how much does the Wi Fi on a plane cost because I could be pre booking museums, while I'm here. It's like, Oh, my God, I could feel that tension. In my own brain, like, I could see that I was behaving like a crazy person, I was behaving in a ways that were not aligned with my intentions, right. So what I had done on that trip is kind of failed to prevent some of the things that I knew were going to be problems, I guess, for me, and then they became problems from it. Like, I don't wanna give the impression that the trip was ruined, it absolutely wasn't, it produced a lot of big feelings, that that needed to be managed. So the best way to manage a big negative feeling is to know what your own patterns are, yeah, and what types of things set you off. So I teach on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I teach, like, roughly nonstop from one to 530. Like there's a break in between there, but it's just prep for the second class. So pretty much get to campus at 11. And I'm going full tilt until 530. And then I walk home, Tom make supper on those nights and but our kid has karate at a certain pace, we have to eat within a certain window, which is a kind of have to rush to come home, and I have the walk. And it's a buffer. But like, it turns out is not enough of a buffer because for several weeks, I was being like fairly snappish with my family, because I'd been like being nice to undergrads for three hours already. While people kind of undermine my authority or didn't listen to my instructions, or like, whatever it happens, whatever. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And so like, you know, somebody would like playfully say the reverse of something they knew to be true in response to a question I asked. And then I would like just go off on them. Because it was like, I've done teaching already today, right? I'm not ready for this. And then it turns out, like on those nights, I really need to have I said to Tom said, Okay, we're by myself. And he's like God, you ask because I want you to get back from campus faster, because like family dinner is really important to us. But like, is it more important that we actually have a family dinner when everyone is miserable? Because I'm snapping at them. You're like, maybe I spend half an hour watching like episode of Gravity Falls with my kid later. So we could have family time because it's kind of not worth it. Right. So yeah, trying to figure out gravity feels great. It is it is great. Yeah. And I will say that my kid the other day was looking for a pair of shoes before we went to France. And I said, Did you look here and they're like, they're not there. And I was like, they might be. And they searched the whole house twice. And I said, like, just humor your mother, can you go in the basement and look for the shoes. And then they texted me from the basement and said, I'm coming up to sing the song. And the song that they're saying was, I'm Stan and I was wrong. And I'm singing the Stan wrong song. And then they did the kicks. And it was great, though. That was that was nice. Yeah. So So sometimes, like our boundaries are going to be different from other people's boundaries, too. Right? I would say like, Well, I had half an hour to walk home in the fresh air like surely I can be nice to my family when I get back but no teaching are so intense. Like, yeah, like there have been nights when I because you know, I walk in, I get super overheated. Thanks, perimenopause, I would come home. And like we had discussed before about how when I come home from teaching, I should go take a left, go right upstairs, take all my work clothes off, put my cozy clothes on and then take my makeup off. So I don't do bedtime procrastination. But I will come home and like separate is on the table. So you can feel me from two blocks away saying like, it's ready. We're sitting down are you here as we come in, don't even take my shoes off. But I will take my shirt off the number of times that I've had family supper with a full face of makeup on my boots and no shirt is higher than I want it because I'm just like, I'm so hot. I'm going to explode. Right? That's not reasonable. So I was not helping my big feelings. I was just generating bigger angry feelings. And sure enough, it worked better once I just rage quit like forever on family suppers on those teaching nights. But last night, which was a Thursday so I taught all day there was parent teacher night at my kids school. And my husband was like very kindly dealing with me saying you're going to want to bring some earplugs because it's going to be loud and there's going to be a lot of lineups he's like I printed at the map I know where the rooms are you can just follow me like where layers because you're going to get too hot and like very, very kind and we made it there and was a minor. Sometimes we butt heads. Were talking to teachers we have a different idea but what we should be talking about which we should probably work on first and he corrected me about something and I just turned him I was like really says like, Oh, yeah. And we had like a low key fight haha in front of a teacher about it. And I was probably wrong there. And he was also probably wrong, but that ruined our evening. Yeah, great. I shouldn't have gone like I just shouldn't have gone to