And so, you know, maybe it's just liking, and even if it is just a fish or fish can be fine and gray and fun. And it's all down to how you feel about it. So what I think here is the issue here is communication, that this, this person hasn't told you that, you know, that they're fetishizing you if they are and we don't know for sure if he, if he is fetishizing you, which wouldn't be inherently bad, but you kind of you've got to be in on it too, right? Kind of is like one sided thing where you don't know what's going on, because it's causing you discomfort, which is what's happening right now you are, you're not comforted by this experience, it experience that you're having. We don't know if he just happens to like feeding you. And that could be something that's really nice for him, like, Oh, my God, my son, my mum, my little Irish Mom, where she just, she loves feeding people. And I yeah, it's just a, it's just an act of love, right. And I can see that too. Like when people come around, and I want them, I just want them to feel free and happy and comfortable. And, and so, you know, safe was come someone coming around for dinner, or pre COVID days how much in those days, when people would come around for dinner, I would want to make them as much few food as they would feel comfortable with, you know, like, I would want to make sure that they didn't leave hungry because, you know, it would make me sad to think that they didn't feel comfortable around me to eat. Maybe that's what he's doing. I don't know, maybe the same with like being out of breath. You him enjoying it. Like we don't know, I don't know what he's saying or doing or you do. But you know, it could be that he just appreciates you being able to be vulnerable. Because you know how we feel when we're walking up the hill, everyone's like, there's hold the breath. When someone walks by, we don't want them to know that we're fighting for our lives. And everyone's doing the same thing. Like every, you know, straight size person fat person, everyone is going up the hill being like, not out of breath at all, totally. Because we want the other person to think we're an athlete or something. You know, maybe if you're just out of breath, it shows that you don't give a fuck what he's thinking. And you're just like, Oh, that was a tough hill to climb. And he's like, You know what, it's really cool that you're able to be yourself? I don't know. Or it could be that he some of there's something else going on there? You know, I don't know the answer. It sounds like you don't know the answer maybe. And so talking to him about that would be really helpful. Another thing to note here is that it can be incredibly strange to have someone appreciate your body especially pieces of your body, which we are told Are you know, not good. Like you mentioned and the thing is like the way that I view it is I get it you know as in I get why someone will want to appreciate your body, your body because it's cool and interesting and sexy and, and new and it's just yeah, it's just fun and exciting. But also for for someone to see someone getting deep pleasure from these things that are seen as abhorrence. It is confusing, like, and it's it's suspicious, you know? Because if we saw people walking around doing disgusting things, we would be like, What is wrong with them? Why are they behaving that way? And even though we're fighting this battle of believing that our body isn't disgusting, there's still that thought of, Ooh, what's wrong with them? They are getting joy from my body because clearly, Don't you have eyes? Can't you feel it? Can't you? Can you this experience can't You can't you tell that it is not attractive? So that is a normal feeling when that happens for me, like if someone is marveling at my body, I'm gonna soak that shit up. It deserves To be marveled. There's nothing wrong with thinking that fat bodied bodies are cool, right? So I would ask you to think about like, why you're feeling uncomfortable? Is it because he isn't being upfront and honest? Is it because you're suspicious of someone appreciating your body?