like, oh, fuck it. I've never dated a fat he was might as well tried their hair talking to me. So what the heck are they? You know, seriously unhappy about having to talk to a fatty but they're desperate to get the Nope, they're not sucked. And so they'll just do it anyway, you know, these are the questions that are going through my mind and I'm sure a lot of other fact people's minds. Yeah. And so with that, that intersection of of gender dysphoria that I'm thinking about? I think to myself, Okay, well, I should dress feminine. So because he's gonna think this is this is, by the way, this guy has never said anything like, that makes me leet leads me to think that he is transphobic he's had relationships. I've not actually asked if he has relationships with fat people, but from my I kind of got the impression that you had. But he his last relationship with was with with was with a trans woman. And so I get that kind of more, I feel more safe with him. Anyway, so I think to myself, Okay, what if he thinks, oh, well, Vinnie is fat, but at least they ain't masculine. At least, Vinny isn't coming up here looking like a masculine non binary person. So that's what I'm thinking. Him any any sis man is thinking that, at least that they could do is make up for their fatness by being feminine, because if they are fat, and non binary, masculine or androgynous, then that's too much for me to handle. As if those things are negative. They're not by the way. They're just ways of humans to be to be.