The main teacher, she says I've had all my life has been a book. It's interesting, she was a student of my zoomy Roshi in Los Angeles, the Zen Center of LA. And sanctioned by him to teach, but later broke with him for good reasons. The main teacher I've had all my life has been a book, it may be the best book on Zen ever written. However, don't get too excited. It's a translation from French. And the writing is unwieldy with sentences that are whole paragraphs. After reading one of those sentences, you may ask yourself in puzzlement, what did he say? Let me say I've tried to read that book. And it's true. So it's a difficult book, still is the best explanation of the human problem that I've ever found. I studied it at one time for 10 or 15 years. I have a copy that looks like it's been through the washing machine. The book is the supreme doctrine by Hugh bear Benoit, a French psychiatrist, who was in a severe accident that left him almost completely helpless, helpless for years. All he could do was just lie there. The human problem was his all consuming interest. So use those years of recovery, to thoroughly delve into it. That was term for the emotional contraction arising from our efforts to protect ourselves is Statham. He calls the ceaseless chatter of our internal dialogue, the imaginary film, The turning point for him comes when he realizes that this spasm, which I have called abnormal, is on the road that leads to Satori. That is to enlightenment. One can indeed say that what should be perceived under the imaginary film, again, that's our internal dialogue is a certain profound sensation of cramp have a paralyzing grip, of immobilizing cold, and that it is on this hard, immobile, and cold and cold, that our tension should remain fixed, as though we tranquilly stretched out our body on a hard but friendly rock that was exactly molded to our form.