I quieted my own intuition. I just got up like, listen, God, I hear you. That's cool. And I see the direction you want to go. But these people are telling me, this is how you do X, Y, and Z and I want to get it done, right. And it became a situation of analysis paralysis. And if you don't know what analysis paralysis is, is basically, when you get so overwhelmed with information, you get stuck when it comes time to implement the knowledge, right? When it comes time to make a decision or a choice or to actually make the thing happen. You can't because you're like, Okay, who do I listen to this book set this, this podcast said do that this guru told me to do this, this teacher said do this, I want to do this. God keeps urging me to do this, I keep dreaming about this. But in the past that hasn't made me money or gotten me enough likes or getting me, you know, the brand partnership that I want or got me on the book deal that I wanted, or the TV show, whatever the case may be. So you got so much going on. And you just are so overwhelmed that you're like, you know what, instead of me making a decision, I'm just gonna shut down. And that's what happened to me. I was just like, Oh, my goodness, my wheels are spinning so fast. With so much output so much external validation. I can't hear myself and that was just on a business fine. I'm still watching TV, listening to music on social media, watching everybody else compare myself doing all of that, that my body was like, girl, sit your narrow butt down and be steel. Just be be human just for a second girl. You don't you don't inundate yourself with so much information that you can't see straight things straight. Your clarity is nowhere to be found because you're doing too much. And I met Well, it wasn't like I was watching, you know, bull crap all day. I was learning I was trying and like, I just want to do it right out of the fear of failure. And we talk about failure. I have a whole episode about it. I'll be sure to link it in the show notes about failure and failing publicly and being embarrassed and all of that jazz and how you have to eventually bounce back. Why don't fail so much. God, I don't want to bounce back. I just want to do it right. But here's the thing when it comes to entrepreneurship and dreams and goals and visions and all that stuff. It ain't no I just don't want to fail normal. It ain't no oh, this is just the right way. This is the formula this is the strategy this is the way to do it. because failure is a part of the deal, right? There's no escaping it right? It's just a part of the bag. And the good news is about failure is that we're never alone in our failure right? ternal any ESPN right now somebody don't fail, right? If you watch, I don't know, shoot the Lakers versus the pistons, maybe somebody's gonna lose, right? And does that make the athletes any less talented, any less powerful, any less of, you know, have talents and stamina on the court. Now, it's just a part of the game, right? And there's no way you can work out and do the work and plan and learn and do all those things. Sometimes you go have to take ales, right. And as just is what it is. And instead of being afraid of failure, what I'm trying to learn is to just trust myself, and show up and do the work that I know to be done. And just take it day by day. But see what I was trying to do was trying to skip all that like, yeah, okay, that's cool. LeBron James loses sometimes, but I him I tried to lose no mo, but girl, girl, come on. Now, that's not how none of this works. And so I was just like, Jessica, instead of trying to work through this, because I literally was spiritually exhausted, my mental was just depleted. Like, I've never really experienced anything like this, typically, when I'm burned out is because I'm tired from editing until 2am. And waking up at five, you know, sitting in traffic because of work. I had none of that. Right. It was just more so. And I think it's because we live in a time where we are constantly bombarded with so much information, whether it be visual or what, even if even if it's positive. Sometimes it can be a lot, we look at our screens and devices all day long. Go ahead and check your your screen time on your phone. It's embarrassing, right? How much you texted an email and watch YouTube and all of that stuff. And, and I think there's gonna come a point for all of us where you have this physiological breakdown, where your body's like, I don't want to hear none of that. No more, right? This is actually kind of the second time I think I talked about this. Earlier this year, man, I'm thinking back where, again, I was just trying to run, run, run away from things and trying to fill it up with music and reading and noise and social media that then my body was like, no, no more. So this actually is my second time if it happened, but it didn't quite affect business stuff like it did this time. But I was just like, instead of me trying to run and create during this time, I just need to be still. Because honestly, it didn't even feel right. Trying to show up on social media or trying to record the podcast knowing that like, I'm not really connected to myself right now. I'm not connected to my intuition right now. I'm not you know, like, I take the podcast very, very seriously. My mama and my friends, they all tease me they like this is your ministry. And you know, we Kiki about that. But that is so serious. To me, the amount of texts and DMS and emails that I get from y'all be like, girl, you are really helping my life out. It means so much to me that I take that seriously. I'm constantly praying for y'all before I hit record. I'm like God, please anoint my voice, anoint this episode to help heal somebody else to help, you know, bring them some type of enlightenment. Like, I don't take this for granted. And when I'm feeling off spiritually, or mentally I don't get on the mic. So y'all know if you've been rocking and rolling me for a long time. It's nothing for me to disappear. And I used to be ashamed of that. Because especially in the entrepreneurship world and goal getting, we have to be consistent. And that's true rule. Right? I also did an episode about consistency versus frequency. It'll be on the Sundayjumpstart.com in today's episode shownotes that talks about that whole consistency myth.