2022-06-02 Kāya (4 of 5) The Insight Body
9:32PM Jun 2, 2022
So, so far we've done, we've talked about the karmic body, Joy body, that tranquil body, tranquil body. And today I want to talk about the Insight body. And that is the way that their body is experienced under the gaze of mindfulness. And when there's when did we start having deep insight when they're real ability to be quiet, very quiet in the mind, very little mental projections, discussions going on in the mind. So we can settle back and just observe the body in a deep way to observe the body. unencumbered by our ideas of the body. unencumbered by our preoccupations, our fears, our judgments of the body, to kind of clear, the clear the sight, or the inner sight, the mind's eye, to perceive and sense the body. In a, in and of itself. And, and so it's a, it's a careful sensitivity, to the changing fluid quality of the body's experience of itself. Our senses, the nerve endings that pick up all the different sensations that we feel in our body, are operating kind of all the time. But certain things come into prominence. And then are there for a while and then fade and somebody else comes into prominence and then fades, and, and there's a constant shifting of what we have water comes into experience in our body. On top of that, the body shifts and changes, which, in the course of a single meditation practice, maybe the body has gotten relaxed, they be occasion has gotten more tense, it shifted and changed, changed. Maybe over a course of a year or two, your body's gotten older. And, and certain things have shifted to changes about how you are and you can feel the changes and goes on. Part of the Insight body is to have a quiet mind, a relatively quiet mind, focused mind settled here in the present moment, that's observing the changing nature of the body. And, and at some point, we realize as we sit down and relax, that, in fact, all the experience the so called experiences, we have the body all the ways in which we can know and feel the body directly, is constantly shifting and changing. It's a kaleidoscope. It's, it's a process a constant flow. It's a stream of sensations stream of experience that's shifting and changing and moving. And when this first happens, and meditation is usually comes when the mind, the body meditation is somewhat concentrated, often happening happening in the wake of something like the joy body, there can be a lot of joy and settledness, maybe even some peace that comes first. And that allows the mind the thinking mind to quiet more and more. In the advantage of that is the thinking mind that is not projecting its ideas onto the body. The mind has a lot of ideas, some of them which are not so accurate ideas of permanence, like this is always going to be this way. You know that I'll always be this way and, and the body won't be unchanging. And then the body changes. Sometimes suddenly in an accident or something and injury. Sometimes it's slow and gradual. And I've known
I've been blessed with be able to sit cross legged into my old age. But I have wonderful colleagues, deep meditators, wonderful meditation teachers, who started this way when they were young, sitting cross legged, and now they sit in chairs. And it's fine to sit in the chair. But it's just it's a example of the body changes. And so we're kind of there to feel and sense and adapt ourselves to the changes. But the changing the changing stream of experience, when it's an insight body is not the changes that we see over an extended period of time, but rather, it's kind of like looking at a river and seeing the surface of the river the current is constantly shifting and changing and flowing. And so at some point, this body of ours, without the projection of thoughts and ideas that we overlay on it begins to reveal itself in kind of its native capacity native expression, which is all this changing fluid moving field of sensations that the nerve endings take in and process. And with each nerve ending, taking in a particular data point. And then you will feel the individual data points coming and going as a sound, there's a itch, there's a certain feeling of warmth, there's a tightness, and, and then we feel into these deeper and deeper. And we find that within each one, there's something that's constantly in flux and moving. A fascinating place for some people who do Vipassana practice is to do this with pain. I've done it with a variety of pains, but with knee pain is most classic for me. And to bring my attention very carefully, they'd non reactive attention, the attention, it's not afraid or angry, reactive to the pain, there's not projecting ideas that oh, I'm going to hurt forever, or I can't do this, or this is terrible, I'm probably going to have to have my leg amputated. All these kind of, or self pity was one that I used to have when I was younger. Oh, for me that's in pain. But to somehow have the mind that kind of projection or veil between us and the pain be put aside and just experience the pain in and of itself and find out exactly where it is and the knee. It's fascinating. As we get closer to it, maybe it's a little square centimeter, it may be it's not always in the same place, it's moving around. It's pulse, pulsing and sparking and shifting and dancing around. And we get closer and closer we see, that's not the solid pain that we might have thought it was from the distance when we were reactive to it concerned about it. It's not a solid unchanging pain. In fact, maybe we shouldn't even call it pain, because pain is kind of an abstraction. An abstract kind of umbrella term, because underneath that label, there is pulling and stabbing and burning and, and then, you know, pressure and tightness and all these kinds of more particular sensations. They're intense, the intensity, because of the intensity of it, we call it pain. But pain is made up of many different kinds of sensations. Not every pain, but the different kinds of pains we have, are made up of different sensations that are intense. And so to bring our attention, just to that particular sensation, and see the dance of it, the spark of it and the movement of it, and see that it's not so solid, sometimes it's a lot easier to be present for what it was very difficult to be present for something that we're kind of apart from and we see it Oh, the pain much easier to feel it in a deeper level that underneath that idea and pulsing, searing burning sparking, stabbing, intense you know, feelings, but it sounds terrible these words. But it's sometimes it's a lot easier than just relating to it as the pain. Even more difficult is when we relate to the pain as my pain.
