So I'll just do a little bit on what's going on with me. So at the moment, it's been difficult. I found that because you know, everything going on at the moment, it feels kind of bleak, and I think a lot of it is, is that I'm seeing a lot more of myself. And I'm getting to know myself a lot more. And I think that's been challenging. Because I feel like I've come a long way in lots of ways, but there are little things that still get to me. Yeah, one of my main things is kind of how my body looks, specifically my stomach. I really struggle with that. And when I because the thing is, I'm not big in the way of say what a lot of people might think was big, but I've got my stomach sags and it's uncomfortable, and I genuinely won't like my boyfriend to see it. And I just say to him, please look away. I don't mind here, because he's seen them now. Oh, I see. Oh, I just say, Please don't look at it, because it just hangs and it looks horrible. For me, and the thing is, I'm trying to be less mean to it. Because my, my you know, the abuser guy, he would make comments about it poker in night, just generally be a dick about it. And I think a lot of my hangups with little parts of my body are big parts of my body are because of stuff he said, and I mean, I haven't I broke up with him. I'm 28 now and workout when I was 23. So it's been a long time, but it's still got the scars that are still there. And I think, because he would always make out the bigger people weren't people that were kind of worthy of a lot of respect. Because he'd sort of say that, you know, because of the whole, I don't back to you, but I woke up people won't answer you. So you know, I will just keep reviewing, you know, just as a favor to you. Even though it was non consensual, he would still sort of say, well, I think that, you know, I'll just do this for you, you know, because he's such a charity guy. So yes, that was that was one of the things that's kind of been difficult for me. And also because I've been in the My relationship with my boyfriend for two years now. And, you know, the whole onslaught, and especially when you're heading towards 30, the whole questions of when you get married when you having kids, and all those fun questions. And I kind of in my head, I'm thinking, so when I get married, I'm gonna be slim. Like, I know that, like, that's my little picture in my head. Like, I've got it, I've got my Pinterest board, and I don't fit in with a Pinterest person that I've got. And I'm now trying to get my head around the fact that because I think it's mental when you actually think about losing weight for one day, and then you go on your honeymoon and then like gain it all back is mad thinking that that's going to make you happy. And I get that people do it because they want the good photos. But also is that representative of your true self, which is what I struggle with. Because I'm quite the thing is, I've got a lot of common sense and I'm very logical, but I do feel like I deal with two versions of myself. I deal with the emotional meaty one. And then the one that's like, that's ridiculous that you just want to lose weight for one day. But I can't always get that into my head like it doesn't stick. That's like another major thing.