And that you're feeling some kind of conflict about the work that that you're in right now. And I was very, I don't know that I was actually very surprised, because I it was a high it was a period of high stress for me, and I just attributed it to that. I was like, well, of course, it looks like that right now. I'm just kind of stressed out this month. It's just been a month, so I kind of ignored it. But then several months later, I started feeling physically I almost want to say ill. I just felt low energy, depleted, shorter fuse, hard to concentrate, hard to focus. Every thought was consumed by some kind of anxious thought about work and I went to the doctor. And you know, sometimes when you go to the doctor, if it's for a mental wellness issue that you've shared before your appointment, they'll give you this checklist, and they'll say, okay, check all the boxes indicating your your state of mind and how frequently each week, you feel these things. And next to the box that said, I feel depressed, I checked more than three times a week, and that was illuminating for me as well. We did some blood tests, and the doctor determined that I had a B 12 deficiency. So I started getting on those vitamins, and I ignored that. So all these little signs were starting to rack up. And about some point last year, in the middle of the year, I was just feeling so heavy with this that during a meeting with my board's executive committee, I just blurted out, I need a sabbatical, and very fortunately, I was very lucky and privileged to be able to experience this. They said yes, and I was able to go on the sabbatical last summer for about two months. And it wasn't until I went on the sabbatical that I was able to compare what a healthy day or healthy week in my life should feel like physically, mentally and emotionally, compared to how it had been feeling a couple weeks into the sabbatical, I was starting to get really good sleep. I was drinking enough water, and this is a very small thing, but when I was walking my dog, I noticed how my feet felt on the ground, and it just felt like I just felt, it's hard to explain. I felt both buoyant in the the comfort, comfortability of the shoes, but also connected to the earth and stable. It was a very interesting feeling, not something I would have noticed at all or allowed my body to feel in a state of constant anxiety or exhaustion. So just being able to compare physically during sabbatical to before sabbatical was a huge wake up call for me. I also brought back some of my other hobbies that I had neglected for years. I was painting, I took singing lessons, I did all sorts of things. I did dog training with my sweet, sweet little lab, who's snoring beside me right now, I felt like a real whole human. In fact, the reason I go by Amber Melanie Smith. Now, instead of Amber Smith, which is the name I've used for the first majority of my 99% of my life. Is because I realized I needed a way to symbolize to myself a wholeness, right? So Amber Smith was the identity, the entity connected to my work and Amber Melanie Smith was me. And so just these little things, right that I was able to recognize that I needed for myself helped me finally identify that I needed a change. So I think that it's a really long answer to your question, but self awareness and not ignoring the red flags is step number one.