I'm having pain. When we add the baggage, the Association of me myself and mine to the pain, we're adding another layer layer of abstraction, which is accurate enough, but it's not really needed. And it does involve a different order of the mind mental activity, which keeps us removed keeps us reactive keeps us actually increases the level of pain sometimes. And you might experiment with feeling the shifting, changing, pulsing nature of pain, and see the difference between viewing it as my pain are viewing this that pain. But it's not just pain that we see the shifting stuff that just that's an interesting exercise to do it in. But even pleasure you can feel the pleasures of meditative pleasure if you're really tuned into what it's like. It's a stream. It's a flow. It's a glow. It's a shifting and changing phenomenon. The inside body is when we experience the body, but it's all everything is flowing, some people would describe the body as being like sand, sand, sand, or rain or snow kind of flowing down all these little particulates kind of flow of particulate sensations that was flowing and moving. And, and, and, and when it gets really deep this kind of insight body, there is the boundaries of the body, the shape of the body, and it has no meaning anymore, it just is oftentimes the body feels kind of boundary lists, or just, it's irrelevant the sense of boundaries of the body and the shape of the body. All kinds of the ideas of body fall away, just settling into the raw data of the senses that senses provide, that are constantly shifting and moving. In that raw data. That's where the Insight body, that's where there's a particular unique flavor to the insight into not-self. Where we see that in this way, the whole body experience is just a flow of these sensations, any one sensation, we clear it, that's not myself, you know, if that was the case, when that sensation disappears, I would disappear to in a sense, but you realize not Not, not the self, that's not the self, this freeing up of the movement of the mind to this is me, this is myself, this is mine, is very freeing for the mind, very relaxing and peacemaking. And, and so to begin recognizing the not-self, of this whole field, of the body sensations as it flows, is part of the Insight body. And part of that insight body also is, is then to realize that any clinging to it is, is pointless, or is painful, it's not really necessary. And that's kind of like if you have put your hand it's the waterfall of water coming down, and you put your hand in the waterfall to grab some water, you might get a little bit on your hand, but you're done. But But it all gets squeezed out. And, and, and you can't really grab a whole bunch of you know, a handful of water. And so you realize this movement of grabbing doesn't work. And so this insight body, is when we're seeing this radical nature of change is a powerful way of learning not to identify with our experience and beginning to have an experience of life without the filter or the burden of identification. And it's a powerful lesson in the possibility of non clinging, that the things we cling to are unreliable, unsatisfactory, that it just brings more suffering to cling and to see that for oneself. When we're sitting in the Insight body, then it's, it's obvious, it's not a logic, it's not rational. It's it's not because you've reasoned that out, not because you read it in a book, it's just it's so clear and obvious, this is how it is. And, and that's the direction that the Insight Meditation is going someday, you know, really beginning to taste or feel this insight body. That is again a very different way of experiencing the body than the karmic body which tends to be the one that solidifies and carries the burden of all these projections and reactions and
identifications that we have, so the Insight body so I hope this comes you come to appreciate and value and Cara, respectfully for these bodies that we have. And by not identifying as being mine. And I it is also your you're part of this universe, and for you to care for care for your body care for yourself. Thank you